I get home and just sit by the pool with my feet dangling in looking past my reflections. I don't know how long I'm there before I feel a hand on my shoulder so I look up and Spencer is smiling at me.
"Hey are you ok?" I nod and look away from her.
Spencer sits down next to me.
"What's going on? You seem troubled."
She has no idea I tell her I'm fine then she shakes her head.
"I don't believe you. If you don't want to tell me that's ok. I just thought we could talk about anything." She gets up and so do I
"Wait, Spencer I have to tell you something but I don't know if its gunna be weird."
"What is it?" She is standing in the doorway.
"The other night when you came home drunk, I was helping you to your room and you kind of kissed me."
"What do you mean kind of like a peck on the cheek?"
"No like you know."
Her eyes go wide and she looks confused.
"I'm sorry Ashley, I didn't mean to."
"It's ok I just didn't know how to tell you since I'm gay I didn't want you to freak out and feel weird around me."
She rests a hand on my crossed arms and I look at her.
"I could never feel weird around you." Her hand stays there a while then I unfold my arms and she moves hers away.
"I'm going up good night Spencer." I walk up stairs turn on my stereo and lock the door.
Spencer's POV
I can't believe I kissed Ashley that's crazy right. I finally go upstairs and I could swear I hear talking coming from Ashley's room but I just go to my room and go through my calendar and that's when I see what tomorrow is. My dad's birthday, Julie's mom made the calendar for me and she put all the important dates on there. I feel a tear escape my eyes and I place the calendar on the bed.
Ashley's POV
Madison comes over like promised and it reminds me of old times.
"What the hell was that today?"
She sits on my bed and I sit at the desk.
"I miss you, I miss hanging out with you, Listening to you go on about bands I've never heard of and I miss kissing you."
"Yeah well what do you want me to do about it? I'm not going to be your secret again and you're straight now isn't that what you told me the last time we talked."
"So I don't know why I said that."
I look at her and sit down next to her.
"What's really going on?"
She wipes a tear from her eye.
"My parents are getting a divorce my dad is talking about moving to Miami. I just want things to go back to freshman year. They we're so happy."
"Kissing me isn't going to solve anything." I nudge her and she smiles.
"If you wanted to talk you could have done without the lip lock."
"Please you would have cussed me out and walked away."
"True I probably would have." I put my hand on hers.
"You're going to be fine. I promise."
After a while of talking to Madison she leaves and I'm still thinking about Spencer so I go to her room and look in but she isn't there. I look around I see a calendar and notice a note saying "Dad's birthday." I turn around and she is walking in the room.
"Oh my god, you scared me Ash."
"Sorry, I didn't see in bed so I was getting worried."
"Oh sorry I went to get something to drink."
She sits down on the bed and stares at the wall.
"Are you ok?" I see tears in her eyes and she nods.
I sit down next to her and pull her close to me.
"We don't have to talk you could just cry." She holds me tight and lets it all out of her.