Once again thanks for the great response. Makes me all kinds of happy.

Chapter 7

After storming out of the apartment Spencer drove to her favourite bar where one her friends from college worked. She knew that she could go there and have a few hours peace without any unwanted advice or criticism from Aiden. She walked into the bar and saw her friend sat at the end of the main bar doodling on an old pad.

"You writing me a love letter?"Spencer asked as she pulled up a seat.

"You wish" The blonde hair girl replied with a smirk getting up from her seat and giving Spencer a hug.

"Hey Ally how you doing?"

"Not too 't seen you for a few days. What's up with that?" Ally passed Spencer a bottle of beer and returned back to her seat letting the other barstaff deal with the other customers.

"Been working a little bit to pay off my car"

"Cool what you doing?"

"I'm working as a PA..nothing interesting really" Spencer tried to play down her job so Ally did ask anymore questions because she knew that Ally had a big mouth and didn't want anyone to really know whose personal assistant she actually was.

"Sounds lame...so who you seeing at the moment or are you looking to break another girls heart tonight?"Ally asked knowing Spencer so well and see has had the pleasure of seeing Spencer with most of these heartbroken girls. Spencer hot distracted from the conversation by her phone buzzing in her bag. She pulled to have a look who it was but cancelled the call seeing that it was Ashley see cancelled the call knowing that she was in no mood to talk to her after their last run in.

"No thank you. I'm keeping my distance from girls for a while"

"Good luck with that but I hate to ruin your moment of bliss or whatever bullshit is going on with you but Colby is out the back smoking"

"She's back?" Spencer asked suddenly looking extremely nervous and agitated as she scanned the room.

"Yea she got back in a few days ago"

"Fuck what do I do?"

"You could begin by acting normal..just a suggestion"

"I haven't spoken to her since what happened and I don't know whether to talk to her or run"

"You ain't got much choice sweetie because she's just walked in and is heading over here" Ally whispered the last which meant that Colby was with in hearing distance. Spencer didn't want to turn around because she knew that she would have to talk Colby which she had avoided doing for almost a year and this is how she managed to get through the past year. But her stupid side got the better of her and she turned around only to met by those sparkling,light greens that had broken her heart a year ago. Spencer looked over her ex and couldn't help but notice that she may have gotten hotter in the past year. Her messy black hair, perfectly tanned skin and amazingly toned body made Spencer swallow hard as she searched her brain for the right words but they weren't there.

"Hey Carlin"

"Hey Colby" Spencer tried her best to act cool but knew that she was failing miserably because she knew that Colby could read her like an open book.

"You look good"

"Yea?"

"You always do" In that second Spencer felt herself being sucked back in by the hurricance that is Colby and she tried to fight it but couldn't because this girl had a hold on her like no other.

"How long you back for?"

"Just for the summer and then I go back to England"

"Oh so that's where you've been?" Spencer asked as she found the bitterness that she had been holding towards Colby for the last year.

"Didn't think you'd want to know Spence"

"Of course I'd want to know I mean we were dating at the time" Spencer snapped taking a sip of her beer.

"After what happened I just assumed that you hated me"

"You assumed right"

"Look Spence...I'm.."

"Just stop Colby it's a bit too late for this conversation and I don't want to hear it" Spencer was getting more annoyed now so she tried to get up to leave but Colby grabbed her hnd and stopped her. All Colby had to do was look Spencer directly in the eye and Spencer was suddenly ready to listen. Colby led Spencer to a booth so they could talk and even though Spencer didn't want be there she couldn't find any part of her that was able to leave. Colby was still holding Spencer's hand as they sat and it felt so good to her as if this has stopped all the hurt that had been caused.

"Spencer I know that we should've talked about this when it all happened and I shouldn't have just left without telling you but I just couldn't deal"

"You couldn't deal with what?with cheating on me?with lying to me?Which one is it Colby because I'm confused?"

"Spence it was a one time thing.."

"Yea a one time thing with about 5 different girls over the whole time we were together. That isn't a mistake or an accident it was you been a whore" Spencer once agian found the anger that had been burning up for the last year.

"Well you disappeared Spence...you stopped being you"

"I stopped because my brother died and you weren't there"

"I was there Spence but you just didn't see because you were on a downward spiral to nothing"

"Of course I was I killed my brother!!" Spencer shouted the last bit and headed outside to the smoking garden. She grabbed a cigarette from the pack in her bag which had been there for about 6 months because she had stopped smoking. Soon after she had lit it Colby was by herself.

"Spencer you didn't kill Clay...his death was an accident and everybody knows that so you need to stop blaming yourself" Colby had grabbed Spencer's arms to hold her still because she was starting to pace the garden. Spencer was crying now and it was the first time she had actually cried after Colby left. Colby pulled her in and hugged her as tight as she possibly could which caused Spencer to sob into her.

"Let me take you home" Colby offered as she took Spencer back to her car. Colby drove them back to Spencers knowing the way like she hadn't already stopped going there. Colby took Spencer to the apartment and they headed straight to her bedroom.

"Thanks Colby but you can go now" Spencer finally spoke for the first time since been in the garden. She had somehow managed to return to her normal cold self.

"I think we still have stuff to talk about Spence"

"I'm tired...I can't do it now" Spencer replied stripping off to her underwear and climbing into bed. Colby sat down on the bed next to her and stroked her hair like she used which immediately soothed Spencer.

"Is it ok if I stay Spence?" Colby asked not wanting to leave without getting everything cleared up.

Spencer didn't reply to the question instead she sat up and kissed Colby on her neck, working her way up her lips. As soon as their lips touched the old chemistry was there and both girls were all over each other as if nothng had changed. It was as if both girls knew that this was going to happen no matter what as soon as they saw each again because they had always been passionate even when they were arguing. Spencer didn't care about the consequences all she wanted to so was be close to somebody even if the reprocautions were a lot more serious than her sleeping with any other random chick. No matter how much tried to deny it Colby was her one, the girl that she will always love no matter what she did to hurt her or how many times they broke each others heart.

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After leaving the recording studio Ashley went straight home hoping that it would be safe but as she predicted the paps were still there and she didn't want to deal with it so she called the only person she thought may be able to help her. Ashley speed dialled Spencer's number hoping that she would act like a PA and let her come over again but her call was diverted straight to voicemail. Ashley couldn't think what to do but knew that the only place she was safe was at Spencer's so she headed over there and hoped that Spencer was willing to help her out.

Ashley rang the door bell hoping to be greeted by a less cold Spencer but was happily suprised to see Aiden open the door.

"Hey Ashley"

"Hey Aiden is Spencer here?"

"No we kind of had words and she went off in a strop"

"Oh...glad it's not just me she's angry with"

"You wanna come in and wait?"

"I was kind of hoping that she would be here so I could hide out here because the paps are still stalking my house"

"I don't know when or if she'll be back tonight but you can hang with me if you're that desperate?"

"You sure?I don't want to be any trouble"

"It's not a problem. Come in and I'll get the pizza menu"

Aiden opened the door fully so Ashley could come in. She took at seat at the breakfast bar as she had done that same morning hoping to continue the conversation they had already started.

"So what happened with you and Spencer?" Ashley asked taking a beer from Aiden.

"I was going to ask you the same thing"

"I asked you first"

"Ok...I'll tell if you do"

" spill"

"We were talking about stuff and about her love them and leave them attitude. Spencer doesn't like it when I'm honest with her so she got annoyed with me and just left about an hour ago. Your turn"

"You didn't give much away there Aiden"

"Yea well I'm a man of mystery. Now stop stalling and tell me"

"Me and Spencer kind of had a moment last night"

"What?I am shocked!!" Aiden tried to feign shock but wasn't doing it very well which made Ashley laugh.

"She told you?"

"A little bit but I had to drag it out of her plus I could tell"

"How could you tell?"

"Trust me I've seen plenty a girl come out of that room with the exact same look you were sporting this morning"

"There was no look"

"Yes there was now continue please"

"Well we agreed it was a bad idea because as you know I'm not openly gay and Spencer is working for me but we slept in the same bed but at no point did we do anything other than snuggle"

"Woah..wait you snuggled with Spencer?" Aiden asked shocked.

"Are you trying to be funny or is that geunine shock?"

"Nope this is genuine shock. Spencer doesn't snuggle in fact she barely does any form of touching unless it's for sex"

"Well I guessed that much because when we woke up she turned into the ice queen"

"That's the Spencer I know and love"

"Why would she bother with the huggage if she was going to be a freak in the morning?"

"That's what I asked her and that's why we argued"

"I'm not even bothered that we agreed that nothing would happen but I'm just confused...kind of made me feel like a cheap on stand she had picked from some dodgy bar"

"That's her specialty I'm afraid"

"I tried to call her before I came over here but she cancelled my call"

"I apologise for my idiot best friend. Look do want to go somewhere?"

"I do but if anyone sees me we'll get swamped by photographers"

"You're a bit full of yourself Miss Davies"

"Do you blame me?" Ashley joked.

"Look I know a bar and I can promise you that nobody will know who you are"

"How so?"

"It's a sports bar full of old football fans that still think Elvis is the next big thing"

"Hmmm"

"They do the the best chicken wings in LA"

"I'm sold let's go" Ashley grabbed her coat and followed Aiden out the door. Aiden drove them to a little bar that was hidden behind a few boutiques. As they walked in Ashley was shocked but happy that nobody in there turned around and stared at her. The place was tiny and full of sporting memorabilia and smelt of beer really bad. Aiden grabbed them a booth in the corner of the bar and the waitress automatically brought them over to beers.

"How do you know about this place?" Ashley asked as her eyes looked around at the strange things and posters on the wall.

"I used to come here with my dad when I was kid with my dad for monday night football" Aiden explained as he waived over at the waitress." Can we get some wings please Mandy?". The waitress nodded and smiled at Aiden.

"It's cool..look thanks for babysitting me Aiden it's nice to hang out with someone that has no hidden agenda"

"I'm totally gonna tell people that I nailed you" Aiden joked hoping that Ashley would get his humour which thankfully she did.

"Just let them know how good I am"

"Deal. So do you think that you and Spencer will be ok?"

"I hope so"

"She'll come around but it just takes her some time after everything that happened"

"What happened?"

"Ashley I really want to tell you but it's not my place. There's reason that Spencer hasn't told and I need to respect that"

"You're a good friend to her Aiden"

After they had eaten and had a few beers they decided to leave because once again Ashley had to be at the studio early in the morning.

"You can have my bed and I'll have the sofa" Aiden offered as he opened the door to the apartement. Both of them walked in to hear some rather disturbing noises which neither Aiden or Ashley wanted to hear.

"Is that Spencer?" Ashley asked as they entered the apartment. She couldn't help but feel a slight pang of jealously in the pit of her stomach as the noises of passion erupted from Spencer's room.

"Yea I'm sorry about that but I've taught myself how to zone it out" Aiden laughed.

"Look why don't we watch movie or something before we go to bed?" Ashley offered hoping that if she stayed awake a bit longer she might see Spencer before the morning.

"If you're sure?"

"Totally I wouldn't be able to sleep with that noise going on in the room next to me anyway"

Aiden walked over to the self and picked out a dvd that he thought Ashley might like.

"The notebook?"

"Yea all chicks love that movie"

"Not this one. Have you got anything a bit less mindnumbing?maybe a horror?"

"That I can about Saw?"

"Good it in then" Ashley demanded as she jumped on the sofa garbbing the blanket that was already on there. Aiden pressed play on the dvd player and took a seat next to Ashley.

"Can you turn it up a bit please?I have bad hearing..you know with all the live music" Ashley lied but she wanted it loud enough for Spencer to hear. She had no idea why but the thought of Spencer in there having sex with some random girl made her feel sick. Ashley would rather that she and Spencer had just had sex instead of just sleeping together because it felt far more intimate and meaningful. At least if they had just had sex then they could've just ignored it but Ashley was finding it more difficult to forget how great Spencer felt lying next to her last night.

As Ashley had planned the noise was too loud for Spencer who just burst through the bedroom door in her underwear ready to shout at Aiden but she soon stopped when she saw him sat on the sofa with Ashley.

"Ashley what are you doing here?"

"I couldn't go home"

"But why are you here?with Aiden?"

"Because you didn't answer your phone and I needed somewhere to hide"

"I was busy"

"I can see that"

"Can you turn that down?" Spencer demanded which Aiden took has his opportunity to interrupt.

"Spence we only have so loud because you and which ever chick you've picked up tonight are loud"

"Drop it Aiden"

"Drop what?worrying about you?"

"You don't need to"

"Look Spence just go back to doing whoever you're doing so we can watch the movie" Ashley interrupted them this before they started arguing again.

"Spence what's going on?" Colby asked as she walked through the bedroom door in the same state as Spencer.

"Nothing Colby...just go back in the bedroom"

"What the hell is she doing here?" Aiden asked as he stood up in frustration.

"Nice to see you too Aid"

"Spence why are you with her?"

"Because I want to be"

"This bitch broke your heart"

"I didn't break anything Aiden now but out. Who's she anyway?"

"I'm Ashley...Spencer's boss"

"Spence can we just go back to bed?"

Spencer was too confused to deal with everything and wanted everyone to leave. She was also feeling like a complete idiot for falling back into bed with Colby and she knew that Aiden was right. Colby did break her heart in fact she smashed it into tiny little pieces and now she was back again to because she knows that she has a hold over Spencer.

"Maybe you should just leave" Ashley answered as nobody else did and she knew that she didn't want this bitch around.

"I didn't ask you and what have you got to do with this?" Colby snapped. Ashley tried to make eye contact with Spencer who had turned into a mute to see if she could see the girl from last night who was open and relaxed. Ashley had never seen Spencer look so submissive in the short time that she had known and she didn't like it one bit.

"Apparently nothing...I'm going" Ashley finally replied realising that Spencer clearly didn't want her there and that she had imagined any connection they had shared last night.

"Spence come on hun" Aiden was now standing next to his friend because he could see that she was in the middle of realising what she was doing and he knew that she regretted it. Aiden could tell that Spencer liked Ashley and wasn't going let the bitch that almost destroyed his best friend stand in the way.

Ashley grabbed her belongings and made her way to the front door. Colby laughed and made her way back into the bedroom hoping that Spencr would follow but she didn't.

"Ashley wait..don't leave at least stay tonight?" Spencer finally offered but it wasn't what Ashley had wanted to hear.

"I really don't want to Spencer"

Spencer shut the bedroom door and walked closer to Ashley getting as close as possible without actually touching her.

"Just stay...please?"

"I'm not staying here so I can listen to you and your ex having sex which by the way would be way more complicated than you and I doing anything" Ashley hadn't meant to be so honest but she couldn't help herself when she looked into those world like eyes.

"It's not that simple..there's things you don't know"

"That might be the case Spencer but I can see from how you act that whoever she is hurt you and I don't even know you that well. I don't know if I even want anything from you but I know that when I woke up this morning I didn't want to run away like you did. So either I'm really bad at reading signals or you felt whatever it was...even if it was just for fleeting second and you're ignoring it"

"I felt it"

"What?"

"I felt it Ashley...this morning I woke up before you and I felt it"

"Then why did you jump out of bed before I woke up?"

"Because it felt good"

"That's a good thing where I'm from"

"Good things end and you end up getting hurt"

"How do you know unless you try?"

"If I don't try then I don't get hurt again and I like it that way"

"You won't take a risk on me but you'll fall back into bed with some ex?"

"It's easier that way"

"Easier than what?"

"Easier than trying to start something with some closeted, rock star who will never come out because her record company won't let her"

Ashley was annoyed at Spencer's response because she knew that if Spencer actually wanted something with her that she would do anything she asked. Even though they didn't know each at all really Ashley just knew that there was something about Spencer that made her want to be a better, more honest person but when Spencer finished that setence Ashley knew that she had judged Spencer all wrong. In fact she didn't even really like Spencer at that moment in time and just had to leave before she embarrased herself anymore than she already have.

"Nice Spencer....look I'm going to go because clearly this a huge waste of time. Umm..it's probably best that I find a new PA because this isn't going to work. I'll get Glenn's secretary to sort out the money and that. I hope you are happy Spencer" Ashley walked out the apartment and got straight into her car. Instead of going home she went to Joey's hoping that he will still be awake and willing to deal with a crying girl.

Aiden stood in disgust at the other side of the room as he had witnessed the whole conversation between Ashley and Spencer. He had never been so annoyed with his best friend before.

"Don't start Aiden"

"Don't worry I'm done Spence. If Colby is back in your life then I'm out"

"Don't be stupid"

"Seriously Spencer even if you don't want Ashley just don't be with Colby. She fucked off and left you..she'll do it again Spence"

"I don't care anymore..she knows me and gets me"

"Yea she knows that you're still in love with her and that you're so blinded by the love that you'll forget the bad stuff and the heartache"

"Don't listen to him Spencer" Colby interrupted from the door frame.

"Yea don't listen to me Spence...let her treat you like crap again but I won't be here to pick up the pieces"

Spencer stood there in a zombie state as Aiden and Colby battled for her soul around her. She was still trying to digest everything that had happened tonight. She couldn't understand how or why Ashley liked her when it was her that suggested that they shouldn't take things further but she knew deep down that there was something there. But on the other hand there was something there with Colby and there always has been. Spencer couldn't take it anymore and just needed to be alone.

"WOULD YOU BOTH JUST SHUT UP!!!I am standing right here and you are both acting like I'm not here. Colby just leave..I'll call you in the morning"

Colby didn't even repsond as she had clearly lost the arguement and her ego was bruised so she just left. Aiden didn't say anything he just held Spencer and comforted her.