Beautiful Disaster

Note: This story was written in 2007, that's two years ago for people that don't feel like counting (even though it was written in mid '07, so it's more like a year and a half at this point in time...) I did however touch up some of the spelling, grammar and stuff.

Disclaimer: I do not own Qundam Wing or any other anime/manga, or anything about them... I am just a costomer trying to consume the goodness that Japan (and other places, too) have created for the public enjoyment, that, we so see everywhere! Please no sueing, I can merely sew! Bad pun... I will try my hardest to avoid these in the future (success probability: 5%, don't get your hopes up...). Lastly, I do not own the Kelly Clarkson songs or anything, and i make no profit from any of this.

Rating: T (because I don't want to underrate something)

Summary: Quatre thinks of his one and only love, who might be coming home soon. 4/6 pairing, shonen ai warning.

Warning!!!: shonen ai, 4/6, Quatre/Zechs, mention of 2/3 and 1/5. Basically I write nothing past kisses. Also this story is OOC and has nothing to do with the actual story line.

Chapter 1: "...drowns in his dreams..."

Quatre opened the cardboard box that came in the mail that day. Inside the blond boy found many beautiful trinkets, and small paintings. Sitting there in a photograph was Zechs Merquise –He wanted Quatre to call him Milliardo. He had been in Spain watching bull fights and enjoying the scenery. Quatre would have been completely against him going, but the bulls where nothing more than dangerous mechanical toys that only crazy people would play with. Still, somehow, there were people that still wanted to go and become bull fighters, still people willing to watch the brutality. Even so, with all of Quatre's uneasiness about it all, seeing Zechs sitting on the bull statue, it made his fears go to rest. Flipping through the pictures, Quatre saw many of the scenes that Zechs had seen.

Quatre walked over to his desk and opened a locked drawer to pull out a photo album he had made for Zechs alone. Quatre flipped through the other pages filled with all of the other pictures he owned of Zechs, until he came to the end of the pictures and the beginning of the blank pages. Quatre put all of the new pictures of Zechs in Spain into three of the pages, and locked the book away again.

He sat down on the floor next to the box again, and looked through the random trinkets and jewelry, finally Quatre found what he had searched for. With a sigh of relief he pulled out the letter, only to find small boxes in the bottom on top of it. Curiously Quatre pulled out the longer/larger of the two boxes and opened it. Inside was a golden colored, chain necklace, adorned with red gemstones held in with tiny loop-holes. He smiled at the sight, but then looked back at the smaller, square box. It looked like a ring box, and without much hesitation Quatre opened it as well. And just as he had suspected, it was a ring, to match the necklace.

Smiling Quatre tried on the jewelry, ring and necklace together, and gazed into a mirror to see how the decorations fit with his casual attire. Quatre's heart fluttered as he thought of the letter in the bottom of the box. Barely able to calm himself, Quatre opened the letter and read it.

Dear Quatre Raberba Winner, I have enjoyed my time in Spain and am heading to Japan. I wish to see you soon. Please meet me at the airport between noon and three, this Saturday. Please inform me if you will be leaving with me to travel the globe by my side. It does get kind of lonely you know. With Love Milliardo Peacecraft.

With a long sigh Quatre thought about the words on the paper, he knew that they were written with love and sincerity. Quatre pulled open another drawer on his desk and pulled out a locked diary, with a voice command lock as well. After opening the book he placed the letter with others from Zechs in the hollowed out pages. It felt as if there had been a birdcage in his heart, locked up tight until his sixteenth birthday. The day that he found to be the best in his life, for it was the day that Zecks had come to him in secret and told him about his feelings.

"I love you, Quatre Raberba Winner, I want you to be mine."

It seems almost needless to point out the fact that Quatre had been thinking of Zechs before that, and had fallen into a solitary love. It was probably strengthened when the pale blond found out that all of his other friends had found love as well. The Gundam Wing team had been put on reserve after the war ended, Heero was the only disappointed one it had seemed to his teammates. Quatre was still fourteen years old when he and his team moved from the colonies to Earth, taking up residence in Tokyo, Japan. Quatre wanted to go to Kyoto, but he never spoke his mind. The five of them didn't have anything better to do than work on their relationships.

Despite everything looking into a bright future, Quatre felt he was being pushed out, and that he wasn't needed. Everyone else knew how to fulfill tasks around the house that they all shared, and everyone practically volunteered to do everything. Leaving Quatre with nothing to do, and no one to spend time with, even when he tried. It caused a deep lonely pain in his chest, and he didn't know how to deal with it. The first time he heard that Trowa was in love with Duo, and that Duo returned his feelings, Quatre knew that was almost the last brick in the wall between them. Not too long afterward Heero and Wufei stopped hiding their feelings for one another, placing another brick in the wall between them.

After his fifteenth birthday, Quatre read through his old diaries from when the war was still going on. He found a page that he first mentioned a man named Zechs Merquise in, and his heart fluttered while reading the name. Soon the blond fifteen year old found that he was in love with someone as well. A cage that used to hold birds, now opened and for the first time Quatre was able to fly with his own wings, his own decision, no longer needing to be supported.

It had been five months since his sixteenth birthday. Quatre could hardly hold his happiness, and his longing for seeing Zechs again. Saturday was merely three days away, that fact made it even harder to wait. He spent the day dreaming about how he would greet the man, would he run up to him and hug him, would he kiss him? Just the thought made Quatre's heart skip a beat, and a smile spread eagerly over his face.

"I can't wait." Quatre said to himself before realizing that he would need to come up with a plan on how to escape his friends clutches. Even though they seemed to not care that much, they really did, and Quatre knew that. But there was nothing here for him, and he wanted to see the world with Zechs. A letter was the best way to be able to leave without having to say "goodbye" the blonde boy figured.

With that, Quatre pulled out paper and a pen, and began to write...

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A/N: Chapter one... is done... Chapter two... is coming soon. Now read it out loud and listen to the rhymes.

Tell me, what do you think? Care to comment: Wow! I didn't even remember who had written this it was so good! I got totally lost there for a minute! But, reality isn't that easy to avoid. Great! Keep up the good work. I think you like the pairings where there is a cute small guy and a tall smeksee angster who knows how to make jokes and be silly for their cute small guy. I admit it is very cute!! I prefer those who are more around the same height. Though Hiei/Kurama, Hana/Renji, and of course Cain/Riff, along with Quatre/Zechsee. This fic is considered a 4/6 as the pairing because of the meanings of their names. JA!!

Notes: This comment comes from my sister, who is used to reading fanfictions and all sorts of stuff. She is actually the one that got me into anime/manga when we were still so young, and I can remember our first anime (that we knew was an anime) that we ever watched: Digimon (when that first came out in the US, after that it was a lot of Pokemon, Yu-Gi-Oh, and tons were to follow)

Anyway, If you all are really interested in this story (even if it's only one) please leave a review and tell me what you think! Kichikoneko gives you luck!