Spencer's POV

I sat on the porch when we got back to Julie's house. Julie's parents were at work and me, Julie and Zane had all went to the movies and i dont even remember what we saw because i've just been thinking about my parents maybe it was better when I knew nothing. Julie goes inside and Zane sits next to me on the steps.

"Hey you ok? You look like you are a million miles away." Zane looks inside the house and then around like he is about to steal something.

'Yeah I;m fine, What's with you?" He stops looking around.

"Look I know you want answers about what happened. So I did some calling around and got you in for a visit at the prison."

I now have a chance to face him once more and this time get some answers. At this moment this was the best thing I had heard this was something that I wanted and needed with my head so fixed on meeting Jacob I didn't realize what I did till it was too late. I kissed Zane without even thinking.

"Whoa Spencer what are you doing?" I didnt even know I turn away from Zane and my eyes are meet with hurt, tearfilled eyes for a second then she breaks the eye contact and I dont blame her. I'm frozen I can't imagine what is going through her head right now. Julie walks out of the house.

"Is that Ashley?" I nod my head and look down.

"Fantastic, Ashley." Julie walks over to the car and I stand up to meet them halfway up the drive way.

"Ashley, What are you doing here?' I have my arms tucked under each other.

"Come on Ashley come inside." Julie is walking towards the front door that Zane disappeard through.

"No I shold get back to my mom." Ashley sticks her hands in her pockets never looking at me just the ground or Julie when she is talking.

"Aww well how long are you here for?" Julie has always been the friendly one

"I dont think for long. It was nice meeting you." Ashley fakes a smile. Julie walks inside then Ashley looks back down at the ground.

"Bye." Ashley starts to walk to the rental car and i stop her at the end of the driveway.

"That kiss didn't mean anything." She shakes her head.

"I get it now why you didn't text or call me. Enjoy the rest of your break." Ashley puts on her sunglasses and then gets in the car and I follow her. I get in the passanger seat and she just keeps looking foward.

Ashley's POV

I get in the car and put the keys in the ignition and here the passanger door open and close. I feel Spencer's eyes on me but I keep my head foward. I'm still trying to process what had just happened.

"Ash. please look at me. please, I'm sorry ok I didn't mean to kiss him." I rest my head in my hand.

"Didn't mean to kiss him? How do you not mean to kiss someone? I mean did you mean to kiss me or was that just a mistake was everything you said to me the truth or did you not mean for it to happen?"

"Ashley come on, I dont have feelings for Zane, but I do have feelings for you very strong feelings."

"Not that strong apparently." I feel Spencer shift in her seat.

"It didn't mean anything Ash."

"Of course it meant something if you kissed him you have some sort of feelings for him."

"You kiss girls all the time and it doesn't mean anything." Spencer was now getting mad which I've never seen before.

"You're not like me Spence." I take off my sunglasses and throw them on the dashboard.

"How do you know that? You dont know me Ashley I dont even know myself so how could you possibly know if I am like you are not?"

"Whoever that girl was I met in L.A. was a girl that didn't hurt someone for something that didn't mean anything."

"Well go back to L.A. and find her then." Spencer reaches for the door and opens it.

"I will because she is the girl I fell in love with and you dont seem to be her." Spencer looks back at me and as soon as she closes the door I peel out. I get to the hotel about thirty minutes later and Christine is not around so I lay on the bed and let all the tears out the ones that have been building up in my eyes.

Spencer's POV

What the hell was happening to me I just ran off Ashley the only person that actually gets me and I yelled at her the only time I yell and I take it out on Ashley who was just caring about me I feel like a total bitch. I try texting her but no response and I leave about twenty voice mails but Ashley doesn't respond to any of them. I dont blame her for being mad at me I saw the hurt in her eyes. I messed up the best thing that has happened to me.

"Hey are you ok?" Julie sits down in front of my on a stool.

"I just made a huge mistake and don't think I'll ever live it down."

"What did you do?"

"I kissed Zane."

"My stupid brother Zane, The Zane that burps the abcs Zane?'

"Yes I don't know why I did it but I did."

"Is that why Ashley was upset."

"What?"

"Spin, you dont have to hide things from me I saw how you two were looking at each other.'

"She is amazing she gets me and now she isn't even going to talk to me anymore.'

'Give her time you know how us girls are we just need time to cool off and think things through." Julie pats me on the back then leaves the room.

I remember what Ashley said about getting back to her mom so I call Christine just to see if by some miracle they were actually here together.

"Hello.'

"Christine it's Spencer, is Ashley with you by any chance?"

"She is in the bathroom, we are about to take off to L.A. so I have to get off the phone sorry."

"Ok Well have a safe flight bye.' I hung up and throw my phone to the ground and lay down staring at the ceiling.

Ashley's POV

I return to my seat by the window and Christine smiles at me then rubs my shoulder.

"Spencer just called." I just look out the window. "So."

"Are you going to tell me what happened?" Well i do need to vent and we are trying to bond.

"I pulled up to the house and Spencer was kissing some guy. After what happened back home she is kissing another person."

"I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault." I turn on my ipod and watch out the window as the plane soars through the sky. When we get to L.A. I erase all the voicemails and text messages that she sent without reading or hearing them. I unpack then I go to the gym which I hardly ever go to but I've had a membership for a while. I start with a punching bag then I hit the treadmills.

"Well look who decides to use her membership." I look next to me and Madison is jogging at a steady speed.

"I forgot you come here. Maybe that's why I haven't been here." I smile then Madison does the same.

"So what's got you all worked up, I saw you beating the crap out of the punching bag a while ago."

"Just stressed out."

"You want to talk about it?" I nod and we both stop the treadmills and walk towards an empty bench.