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Chapter 9: Passing of Time

I walked slowly back to my room.

I was set in my decision. I had to find the one threat that still plagued Bella. Victoria.

I would get a car tomorrow. A fast one.

The one last thing I could give her.

I could no longer give her anything, not that she took anything I would have offered her. She was set her ways. She would refuse anything I gave her. Even though I wanted to spoil her rotten, treat her like the queen she was. She wouldn't allow it.

I laughed at the sudden memory, then shook it away fiercely.

Maybe it wasn't even that I had to do it for Bella. I just had to do something period.

A distraction.

My body wouldn't move any faster. It was like snail speed.

Each step I took, was another step further away from Bella. Each step was harder than the last. It was as if I was stuck in quick sand, each step, each movement, It just kept sucking me in deeper and further. My entire being was fighting, wanted to turn and go back, climb into her window drop to my knees and grab her in my arms. Beg for forgiveness.

Oh how I wanted to hear her voice, her laugh, smell her sweet scent, see her beautiful face, feel her warmth against me. This was punishment, for all my sins. It had to be.

But no, I couldn't think that way. I couldn't return. It wasn't safe for her. that's all that mattered now was her safety. I had to stay away this was my punishment.

But my punishment meant nothing compared to what she'd been put through in the past eight months. The danger and the pain she had went through. No, I had to keep going. One more step, just keep telling myself one more. For the rest of my life.

I got back to the hotel after what felt like forever. I sighed, knowing that this would be my existence. Every day, every hour, every second, would be excruciating and painful as the next. I just hoped it would fade. With time.

I knew better. I knew my memories of Bella, everything, would be as fresh as it was the day it happen. The memories would linger in my mind for the rest of time. The rest of my existence.

All I could hope was that in time, I would be able to cope, be able to deal with the pain.

Pain was a part of life after all, right?

I collapsed onto the dirty old hotel room bed.

Oh how I wished I could sleep, forget about the real world the pain, if only just for a few hours. Then again, if I could sleep, I could dream. And my dreams were no longer that, they were nightmares.

Victoria, was all I could concentrate on. My distraction, my new obsession.

I let my mind wonder to the flaming red of her hair, I began to wonder what had happened to her. She was after all In line with James' and he had been dealt with. There was nothing left to fear, and yet, she had been his accomplice. So there was still a danger. She hadn't been the one to harm Bella, but she had been the reason, she had helped. Somewhere out there was Victoria. She was alive, she was still capable of harming Bella, but not for long.

I had to make sure justice was served. I had to make sure the last danger to my, I shook the thought way. The last danger that threatened Bella had to be illuminated.

But how? How could I do it, I didn't know where she was.

I thought for a while. Where would she be, where would she go now that she had no one. I had never tracked our kind before, at least not in this way. How did I go about it? Was it really that hard? I had looked into James' mind. It had seemed simple. He however had a knack for it. He had the talent for it. He loved it. Ti was all a game to him.

Would it be that simple to me? Would I be able to find it?

I had to try.

I began to rack my brain, for anything at all. Any thing that would help.

A worthy project, that would somehow feed my urge to protect the girl that I love and distract me for my other needs.

I could never think of the other needs. They were forbidden and no matter how hard they wished for me to answer their call, I would push them aside. I had no other choice.

I would not…I could not return to Bella.

How would I find her? Then it occurred to me, but would she help?

I reached into my pocket, and pulled out my phone.

I turned it on, and held it in my hand. Waiting. Debating whether or not..

But my answer came before I even know what I was going to do.

The phone buzzed in my hand, startling me.

I answered it.

"I can help you."

"I don't want help Alice."

"Yes you do."

"Alice, I don't…"

"Edward, I didn't call to tell you I wanted to come help you. But I can help you here."

"You know?"

"I do."

"Alice."

"Don't, no thanks are needed. I just hope after you do this stupid thing of yours you'll wake up and realize what you really want, and go back."

"Alice. Its never going to happen, I cant go back." I felt the anger rise up again.

"I don't want to fight." she replied. "But I also wanted to tell you that while your doing your little investigation, ill be doing a bit of my own."

"What do you mean?"

"Well the house isn't the same anymore. No one is happy, were all miserable with out you. No one want is the same. Rose and Emmett left."

"What?" shock over whelmed me, I didn't think that me leaving would cause them to all leave.

"Vacation." she just stated. But I knew we both knew better. It was more than that.

"And what will you be doing?"

"I want to find out more about, well me."

"Oh." that was a shock all its own to. "What about Jasper?"

"He understands, he'll help when he can and when I need it. But I think its something I have to do alone for now."

The last words she said to me was Nebraska city. And then she hung up.

She probably knew I would try to keep her from trying to find out more about her. It was dangerous. But I couldn't think of that right now.

Nebraska. I could be there in a few days.

The next few days passed as I was on my way to find Victoria, I had gotten a car. A new ford mustang, KR addition. It was fast. Most guys would see a car like this as a nice distraction. For me, it was just a fast way to get where I was going.

I had never paid a great deal of attention to the passing of time before, but for the first time, I noticed that when you wait for something to happen, anything, time crawls. It seemed to take forever to cross out the days and turn over the calendar pages and yet, it wasn't long enough.

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