Chapter 18

Ashley took Spencer's hand and led her back into the bar looking for Aiden and Kyla so they could head back to the villa. Ashley weaved them through the throbbing crowd over over heated bodies while carefully making sure that Spencer was fine the whole time. Spencer reassured Ashley with a squeeze of her hand. Ashley spotted Aiden dancing with Kyla so she headed over hoping to interrupt the stomach turning moment.

"Hey you wanna get a room?" Ashley shouted over the pounding music.

"We did in the bathroom" Kyla joked back as she continued to hang off Aiden.

"We're going to head back to the villa you coming or staying?" Ashley yelled again but this time into Kyla's ear so she could hear her. Kyla pulled Ashley away from Aiden and Spencer so she could talk to her sister. Aiden could tell straight away that Spencer had been crying once Kyla was out of his eye line and his brain kicked back to fully functioning.

"What happened?"

"Nothing...I told Ash about Clay"

"What?I didn't think you were going to tell her"

"I wasn't going to but it felt right and I actually wanted her to know"

"What did she say?"

"That she basically wants to kill Colby and that none of it was my fault"

"I knew she wouldn't judge you"

"She hasn't had time to think about it yet"

"Spence...I think that Ashley is the kind of girl that you can take at face value. I don't think that she will change her mind all of a sudden so just stop worrying and let her like you"

"So you and Kyla huh?"

"Just a bit of fun Spence"

"Good fun?"

"Hell ya"

"Her and Ashley are related so that doesn't surprise me" Spencer joked "although she has dated Glen so I don't think she has that great a taste in guys"

"Ok the less we mention that the better because it really messes with my mojo"

"You're mojo?"

"Ok you're mocking me I get that but I don't care because I am on holiday and I have a girl. Nothing, not even you Spencer Carlin can ruin this" Aiden announced while downing his beer.

"Goodnight Aiden" Spencer replied as she walked over to Ashley leading her away and back home or there temporary home anway.

The car pulled up outside of the club and picked up the two girls. Spencer was exhausted and just wanted to sleep and then have the pure joy of waking up next to Ashley again. As the car pulled into the drive of the villa they saw that there was still a huge crowd of paparazzi waiting outside. Ashley rolled her eyes and Spencer felt her stomach turn over with nerves because Aiden wasn't there to protect them. Ashley turned to Spencer to see if she had also seen them which she obviously had done.

"Just follow my lead Spencer no matter what I do" Ashley asked as she climbed out of the vehicle first closely follwed by Spencer. Automatically the camera's started flashing causing both girls to put their glasses on. Instead running past the crowd of people Ashley actually stopped dead in front of them and kissed Spencer giving them the show they were looking for. Spencer trusted Ashley and knew that there was a reason behind doing this so she just went with it. After a few seconds Ashley pulled away but still held on to Spencer's hand.

"Ok guys you have your pictures and I will answer two questions so don't waste them" Ashley yelled at the idiots that were relentlessly taking photos.

"Are you gay?" One guy shouted from the back. The question alone caused Ashley to chuckle mostly because of the pure stupidity of it considering the pictures that these monkeys had been taking.

"Yes I am gay and this is my girlfriend not that any of this is your business. Next and last question?"

"Why have you been hiding it for so long especially considering all the past rumours?" Another shouted. Ashley swallowed hard before she answered the question knowing that if she answered honestly she would be in way more trouble with her record company than she already was but she knew with Spencer by her side she didn't care.

"Ok...well the reason I chose to keep this part of my life a secret was in large part due to the powers that be. I have never once been ashamed of my sexuality and hope that my decision helps other people to be strong about who they are because hiding who you are or what you want just makes you miserable. Now will guys please just fuck off so we can enjoy our holiday" Ashley pulled Spencer away from the vultures who seemed satisfied enough to leave them alone for the evening.

Spencer dropped herself on the bed from sheer exhaustion as Ashley closed all the curtains in the villa so they could have some privacy.

"That was brave Ash I'm so proud of you"

"Well I'm proud of you Miss Carlin"

"Of me?"

"Yea for turning your life around and moving on from what's happened"

"I haven't really moved on but I'm trying...it still hurts"

"Which part?"

"All of it..my girlfriend cheating on me, killing my brother and then said girlfriend fleeing the country for over a year without any goodbye or explanation"

"Spence you didn't kill Clay and Colby doesn't deserve you" Ashley explained sitting next to Spencer on the bed.

"I don't deserve you"

"Don't ever think that Spence. I've only known you a short time and you've made the biggest influence on my life in the best way possible"

"Really?"

"Yes...you're amazing and I am willing to risk everything for you"

"I don't want you to"

"You don't have a choice"

"Yes I do Ash. You love music and you are going to be in so much trouble when we get back"

"Spencer I'm already in trouble..."

"Because of me"

"No because of me so just stop trying to blame yourself"

"If we hadn't have met then you wouldn't have come out, you would still be in L.A recording like you're supposed to be and you'd be happy"

"Do you remeber the first time we met?"

"Yes you were a complete bitch"

"So were but that's not my point. Anyway do you know why I was such a bitch?"

"No I just figured that you were an ass"

"I am an ass sometimes but the reason I was such a bitch was because I had just found out that my fake boyfriend had been cheating on me with every bit of fluff he came across, your brother had brought some skank over for me to keep my mind off things so that I didn't go to a gay club and for about the bazillionth time had told me that there is no way that I could ever come out unless I wanted to get fired. So I was fucking miserable about every aspect of my life because like my so called boyfriend it was fake and then I met you....god when I met you everything changed. You made me smile and you didn't care about this rock star bullshit which I loved about you. I don't care of everything goes wrong because I'm not just doing this for or us but I'm doing it for me. I know that I told the press you were my girlfriend and I was probably jumping the gun but will you be my girlfriend?"

"You were jumping the gun..."

"Oh I'm sorry..." Ashley interrupted before Spencer could even finish her sentence.

"Ashley shut up for a second. I would love to be your girlfriend and I'm glad that I make you smile because you do the same for me. I have been miserable for the last year because I have just been living as a hollow shell thinking that I was to blame for everything and that my life would only make sense again if I got Colby back. I knew the night that you were at my apartment that I didn't want her because I liked you and I still like you. So yes,yes,yes I want to be your girlfriend" Spencer had finally shut Ashley up and the brunettes only reply was a passionate kiss.