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Bella POV

The drive home with Charlie was mostly silent. We talked for a bit – he asked how I was and I asked him about work, but neither of us is very talkative so we left it at that. That is until he talked about Renee. He asked me how the funeral was and apologized for not being able to make it.

I didn't know what to say, so I remained silent. Renee was my mother and had been killed a week earlier in a car accident. I loved my mother, she was the best and kindest person I have ever known and I didn't know what I was going to do without her.

When I first heard the news I was devastated. I couldn't comprehend a world without my mother. I got the news when I was home one day after having decided not to go to school – I wasn't feeling great. I didn't tell Renee as I knew she would freak if she thought I was unwell, but then school rang her. She was returning home to check on me when she was hit. It was my fault! I can't believe it; if only I had gone to school then this never would have happened.

"Bella?" Charlie was looking at me with a concerned expression on his face.

"Yeah, dad?"

"I've been trying to get your attention for five minutes. We're home."

I looked out the window to see Charlie's house, now my house, it was the same as ever. I climbed out of the police car thinking about how I needed to get a car of my own – there was no way I would be driven around in a police car, how embarrassing.

Charlie had grabbed my suitcase from the car and was walking towards the house with it. I had only one suitcase of clothes with me as none of my summery Phoenix clothes would be suitable here in Forks where it almost constantly rained. It was lucky I met Alice I thought, I definitely am in need of a shopping trip, I just hoped it wasn't going to be as bad as Jasper and Edward made it sound.

I went into my room which was the same as it had always been. I looked at the old computer sitting in the corner and was glad I had bought a laptop with my savings from my summer job.

After unpacking my one suitcase I went downstairs to find some food after realizing I hadn't eaten since our airplane meal at least four hours earlier. Charlie was sitting in front of the TV watching cricket as I walked in.

"Hey dad, have you got anything planned for dinner?"

"Bells, you know I'm not much of a cook", I remembered now why I always cooked when I stayed here in the summers. Charlie couldn't so much as boil an egg.

"Right. Dad, I think I'm taking charge of the grocery shopping and cooking from now on."

"Sure thing. It's probably about time I had a real meal. I generally order in or go out to the diner."

On hearing this I was eager to get some healthy food into him, I thought of the amount of fat he must consume and worried for his health. I looked at the clock and saw it was too late to get groceries.

"I'll get some "real food" as you put it tomorrow, you don't mind pizza tonight though?"

"Mind? I love pizza Bells."

I thought I'd just take a shower and go to bed so after saying goodnight to Charlie I headed off to the bathroom.

I turned the shower up so hot that the heat penetrated my skin. But I still felt cold inside as I thought of Renee. I would never see her again and I was to blame. Tears ran down my face and before I knew it I my whole body was shaking with my sobs. I sank to the ground and cried until I couldn't any more. I don't know how long I sat there but the water was cold when I was finally able to move again.

After throwing on some pajamas and brushing my teeth I dragged myself to my room and collapsed on my bed. I felt miserable and was exhausted from the flight and the crying. I lay in bed like I had every night for a week and was afraid to sleep, afraid of the nightmares that would taunt me because it was my fault Renee was dead. And then my phone vibrated:

Just wanted to say goodnight. I will be calling tomorrow! Your best friend Alice XOX

I smiled and felt my eyes close.

Authors Note:Thanks so much for reading! Please review... I don't think this chapter is up to scratch, so any suggestions are welcome. I just needed to put in what happened to Renee and Bella felt.