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EPOV

I didn't remember anything else from the rest of the night. The last thing I remembered was Alice telling me that we had arrived at Charlie's house and that we needed to go inside. I had obeyed. That was the last thing I remember. I don't even know if I slept all night. I couldn't remember falling asleep or waking up, or any that had happened after I had gotten out of the car and walked up to door.

I snapped back into reality briefly sometime in the morning, when someone knocked on the door. I found myself sitting in Charlie's living room, on his couch. Alice got up to answer the door. I listened to the conversation she had with whoever was at the door, but acted as though I could not hear them, or as if I hadn't even noticed the knock on the door.
"Alice? Is Charlie here?" came a woman's voice at the door. She sounded confused.
"Renee. Hello. Charlie's still asleep. I expect he should be waking up fairly soon. Why don't you come in."
"Thank you, Alice. Is that Edward?"
"Yes."
"How is he? I know how attached those two had had been together since they were seventeen after all."
"He's not doing so good. He's been zoning out a lot. Becoming unresponsive and as still as a rock." Alice told her. Renee came over to sit next to me on the couch.
"Edward? Can you hear me?" she asked me. I decided it was time for me to give up on the act. I nodded once. She pulled me into one of the most motherly hugs I have ever received, and whispered in my ear. I had heard it all in her mind just a moment before, but she didn't know that, so I let her whisper and repeat the words to me. "Edward, listen to me. It's going to be okay. I promise you. It may not seem like it now, but it will get better. It's just going to take some time. What happened was not your fault, so don't beat yourself up about it, okay?" I didn't answer her. I fought the tears that wanted to run anew from my eyes. She patted my back and pulled away from me.
"Edward, are you okay?" Alice asked me. I shook my head. "Do you want me to take you home before Charlie wakes up?" I shrugged. She walked over to me and held out a hand. "Come on, let's get you home." I let her pull me into a standing position and out to the car. She drove me quickly to the house and dropped me off. I did not go inside.

After Alice pulled out of the driveway, I sat down on the white porch stairs that led to the door of my house, and waited for someone to find me there. I couldn't take the pain much longer. It was eating me alive.

The door opened behind me a little while later, and Jasper emerged. He closed the door behind him and sat down next to me.
"Edward?"
"Just make it go away, Jazz. Please." A feeling of relief and happiness washed over me. It didn't do much to relieve the feeling of hurt and sadness, but it was a good enough try. At least he was doing his best to try to help me. I was greatful to him for that. He looked at me. I smiled a little.
"Thanks for trying, Jasper. That's all I can ask for. Is anyone here?"
"No. Carlisle went to work and then everyone else went out. I don't know where. They said someone should stay behind incase you came home and needed someone to talk to or something, so I said I would do it."
"Thanks." Jasper nodded. My phone rang. I looked at the ID. Carlisle.

"Hello?"
"Edward?"
"Yeah."
"Edward, she was pregnant." I hung up.
"What is it, Edward?" Jasper asked as I stood up. I had to get to the hospital to see Carlisle.

"I'll tell you later. I gotta go. Unless you want to come with me?"
"Yeah. Let's go. Were are we going?"
"To see Carlisle."
"Okay."

The two of us grabbed one of the many cars in the garage and went to the hospital as quickly as we could. We parked in the lot and went inside, to Carlisle's office. He was sitting in his chair behind his desk looking out the window.
"Pregnant?" I asked him. He turned to look at me.
"Yes, Edward. Pregnant. Not very far along. I doubt she even knew. I'd say she was only 2 month pregnant."
"And the father?"
"You, Edward."
"You had-?" Jasper asked.
"Yes. Actually, it was about a month and a half ago. I didn't think this could have happened. That she could get pregnant, I mean. We were safe. But, I was going to ask her to marry me."
"Oh my god."
"This keeps getting worse and worse, doesn't it?" Edward asked.
"Seems that way, doesn't it?"
"How about we not tell Charlie and Renee about this part, okay?"
"All right."
"How did you find out?"
"It came back with the autopsy results."
"They came back already?"
"Of course, Edward. It wasn't that hard to persuade them to make Bella top priority."
"Of course. "
"Were you planning on telling us, Edward?"
"No. Not really."
"Okay. I understand wanting to keep that private. Between yourselves."
"Do you know what happened to her?"
"We have a theory."
"Well?"
"We believe she may have merely passed out, causing the truck to swerve and flip until it came to rest around a tree. Of course, since there were no witnesses, we cannot say for sure, but that is the best theory we could come up with." I couldn't speak anymore. I simply nodded and turned my back on the two of them. *Edward? Do you want me to help get your emotions under control?* "You could try, Jazz, I don't know if it's going to work though." He tried but nothing worked. *Edward, son. Look at me.* I turned around unwillingly. *Son, if you want, make it through a few more days of pain, and then I can give you something to make you sleep for a while. An easy escape for a little while from all the pain. But, not a permanent solution.* I nodded. I wanted that very much. I was going to open my mouth to ask something that had just occurred to me, but he beat me to it. *Wait until after the funeral, son.* I nodded.

My cell phone rang. Would it ever stop? I rolled my eyes before answering it. I didn't recognise the number, otherwise, I could have just as easily ignored it.
"Hello?"
"Is this Edward Cullen?"
"Yes. Who's this?"
"This is Billy Black. I heard what happened. I need to call you to get special permission to come onto your territory for the funeral. Charlie wanted me there."
"Talk to Carlisle. Hold on." I handed the phone to Carlisle.
"This is Carlisle speaking.... Yes. I suppose that would be all right. No need to be fighting under these circumstances... Yes. Okay. Thank you for calling and asking.... Yes. I'll give Edward back." he handed me my phone back.
"How did you get my number?" I asked. I was being rude but I didn't care. Did people really expect me to be polite and pleasant in this sort of state?
"I called Charlie and asked for it. He looked it up and gave it to me." But it wasn't Billy Black's voice that I heard anymore. It was Jacob's. I didn't know what to do.
"Oh."
"Ba- Edward, I'm sorry about all this. But, there is something I need to tell you. But, you have to listen to me. It's important."
"What?"
"There was someone who saw the accident. One on our side."
"Who is it?"
"Leah."
"Yes. I remember. Have her call Carlisle. He needs to know what to tell Charlie and Renee. And me. I don't want to hear it for myself."
"Okay a-Edward. I will." I gave him Carlisle's cell phone number.
"Bye Edward. See you in a few days."
"Bye scum- um- Jacob."

Twenty minutes later, Carlisle's cell phone rang. I tuned him out. I didn't need to hear this conversation; through the phone, or through his thoughts. I didn't want to know. I wasn't ready to know yet. While Carlisle was on the phone, Alice walked through the door. She wasn't alone. With her were Esme, Emmett and Rosalie. I tried not to roll my eyes, or fall to pieces.
"Charlie and Renee needed to have a conversation and I didn't feel I needed to be there for it. I went back to the house and everyone was there except for the two of you and Carlisle of course. So we came here." I sat down in one of the spare chairs in Carlisle's office.