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I don't think I could ever be angrier.
I mean, I've felt anger before, but this could put a murderous rampage to shame…
The second the movie started, Alice's phone rang. Of course, being the polite perfect Alice she couldn't ignore it.
She flashed outside in seconds, before the other couple could even notice the alert.
All I could hear was arguing and questions I couldn't make out, I began to worry… What if they found out? What if the entire Cullen family was about to disown us? Would they do that? No… But… We surely couldn't be welcome there.
As I ran down the cinema stairs to find Alice, I collapsed in a sudden heap of desperation.
As if everything that i was suppose to feel guilty for, had finally won it's battle to bring me down.
This couldn't happen! I couldn't be doing this! I couldn't risk everything I gave up my life for! I couldn't do this to my family… To Renesmee… And I could never take Alice down this faulty road with me.
Even if I wanted to choose the life without my family, I could never take them away from Alice. I couldn't take away her life like that…
Oh… God… I was ruining everything, I was destroying the whole thing in a foul swoop of my heart!
I couldn't just be happy! I couldn't just have what I have and be settled!
You had everything Bella! You had EVERYTHING!
You had someone who loved you more than existence! More than himself and beyond that!
And you treat it like it was dirt, like it meant nothing more to you then a gesture of appreciation gone to waste.
Why can't you be there for him like he was there for you!
And why can't you even think his name!
Why is it so hard to think of the man you call your own!
Your mate! Your ONLY mate! Your world, Bella! YOUR WORLD!
As my thoughts shook me to my core, I trembled in the corner of a cinema I was hardly interested in.
I was trembling!
I have to get out of here, this place, this life…
I've ruined everything, everything I could possibly love.
Where else can you go?
And then it hit me...
The only place where justice is truly served…
The Volturi…
Running out of that place was the most thrilling thing… Running in public…
Exposing myself to a surrounding i was so unsure of.
I ran as fast as I could, and I knew Alice would follow, but I couldn't take that chance.
I would never risk Alice's life.
But how would i do it? How can i achieve to leave this life with the person i adore so deeply watching?
I pulled out my cell phone; dialling the only number I knew would help.
"What"
"Meet me at the airport in 5"
"What!? Are you in-
"JUST DO IT!
I heaved my phone at the nearest tree, shattering it. Evidence must go.
I made it to the airport and headed towards a werewolf scent.
Rounding a corner to find my hopes had pulled through... I was relieved.
"Leah! Thankyou so much!"
"Yeah yeah, just tell me what's happening"