**Hey everyone! Thanks for your reviews and suggestions. The next chapter will focus mainly on Jacob and Renesmee, I promise! I feel this chapter is a little rushed and I know it's skips over a lot, I just felt that I was dragging the storyline, so I kind of rushed it. The following chapters will be better though, I promise! Thanks again for your reviews!!!!***
"I heard what happened. Is she doing okay?" Carlisle asked when he returned home from the hospital.
"She's in her room. She feels awful." Bella said sadly. She felt so bad for me it was ridiculous. I didn't need sympathy, I needed people to be angry at me. What I'd done was wrong.
"She'll be fine. Who hasn't slipped up once or twice? Remember when Jasper tried to eat Bella.." Emmett pointed out. Jasper didn't find it funny though and growled.
"Chill Jazz, everything is going to be fine. Bella and Edward will take her away for a little bit. To see some friends, it will get her mind off of it, and she'll come back fine. The wedding will be in three months." Alice said confidently. This attack had set forth a set of visions, all leading to my wedding day, which was apparently three months from now.
"Are you sure Alice? That seems awfully soon" Esme asked.
"Positive. The guilt she feels will stop her from doing it again."
"Where are we going Alice?" Bella asked.
"I don't know, I just know you're going somewhere. You haven't decided anything yet.." Alice said simply. Her visions had only grown stronger in the past few years.
"Hmm.. the island could be a nice escape.." Edward suggested, speaking up for the first time in nearly an hour.
"Save my beds this time, please." Esme joked. I was all too familiar of what happened on the island, after all, it was my place of conception. Since the moment I was conceived, I was well aware of everything that happened around me, including things that happened with my mother.
"I think that would be nice, the three of us together on a sort of mini vacation. We've never done that" Bella noted.
"You mean four.." Jacob said, walking down the stairs, I followed close behind.
"Jacob I don't think it would be appropriate for you to join us" my father stated.
"Why not!" I interjected.
"Renesmee, please calm down. I think the three of us leaving would be a good idea for now. Let you calm down a little bit. The two of you could use some time apart. Distance makes the heart grow fonder" My father explained.
"Dad, I really don't think removing Jacob from the picture is the best way. I mean, I'm stronger with him around.." I pointed out. It was true, with the exception of today.
"And today? Jacob was with you, and someone died. I'm not saying it's remotely his fault, but he cannot protect you from yourself Ness. You're too strong. He will prove as a distraction if he comes along, and right now, you need time to focus."
"I don't –" I began, but Jacob cut me off.
"No, he's right Ness. Anyway, I could use some time back home. I'm running out of clothes.. and Billy is probably wondering how I am." Jacob agreed.
"I don't like this…" I pouted.
"Sweetheart, everything will be fine. And when we get back, we'll have a wedding to plan" my mother smiled., kissing my forehead.
We were on our way to Esme's island later on that night. How my father was able to arrange our transportation that quickly, I'll never know. He was speaking in languages I didn't understand. We arrived late the next day. The island was beautiful. The house was something out of a fairy tale. We walked in, bags in tow, and I looked upon the place that started all of this. The blue room, the white room, the kitchen, the living room. All of it. I heard my parents snicker a little bit as they looked into the white room.
"That's not where it happened.." I said, answering the question nobody would ask.
"The blue room?" my mother asked.
"The blue room.." I said, laughing. Most kids couldn't talk about things like this with their parents, but it didn't bother me.
"You remember that?" She asked again.
"I remember everything. Like it was yesterday" I said simply.
"Everything?"
"Yea.. it's like I was outside. I could see everything after the first few weeks. Like I was on the outside, not the inside."
"Fascinating" my father commented. This felt nice, just the three of us for the first time. No family, no Jacob. Although we loved them all very much, spending time just the three of us was nice.
"What should we do?" I asked.
"I was thinking we could relax for a little bit, then go explore the island at night. Unfortunately when Bella and I were here, she had to sleep, so she missed the beauty the island has to offer at night." My father suggested.
"I'm game" I said. I was excited to see what this island had to offer. And that's how things went for the next month. We had a wonderful time, just the three of us. I rarely thought about hunting, although I missed Jacob terribly. I'd talked to him three times since we got here. It wasn't a lot, but we kept missing one another. All day, we spent outside in the sun. It was nice being alone, not worried about exposing ourselves in the sunlight. Not once did I think about what I truly thirsted for. I felt as if I'd made a complete change in a short amount of time. It was almost effortless on the island. My family wasn't there talking about our impending visit to Forks, the wedding, and taking bets on the next time I'd mess up. I was mentally in a good place, and felt that when we went back, I'd be able to control myself. It was the therapy my parents had sought out, and they could tell I'd changed.
When we got home, Jacob still hadn't returned from Forks. He was going to stay until we came, hoping that would rush our visit. My family wanted to make sure that I could definitely control myself before we went anywhere else. I was excited to see everyone, I didn't realize how much I missed them until we got back.
"Nessie!" Alice called, running out to greet me. I thought she'd greet me with a hug, but instead, she had china patterns in hand.
"Which one do you want! Hurry, we need to pick soon. I have to get these samples back soon or they charge for them. There is no way we are paying for two sets of china, we only need one."
"It's nice to see you again too Alice.." I laughed. "And I like them both.."
"Ugh, so indecisive! Bella, pick one!"
"The one on the left is pretty.." Mom said sincerely.
"The one on the right it is. Thanks for your help Bella. Oh, by the way, I'm glad you guys are back!" She said, running back into the house.
"That's Alice for you" My father laughed.
"So kid, you think you could make it through a Forks visit without eating anyone?" Emmett asked a while later.
"Emmett.." Bella scolded.
"What? It's an honest question.."
"I think she'll do fine.. we just have to wait a little while, make sure." My mother said proudly.
"I'll be alright, but like mom said, I want to make sure I won't mess up before we go to Forks. I wouldn't want to hurt Charlie"
"Well, I know there are a few hikers camping about twenty miles from here. Care for a hunt Ness?" Emmett asked excitedly.
"I'm not sure that's the best way to test the theory" My father warned.
"Come on Edward, that's the only way to test it. We can stop her before she kills them."
"We?"
"You game for a hunt Edward?" My father sneered and we were out the door.
When we got close to their campsite, we slowed down. I picked up the scent of a grizzly, and was intent on hunting it. I was ready to take one down on my own for once.
"Ness, you alright?" My father asked carefully. I must have missed something.
"I'm fine dad. There is a grizzly over in those trees.. it smells really good.." I said, my throat starting to burn a little at the thought.
"That's all you smell?" Emmett laughed, not believing what he was hearing.
I paused, and took another whiff of the air around me. Now I smelled what he was talking about. It was intoxicating. I closed my eyes and made my choice. The grizzly through the trees would be dinner tonight.
"I smell it.. now come on, let's get some grizzly" I said, leading the way.
"I can't believe it. She walked away.. didn't even hunt them. It was like she'd been doing this for centuries. She topped you Bella… well, except that she's killed someone. Hey!' Emmett yelled as Rosalie slammed the heel of her stilettos into his foot.
"It's fine Rosalie. I put that behind me. I honestly feel completely different. Esme, are you sure the island doesn't have magical powers? Seriously, I wasn't really even tempted to hunt the campers." I said, still not comprehending how siginificant what I did was.
"We're very proud of you Nessie." My father said cheerfully. It was nice, finally fitting in. Now, the only thing on my mind was getting back to my Jacob. I knew being away from me so long was killing him. I knew because it's how I felt too. I wasn't sure I could go another day without seeing him.
"I'm not sure we should jump the boat just yet Renesmee. Maybe we should wait a little longer.."
"We don't have to visit Charlie yet mom, we could just go to La Push. I know you miss Jake too. Anyway, Billy will want to see us. And Quil, Embry, Sam. I miss them all so much!"
"As long as we can leave Charlie out of it.. you won't try to eat Billy would you?" My mother said, only half joking.
"I'm pretty sure I can control myself mom.. we can leave soon right?"
"We'll leave as soon as you're packed.." my father said. It would be another trip, just the three of us. The rest of the family probably wouldn't tolerate a trip to wolf territory as well.
Less than an hour later, we we're on our way.