Walking
in to the shopping centre was completely new to me.
Not in the
way that I hadn't been there before, but in the way that I had
never walked in like this before.
When the sliding doors closed
behind us, I entered a new world. A world of comfort… And
anxiety.
People stared, gawked… Wondered.
Me, with my plain
clothes, plain hair… Even as a vampire I felt plain…
Average.
Alice, with her 'fits in all the right places' jeans,
a probably casual top –that she somehow made it seem 'not so
casual' – that made her eyes jump out at you… Every inch of her
skin screamed perfection; you could feel the smooth, loving touch
from a mile away… Alice was art, there was no other way to describe
it, just looking at her made you want to cry, or smile… Or both.
She walked like no one was watching, but it was so painfully obvious
that there wasn't one person who wasn't watching every movement
she made. Anyone who got to know her, knew that everything on the
inside was a thousand times better than the outside… Alice was…
Irresistible.
Now,
this overwhelmingly stunning vampire was taking me by the heart as
she held my hand.
I looked like nobody next to her, but the way
she made me feel was the opposite. I just wish that I could handle
myself better around her, with the embarrassment and the foolishness…
She deserved better.
"Bella?"
Alice tightened her grip on my hand, startling me with an electric
shock through my veins "Tense again? You know, if you don't
loosen up soon I'm going to have to make you"
I didn't know
if she meant it the way I took it, but I certainly took it the way I
wanted too, and it certainly showed up on my face. I could feel my
smile become corrupt with polluted thoughts, and it didn't take
Alice very long to get a hold on what I was thinking.
"Bella,
we're In public" She laughed "If you must think that way, could
you at least wait until there aren't quite so many people around?"
Her eyes drifted off, and suddenly her very own corrupt smile
grew.
"Alice…" A smile fought at my lips "If you must
think such thoughts, could you at least wait until there aren't
quite so many people around?"
Alice wrapped both her hands
around my waist, and pressed her silky lips against my cheek. "I'll
try, but I can't promise you anything with your irresistible self
walking next to me"
I smiled as we walked on, ignoring the
stunned faces and focusing on the beauty next to me. I patiently
waited as Alice fluttered around stores and threw various garments at
me, nodded my head to every "You have to try this on" and "This
would look great with…"
I never denied the fact that it would
be hell going through hours of shopping, but I was more than happy to
spend hours of watching Alice dance around clothing racks.
Four
hours and twenty-three bags later, we found ourselves at a nearby
café. I was listening to Alice talk about her clothes, and thinking
about how good she would look without them.
I'd never been this
bad with… Those… Kind of thoughts. But suddenly I felt the need
to be as close as possible to Alice, and I didn't know what was
much closer than that.
I still had all night with Alice, but it
didn't seem enough. I wondered if she meant what she said earlier,
if she would actually take me away on a holiday, I almost fell off my
chair in anticipation of what would happen, a holiday with Alice…
Just us… No one to read thoughts, or to interpret moods… Us…
Peace…
"Bella,
are you listening?" Another electric shock… Damn it, it gets more
embarrassing every time it happens.
"When are you going to stop
being so Tense?" she giggled.
"When you stop being so
faultless, Alice" I smiled, trying to mimic her 'I love you'
smile, I knew that It wouldn't be anywhere near the same, but as
long as the feeling was there I hoped it would get across the way I
intended it to.
"You think so highly of me, but you think
nothing of yourself"
"That's because not even the greatest
thing on earth could be compared to you… And that is an
understatement and a half"
"Bella, you're amazing, I can't
even find words to describe you, or how I feel about you… But the
way you think of yourself aggravates me"
"But it's not that
Alice, I don't think that badly of myself… It's just in
comparison to you that I look bad"
"… Should I repeat myself
again?"
"Sorry… I'll try to think better of
myself"
Alice's hand found it's way under my chin, she
looked me deep into the eyes "You should, because you are the best
Bella, I think so highly of you that I find it hard to comprehend
living without you… But you cannot go on thinking the way you do…
Because you are beautiful, stunningly in every way, inside and out…
You have to believe that… Believe it if you trust me"
