"I Need You"-Relient K
I've dug up miles and miles of sand
Searching for something I can't see
Where? Where?! Where, damn it?! It's gotta be here somewhere! Don't tell me that bastard Sai stole it again! Where the fuck is it?
I've just got bruised and battered hands
And a brand-new void inside of me
Gone. It's gone, it's fucking gone. All that work I did to try to locate it for nothing. It was there…it was right there, on that table. Yesterday night, I put it there, and it was there this morning when I got up…SAI YOU ASSHOLE!!! Gone. Empty. Nothing…there's nothing to remind me…no trace left at all.
Complete with walls I did create
From all the earth that I've displaced
Just put the mask on. Go outside, smile, act like a fucking idiot, and nobody will notice anything different. Crying should only happen within the shielding walls of my mind. Emotions only exist within those walls. The walls, the smile and the idiocy, themselves have no real emotions.
A mess that I have made from what
I've just let pile and pile up
This is great, just great. I leave my apartment. The pleasantness of the day barely registers, it doesn't mean much. The sky is mocking me again, just like almost every other day. I wish for once it would just rain so maybe I could feel like Konoha itself wasn't taunting me.
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten…
He left! He fucking left, and now I'm stuck alone in a village of people who can never truly know me. He left that…I don't even wanna think about it now that it's gone…and it helped. It was comfort, it was the only thing that gave me hope that he would return. And now it's gone. I feel abandoned, forgotten in the wasteland of my own grief.
I need you…
I need you here, I need you now
I need security somehow…
Nothing is right anymore. The sky might as well have been bleached for all that I notice the color of it. Without him, I'm nothing inside…it's all gone. My only desire is to find him, bring him back home. There are no mementos of him any longer, Sai probably destroyed the headband.
I need you like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want, 'cause you're everything
Everything I need
I can't do this. No training today, not without knowing that he will return to me. Why the hell does this happen? Why do I need that bastard so much? Damn Uchiha. He's become the only thing I live for.
Explore the cave that is my chest
A torch reveals there's nothing left
These people are idiots. They think I'm okay, that nothing bothers me. Bullshit. Inside, I'm hollow, there's nothing left. I'm so disturbed by it all, by my feelings, by my pain, by their cruel words when I am suffering like they could never imagine.
Your whispers echo off the walls
And you can hear my distant calls
Sometimes, late at night when I can't sleep, I can hear him talking. Well, maybe talking isn't the word. It's really more like screaming, as if from so far away I can hear not his physical voice, but his soul screaming in agony. I don't think he realizes that I'm in love with him, but I would like to believe that he too hears my soul screaming.
The voice of who I used to be
Screaming out someone, someone please
Please shine a light into the black
Wade through the depths and bring me back…
Sasuke. How I wish he would return, revive me. I am a mere shadow of my former self-and I was depressed even then, from the constant insults. Monster. Yeah, that's what I am. A child with a demon inside his mind and a black soul. Like anyone could love me. Even Sasuke left me to wallow alone in anguish and despair.
I need you…
I need you here, I need you now
I need security somehow…
I need you like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want, 'cause you're everything
Everything I need…
I need to leave this village. Leave these people who can never understand me, this sky that mocks my despair, these streets that we walked together.I need to leave and go try to find him again, because more than I need to leave Konoha, I need to be with Sasuke.
I need you…
I need you now
I can't live without my other half any longer.
When my heart's feeling tangled
Somewhere just beyond my reach
You say you've heard my prayers
You've read my words there on the beach…
I hope that I can find something else to remember him by, because it would be useless to go search for him now. Hey…there's something shiny on that post. Could it be…yes, it is! Sasuke's headband, it's there! Maybe Konoha isn't mocking me after all…although I do wonder how it got up there…
I need you…
I need you here, I need you now
I need security somehow…
I need you like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want, 'cause you're everything
Everything…
I need you…
I need you here, I need you now
I need security somehow…
'Cause you're everything, everything
I need you
I need you now
I remember now. I remember why I need Sasuke…he's the only one who really sees me, who really cares. He never admitted it, and I don't think he could tell that I knew, and cared for him like nobody else as well, but it was real just the same. He will return, I know that. We're going through the same hell right now, and neither of us can last much longer.