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Chaper 13

Spencer was still moaping around the villa wondering if there was anything better she could be doing while on holiday in Mexico and also trying to stop herself from thinking about Ashley. She had uploaded the pictures of Ashley and Aiden so that the world would believe she was straight while gagging and resenting her own stupidity. Luckily the fridge was stocked with Corona so she just about managed to look on the bright side of life or was at least trying to. Within an hour of Spencer putting the pictures up on the internet Ashley's cell phone was ringing like crazy so Spencer had turned it off guessing that some idiot had given out Ashley's number to the press. Spencer was now lying aimlessly on a hamock in the backyard drinking her Corona and ignoring her thoughts. She was concentrating so hard on not thinking that she hadn't noticed Aiden and Ashley walking into the yard and seeing them made her jump a little.

"Hey boozy" Aiden laughed as he headed straight into the villa. Spencer wanted to jump in a follow him because for some reason Ashley had hung back in the garden with Spencer. Instead of making any conversation Spencer tried her best to stare at her almost empty beer bottle hoping that Ashley would get the hint but she wasn't. Instead Ashley walked closer to the hammock that Spencer was laying on and took a seat on the floor placing a bag of what Spencer assumed was take away on the floor next to her.

"You hungry?" Ashley finally asked hoping to break the silence and the determined look on Spencer's face but it didn't work. Spencer stayed completely silent and refused to look at Ashley which didn't faze Ashley in the slightest in fact she expected this reaction from Spencer.

"Spence I'm not leaving here until you talk to me"

"Fine I'll leave" Spencer snapped but didn't actually move because it dawned on her that she was on a hammock and nobody can make a quick exit from a hammock so she just stayed there.

"You're not going anywhere so you may aswell talk to me" Ashley giggled seeing the funny side of the situation.

"I've got nothing to say to you"

"Ok well I'll talk and you listen" Ashley offered and got no response so she carried on talking."I'm sorry I was such a bitch to you earlier but you confuse the hell out of me in everyway possible. You challenge me and nobody has done that before...I mean when we first met I totally had the hots for you because you shouted back at me and I really like that about you. You're strong and you seem to know what you want...well most of the time you do anyway" Ashley trailed off at the end hoping that Spencer would pick up where she left off. On the plus side she had managed to get Spencer to look at her and she looked speechless in a good way or least she hoped it was a good way.

"I..look..um..ok I know what I want Ashley but it scares me" Spencer admitted with wide eyes and what seemed like an open heart. She had even managed to get herself out of the hammock and was sat opposite Ashley sat on the floor.

"Why does it?" Ashley was trying her best not to scare Spencer into not talking again so she asked her questions with cautions.

"It..it just does. I mean I had this intense thing with Colby and she fucked me over when I needed her most"

"I'm not Colby"

"Yea she never used to be the Colby that hurt me. She used to be the Colby that I fell in love with, the girl that helped me come out, the girl that made me smile everyday for so long and that girl just went when I needed her"

"Why did you need her so much?"

"Because of some stuff that had happened with my family"

"So did she check out emotionally?"

"Emotionally and physically..she left and didn't tell me where she was going and I found out the other night when I saw you"

"Why did she go?"

"Because she didn't want to or couldn't be there for me..I never really got a reason"

Ashley could see that Spencer was getting upset and decided that she didn't want to push her anymore. She was just happy that Spencer was sharing rather than holding it all in.

"Spencer I know it's hard but I'm really not Colby and I have no intention on hurting you but I can't promise you that it won't be hard. But I still want to try even if I have to convince you"

"Ashley you're not even out yet so we're not on to the best start"

"We can work that out later"

"How much later?10-15 years when you've stopped being a rock star?"

"No when I have everything sorted"

"Have what sorted?"

"My life, my music, my career"

"You have a career and you have music"

"Yea and won't if I come out"

"Who says?"

"The record label they want me to be an idol for girls and a sex symbol for guys"

"Does that help you make good music?"

"No but it sells records"

"No it doesn't and don't believe them when they tell you that. Ashley you are great and you write amazing music. Those lyrics that I almost destroyed were incredible, heart breaking, thoughtful and melting at the same time. You are more than a sex symbol Ash...you have a talent and you should be able to show the world that talent you have without being afraid to be who you are" Spencer had no idea where that came from but it felt good to tell Ashley what she thought and how she felt about her work. Ashley was clearly affected by Spencer's response her eyes had welled up and she hadn't said anything for a good minute or so. Spencer put her hand out to hold on to Ashley's to show her that she meant what she had said without saying anything else that may make her look like an idiot.

"You really think that?" Ashley finally mustered a little sentence.

"Yes more than Ashley Davies are going to change the world with your music" Spencer confessed with a smile as she slid closer to Ashley.

"You don't see so scared anymore" Ashley noticed as she pushed back a lose piece of Spencer's hair that was distracting her vision of Spencer's perfect blue eyes.

"I'm terrified Ashley and I'm still not sure but I wanna find out what might happen"

"What do you think might happen?" Ashley asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Good things maybe?"

"Definately" Ashley replied as she gently pressed her lips against Spencer's not caring if the whole world saw them. She just wanted the kiss the girl that had made her feel worth while and she wanted to make her feel the same but Ashley pulled away and walked towards the house. Leaving Spencer feeling clueless as she sat on the floor. Ashley stopped by the door and turned to look at Spencer who was still sat there as if somebody had just killed her puppy.

"You coming?" Ashley asked as she took off her shirt. Spencer didn't hestitate to follow her to the bedroom as she picked up a trail of Ashley's clothes.