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Chapter 8

Spencer woke up in lying in Aiden's arms which explained whys she felt so safe. After all the drama last night Aiden was there like he always was and he held Spencer like he always did.

She was still trying to make sense of what had happened last night. Most of all she was trying to get her head around how Ashley reacted. They had only known each other 48 hours but Spencer could feel what Ashley was talking about but she didn't want that, she didn't want that with anybody.

"Hey blondie" Aiden whispered incase Spencer wasn't properly awake.

"Hey I'm so sorry about last night Aid"

"It's cool..you made the right choice...Colby is bad for you Spence"

"I think all girls' are bad for me"

"Methinks this might be true. What you going to about your job?"

"I haven't figured that bit out yet. I can't get fired because Glenn will be in the shit but I don't think Ashley will want me around"

"Maybe you can be a stay at home PA?"

"I don't think that will work. I could apologise but I don't think that will help"

"Of course it will help but it just what happens after you apologise which might be the problem because she clearly likes you more than you like her"

"No she doesn't in fact I think she may hate me"

"She doesn't hate you Spence I think you just hurt her feelings"

"I didn't know she had feelings I mean we don't even know each other. We had a drunken kiss that's all"

"I don't think the kissing was the issue"

"Ok kryptic boy what do you know?" Spencer asked sitting up to examine Aiden's reply.

"I don't know anything...ok I know that you slept together in a non biblical sense"

"So?"

"So that's a big deal especially for you and I think Ashley gets that"

"How though?"

"I guess that's what happens when you connect with someone. Look I think you are in slight denial about this whole scenario"

"That may be true but I'm choosing the route of denial..it's for the best"

"For who?"

"Both of us. She doesn't want to be dragged into my life and I don't want to be dragged into her"

"So back to my original question what are you going to do?"

Spencer pondered the question for a while and tried to think of every possible outcome but came to the conclusion that she can't predict what will happen. In fact she couldn't do that with anything or any situation. Spencer had no control over what happens in her life when it comes to getting close to somebody and she needed to accept that before she did die alone as Aiden had already predicted for her. How she had only just realised this was beyond her but she decided to take her knew found thinking and put it into play.

"I'm going to talk to Ashley"

Aiden couldn't help but look confused at the response.

"What?"

"I need to talk to her..I need to because otherwise I won't know"

"Know what?"

"I'm not sure about that part yet but you're right and I don't want to die alone"

"You do know I was joking about that?"

"But it's true Aiden..I'm an eveil ice queen bitch who pushes people away who get to close"

"I've been saying this for the past year and only now you start listening?"

"Well it's probably now or never because I can't imagine that I'm going to be this positive by tomorrow"

"Yea that's true..well carpe diam and all that shit"

"Don't be cheesy Aiden"

"Says the gay girl who just had an ephihany in a guy's bedroom" Aiden was enjoying teasing Spencer now she wasn't crying.

"It wasn't an ephihany...it's just last night when Ashley said those things I kind of wanted to say them back but I was frozen inbetween her and Colby. Now I know that I don't want Colby no matter how much she tells me that she loves me. I don't even know if I want Ashley but I know that I want somebody to be my somebody again and she might be that somebody...I've just got to find out"

"Go for it....now leave so I can get back to sleep"

"Thank you Dennison"

"Just go before you start crying again" Aiden said throwing a pillow at Spencer. Spencer jumped off the bed and headed back to her bedroom to get changed so she could go meet Ashley at the studio.

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Ashley had been at the studio since about 7am as she couldn't sleep at all and Joey had thought that it was best that she put her extra emotion into her music rather than soaking his t-shirt with her tears. She was trying her best to understand why she had let herself become so involved with soembody who didn't return the feelings and who she didn't know. She was trying her best to push it all to the back of her mind so that she could get on with her life and her job. She was in the booth trying to lay down the vocals to a track but she was soon distracted as she saw Spencer walk into the area where Joey was sat. She simply took a seat and watched Ashley which made Ashley more nervous than she had ever been which was also making her mess up big time. She could see Joey getting more annoyed the more she messed up.

"Ash get out of there and take a break" Joey asked over the speaker. Ashley complied and left the booth heading straight past Spencer and outside for some fresh air but she knew that Spencer had followed her.

"Ashley..wait"

"What are you even doing here?I told you that I didn't need you here" Ashley snapped.

"I don't care what you told me I'm here to see you on a completely non-PA basis"

"Well you can leave because I don't need you as a PA or anything else for that matter"

"I'm not going anywhere"

"That's mature"

"Fuck mature..I'm not leaving until we talk about what happened last night"

"All that happened last night was that I said some things I didn't mean"

"That's not true Ashley and you know it"

"Yes it is...I don't like you in fact I can barely stand you"

"Liar" Spencer was getting closer to Ashley now closing in the huge gap between them hoping that that the proximity would push Ashley to been honest with her.

"Trust me I'm not lying...you're a cold person who is dead on the inside Spencer. I don't know what the hell that bitch did to you but she broke you somehow because you shouldn't be like this"

"How should I be?"

"You should be happy and loved" Ashley confessed still avoiding eye contact with Spencer but still standing inches away.

"How do you know that?"

"Because...just because"

Spencer decided to take her chance and she kissed Ashley for the second time in less than a week because this time it was more than a physical attraction, it was more than a stupid groping session in the toilets of some bar, this kiss was something that might actually change Spencer. Ashley didn't pull away in fact she kissed Spencer harder and more passionately than she had ever kissed anyone before. Ashley knew that she had wanted to this since she woke up with Spencer the other day and she didn't want it to end in case Spencer acted in the same way as she had done before. But really neither girl cared because they just had to do it no matter what might happen when they pull away.