Chapter 14- Just a lie
He held me in his arms until we made it back to the castle and he placed me on my feet as we walked to the gate. He kissed me one last time before we entered the garden that lead to the main room. Before I even made it inside I was tackled by Shippou and Aqua.
" Mistress, you left me again!" Aqua yelled and I patted her head.
" I swear I didn't mean to," I stated looking over at Shippou who was crying, " hey, no tears alright?"
" I just missed you mommy," he said as I stood up with both of them in my arms.
" As I did you," I said kissing his forehead. We walked into the castle and into the dinning room where Souta and Spike were sitting once again playing 'go fish.'
" You got a queen?" Souta questioned as Spike growled giving Souta his last card.
" Who come I always lose?" he growled as Souta grinned.
" Because I'm better than you," he giggled.
" Or it's because Spike doesn't hide his cards," I stated as Spike looked at me.
" I see you two made it back alright, you friends are in my study waiting for your return, why need to talk to you about something, alone," he said and I nodded looking up at Sesshomaru. He looked at me with his icy stare and nodded.
" Ice prince," I muttered walking out of the room to Spikes study where Inu Yasha and the others were waiting. I slowly opened the door to see two peaceful forms sleeping against the wall, Sangos head was on Miroku's shoulder and his arm was around her waist. I searched the room and saw Inu Yasha looking out the window and I shut the door before walking over to him.
" Why were you with my brother?" he growled and I lowered my head.
" Because I returned Rin to him after you took her from him and tried to steal my soul. Then you try to kill me once I come back from my grandfathers funeral calling Kikyou your mate," I growled back.
" What do you mean I took Rin?" he questioned, " when did your grandfather die? and when did I take Kikyou for a mate?"
" You took Rin a few days ago, my grandfather got shot by Naraku and took my mother as his mate placing her under a spell. I don't know when you took Kikyou for a mate, that's just what you said when you charged me with your sword," I explained and his eyes widened.
" I would never!" he yelled and I glared at him. I figured it was pointless for me to try to explain it to him.
"Lady Kagome, your back, where did Sesshomaru-sama take you?" Miroku questioned standing up with Sango.
" He took me to my father grave," I said and he nodded. I explained to them a few things, leaving out the part that I was a demon since none of them knew anymore thanks to Spike and his powers.
" Kagome, can I talk to you alone?" Inu Yasha questioned pulling me out of the room and into the hallway.
" What is it?" I questioned as he pulled me into a hug.
" I missed you," he whispered placing his head on my shoulder, " why do you smell like my brother?"
" Because he flew me back here," I said and he nodded.
" I need to tell you something, but I don't know how to say it so I'm just going to say it and get it over with. Kagome, I love you," he whispered as I tensed up. There was a silence before he broke it, " aren't you going to say anything?"
" Awhile ago I would have loved to hear those words from you Inu, but things change, I'm afraid I don't love you the same," I said as he pulled away from me. His eyes were wide in shock and pain as he turned and walked away from me.
Sess pov
I walked out of the dinning room and started my way to the door to return home when I heard Kagome's voice along with my brothers. I decided to see what was going on so I walked that way.
" I missed you," I heard my brother say and I could feel my anger starting to rise, " why do you smell like my brother?"
" Because he flew me back here," she said as I stopped in my tracks. What I heard next made me what to kill my brother and rip him into a thousand pieces.
" I need to tell you something, but I don't know how to say it so I'm just going to say it and get it over with. Kagome, I love you," I heard him whispered and I heard Kagome gasp and her aura changed. They hadn't talked for about 5 minutes when I heard Inu Yasha's voice once again, " aren't you going to say anything?"
Please don't say what I think you are going to say Kagome, I thought as my claws balled into fists.
" Awhile ago I would have loved to hear those words from you Inu, but things change, I'm afraid I don't love you the same," she stated as my hands relaxed.
Why doesn't she love my brother anymore? If she doesn't love him then who does she love? I thought as I heard retreating footsteps, I also heard a the sound of running up steps and I knew Kagome was going upstairs to her room. I decided I would stay here for the night since it was late and I went up to a room. Before I entered I smelled Kagome and walked to her room slowly opening the door.
" Kag," I started as she looked at me from where she laid in bed.
" Leave me alone," she snapped rolling over onto the other side. she's being very disrespectful I thought walking to the side of the bed taking a seat at the end. I rolled her over and looked into her eye's, they held pain, suffering and sorrow.
" Everything will be alright," I said trying to cheer her up.
" Why should I care what an Ice prince like you says?" she snapped as I grabbed her wrist forcefully.
" You dare raise your voice to me?" I snapped losing my control for a minute. God, what have I done? I thought letting go of her.
" Poor Sesshomaru can't control his temper," she taunted and I just listened to her. She was right, I did lose my temper easy, I had to in order to keep peace to my lands and to deal with arrogant people who were suborn. I leaned down to her and quickly kissed her cutting her off in the middle of a sentence. God Kagome, what are you doing to me? I questioned myself as I felt her melt into the kiss. I quickly pulled away as she looked up into my eyes.
" Sess," she whispered in confusion. I turned away in shame standing to my feet.
" I'm sorry," I said walking to the door. Once my hand was on the door I heard a small voice from behind me.
" Stay with me," she whispered and I turned around to face her. She was pleading for my to stay the night with her, what should I say to her? I sighed walking back over to her as I saw a small smile grace her lips.
" Alright, just this once," I said moving into the bed with her. Her back was still toward me as I snaked my arms around her slim waist. My hands clasped in her front as I pulled her back to rest against my chest and I placed my head in her hair.
" Thank you, good night Sess," I heard her whisper falling asleep.
" Pleasant dream," I said as I too fell asleep for the second time that week.
Kag's pov
I woke up the next morning with the sun on my face. I tried to move but my body didn't follow my demond as I looked back to see the demon lord holding me in an embrace. Suddenly all the events of last night came to me and I blushed. How could I ask him to say with me, it's not as if I love him. I heard the door fling open slamming against the wall and I looked up to see a very pissed off Inu Yasha glaring daggers at the figure behind me.
" Kagome!" he yelled as I met his eyes in an intense glare.
" Shh... some of us are trying to sleep," I whined as he growled.
So, my brother has caught us like this, this should be interesting Sesshomaru thought holding me tighter against him. Luckily the covers were over us Inu Yasha couldn't see us but I knew he could tell by the position we were in.
" Kag, why are you with Sesshomaru?" Inu Yasha questioned walking closer to us.
" Inu Yasha, leave now," I growled as he looked at me.
" Did you just growl at me?" he questioned and I cursed. Damn, what's going on? I questioned looking down at my arms to see the spirals back.
" Brother, obey her wishes unless you want to die," Sesshomaru growled from behind me as Inu Yasha slammed my door leaving. I turned in Sesshomarus arms and faced him.
" God, this is to confusing," I mumbled into his chest.
" You mean why your transforming again? You have your ears too," he said and I sighed.
" Curses," I stated attempting to get up but he wouldn't let go of me, " what are you doing?"
" Making a memory," he whispered in my ear stroking it with his free hand. I purred contently and relaxed into his touch.
" Stop," I murmured as he did. I looked up at him and smiled, " we have to get up, I have to tell the others."
He nodded kissing my forehead as he stood up.
" I'm leaving today, to go back home," he said turning to me. I felt like telling him no and that I needed him here but that would be too selfish of me because I knew I had kept him from his work long enough. I walked up to him and hugged him.
" I'll miss you Sess," I whispered looking up at him. He captured my lips in a sweet tender kiss that I complied to.
" Come to me if you need help," he said and I nodded. I watched him walk out of my room and out of the castle as I ran to the window to see him looking up at me with a smile. I smiled back to him as he started on his way leaving me in my room wishing he was there with me.
" Kagome, you mind explaining?" Inu Yasha growled walking in.
" I guess I have to, come, I will explain everything with the others here as well, let us go," I stated and he nodded. We walked down to the dinning room to see everyone at the table eating as we took our seats, " after we eat I need to explain a few things."
" Alright Lady Kagome," Miroku said as we ate quickly and went to Spikes study. I explained to them what was happening to me and I explained the thing about knowing Sesshomaru. Inu Yasha nodded when I was talking.
" I remember now, Sesshomaru would always come here but I never figured out why until the his friend went away, but her name was Iris," Inu Yasha explained looking at me.
" Did you not listen to Kagome? Her name is Iris!" Sango yelled.
" I see, so what will you do when you are 18? Will you become demon or human?" Inu Yasha questioned as I leaned up against the wall closing my eyes.
" I seriously don't know. If I were human then I could go back to my era and stay and if I change then I can't. There is nothing that comes to mind that would keep me from becoming human once again," I explained Even though I would stay demon if Sess would love me. Where did that come from I thought, " I don't think I would be able to stay here anyways."
" And why not?" Spike questioned walking in.
" I'm the link between the two worlds. I was never suppose to be here in the first place, our father said so. I keep the peace between here and the other lords but I must fix the jewel I have shattered, once my task is done I will leave this world and never come back," I explained.
What about Sesshomaru? Does he know about this? he questioned telepathically.
I don't want to worry him about it, not like he would care. Even if I were to have a reason to stay here I can not, it is not my place, I'm sorry, I said back.
If you know this then don't play with his heart, if you know you will leave him once again, don't get him involved, he stated walking out the door.
" Kagome, what was that all about?" Sango questioned.
" I'd rather not talk about it," I said walking out.
About two months have passed now and I had not seen Sesshomaru since the night he held me in his sleep. I know the next time I see him could be my last and it kills me to think such a thought. It was now a day before my 18th birthday and I had two more jewel shards to find before the jewel would be completed, I knew Kouga was the one who had them.
" Inu Yasha, are you ready to go?" I questioned and he nodded, " good, lets run." We were running as we could in order to get to Kouga's by sunset. I was now almost demon, my claws were blood red along with the stripes on my face. On my forehead was a blood red outline of the star that would turn black at midnight tonight. My black tail was flung over my shoulder blowing freely in the wind as my ears. I was faster that Inu Yasha now but I ran at a pace so he could keep up.
" Kouga is coming our way," Inu Yasha stated as we both came to a halt as a tornado of wind came at us.
" I see you have done a good job in taking care of my women, I will be taking her now," Kouga said walking up to me.
" Kouga, we are here for one reason and one reason only, we need the jewel shards. Yours are the only ones we need to have the jewel completed," I explained.
" I see, so that's all you want, I have a deal, you become my mate and I will gladly give up the shards," he stated and I shook my head.
" I can't do that, once I defeat Naraku I am going back to my era but you will always be in my heart, pleas Kouga, try to understand," I said as he nodded handing me the jewels, " thank you."
" Yeah whatever, don't forget Kagome, I will always love you," he said running away before I could say anything.
" Interesting," I stated.
" Indeed," I heard someone say as I turned around to look into the eyes of the demon lord of the west.
" Sess," I said looking at his disapproving face. He jumped out of the tree he was standing in and slowly made his way towards us.
" Brother, what are you doing here?" Inu Yasha questioned.
" I have come to give you information, but I have also found out some information I didn't want to know," he said looking at me in an icy glare. I bowed my head in shame as he continued, " Inu Yasha, Naraku is in a nearby village staying as a peasant."
" I see," he said looking at me, " I'll leave you two alone," he said running away. Sesshomaru looked at me but I continued to look at the ground.
" Iris," he whispered walking up to me. He placed a clawed hand under my chin forcing me to look up at him.
" Sess," I started as I felt his lips on mine. He kissed me but I wouldn't kiss him back as a tear rolled down my cheek. He wiped it away looking deep into my eyes.
" What's wrong?" he questioned. ( warning- massive oocness) I shook my head, " your lying to me aren't you?"
" Yes," I whispered.
" Why? You don't have to lie to me," he said pulling me into an embrace, " don't lie to me."
" Please don't, I can't," I whispered pulling away from him. He looked at me confusedly.
" Kag, why are you acting like this?" he questioned as I started to laugh.
" You think I'm acting? You really are an idiot, I can't believe you fell me it," I laughed.
" Don't tell me," he said.
" You actually thought that I could love you Sesshomaru, you are as stupid as you look," I said as he grabbed me by the shirt.
" You can't look me in the eye and tell me that you feel nothing for me, that night we stayed together in your room. Are you telling me that it was all just an act? Why? I can't except it. You can't look me in the eye and say that it was a lie and that you didn't feel anything for me as I did you," he yelled as I looked him in the eyes.
" I didn't," I stated no emotion in my voice. He searched my eyes for a possible lie and found none as he threw me on the ground.
" You messed with the wrong demon lord girl," he snapped running off. I slowly stood to my feet and ran back to Spikes and into my room. I sat against the wall crying my eyes out when Souta walked in. He sat next to me and pulled my head into his lap running his fingers through my hair.
" You knew you had to do it Kagome, you knew. You did the right thing," he whispered. I clung onto his shirt as if my life depended on it and at that moment it did.
" Souta, you don't understand, I loved him and I had to just lie to him to make him pissed off at me so he wouldn't love me anymore," I sobbed.
" I know, I know, but everything will pass over, I promise, it will not matter soon. We will have mother back and we will be in our time, I know it will hurt for awhile but the pain will soon leave," he soothed as I continued to cry.
" I loved him," I sobbed one last time before crying myself to sleep.