Chapter 10: Breakdown

"Grim, will you come out here already?" Zelda called from the bunkroom. "No one's out here."

After her conversation with David, Grim quickly went back to Zelda hoping she wasn't messing with Grim's feelings for David and making her out as a fool. Grim took her back to the lodging house after Zelda got off of work but they had to stop by Zelda's apartment, which was located in the Five Points, first to get a few things. Grim never had a chance to introduce Zelda to the boys because she dragged Grim into the washroom and kicked everyone out which didn't sit well with most of the boys.

Grim looked in the mirror and sighed. Zelda fixed her hair, put on make-up, and found a nice dress for her to wear that Grim didn't know she owned. Grim had to admit that she looked nice. I don't even recognize myself, she thought. It was nice of Zelda to help her without knowing anything about her but Grim felt uncomfortable looking like this. She didn't want the boys to see her like this. You're acting like a damn child, she yelled at herself. How can she complain about looking nice especially for David? She took a deep breath then she went into the bunkroom.

"You look great." Zelda said happily.

"I feel like an idiot." she answered.

"Well, you're not use to it but, trust me, your boy is going to love this."

"Why are you helping me?"

"I don't know. I guess I didn't have anything better to do tonight." Zelda laughed. "You seem like a good person, Grim. You should have something good done for you. You deserve it."

"I'm not a good person." Grim said quietly, "I don't deserve anything."

"Why do you say that? Everyone deserve a little something good in their lives."

"You seem like an unbelievably naturally happy person."

"Well, my neighborhood isn't the best place to grow up in so all I have is my positive thinking. If you doesn't have anything positive in your life, then life is just going to get harder to live." Zelda explained. "Once you've reached rock bottom, there's no where to go but up, you know."

Grim stared at the floor for a moment. She hasn't reached rock bottom and doesn't intend to get there but David is the one positive thing in her life right now. He's the only reason why she spent all that time raising money and why she's all dolled up like this. If it wasn't for him, she would be on the streets begging people for money to survive. He's her everything at this point.

"Grim," Zelda called. Grim didn't look up.

"Grim," David called from the doorway, "the guys told me to just come up here."

She looked up at him. He looked so handsome even though he was wearing almost the same outfit he wore on the last date. Something insider her broke. Was it my heart?, she thought. All of a sudden, she felt like crying which was weird because she never cried. She couldn't even remember crying as a child. She looked at Zelda then she quickly went into the washroom. She couldn't let David see her like this. She was becoming emotional and it scared her.

"Are you okay, Grim?" David asked when he entered the washroom.

Grim was standing in front of one of the sinks. She looked tragically beautiful. Her white skin looked even whiter against her aqua blue dress. Her hair hung loosely in loose curls. In the mirror, he could see tears falling from her eyes silently. This is the first time he ever saw her show any kind of emotion besides anger and concern. He quickly went over to her, grabbed her up in his arms, and kissed her with every emotion he had inside him. Grim tried to kiss him back but she pushed him away instead.

"Get out of here." she tried to yell but her voice broke. David didn't move. "Are you dull or something? I want you to leave."

"Why, Grim? So I don't see you like this? So I don't see that you do have a heart? Stop pushing me away and let me be here with you."

"You can't. You're just wasting your time. You can't save me, David. I'm not good for you. Really, I'm not. You should be with someone who could love you and show you that she loves you. I'm not that kind of person. I don't dress up like this and I can't be girly for you."

"I don't care, Grim." he jumped in, "I don't want any other girl. I want you. I want you with all your perfections and flaws. I love you and I know you feel the same way about me or you wouldn't have spent all that time helping me."

"I don't love you, David." she said quietly.

"I don't believe you."

"Then don't believe me." she said as she wiped away a tear. "Damn it. What's wrong with me? I shouldn't be acting like this. I have no reason to."

"Why do you need a reason to cry? Why do you need a reason to show any type of emotion?" he asked.

"Because I…I can't get hurt again. Are you happy now? I don't want to get hurt again. My mother never loved me and no one wanted to adopt me. I don't want to be hurt again and just…left behind." she said honestly.

"Grim," he sighed," I'm not going to leave you behind. I don't know how to show you that. Do you want me to marry you? I'll do it. Do you want me to take you away from all of this? Just tell me where you want to go. Tell me what you ant me to do and I'll do it."

"I want you to leave." she said.

"Leave? That's all you want form me?" he asked.

"That's all I want." she lied and he knew it.

"Fine. I'll leave because you want me to." he said, giving up on the situation.

He waited for a moment for her to say anything then, when he realized she won't stop him, he turned around and walked away. Grim wanted to run after him and stop him from walking out of her life. She didn't want him to leave. More than anything, she wanted him to tell her how beautiful she looked and how no other girl could steal him away from her. Why do I keep messing these dates up?, she yelled at herself. She backed up until she hit the wall then she slid down to the ground and began crying so hard her whole body shook. I want him back, she thought but he wasn't coming back. She knew that which made her cry harder.