Previously...

"You will always be so beautiful." I managed finally. I felt him stop breathing then he started again, "It doesn't matter."

"It doesn't? Why not?" I looked up at him. He smiled, "Because you are just as beautiful, even more so than I could ever be."

I felt my eyes tear up, he was so sweet. He smiled his beautiful, blindingly white smile, "Rest Bella, we'll talk tomorrow."

"Ok."

I closed my eyes and drifted to a place were there was a burning house, a crashing window and then his hard body carrying me to safety. A place where I lost my father and was broken once again.

I didn't feel myself tossing and turning, but I did feel myself jerk up suddenly and a cool chill run down my back. I was soaking wet. I looked around but Edward was nowhere to be found. I figured he must have gone down stairs to visit or something. It must get pretty boring watching the human girl sleep.

I walked over to the window and opened it wanting some fresh air, it was then I saw him. He was with Alice and they were talking quietly, but I could hear them. She patted his back gently, "I am glad you finally decided to give in Edward, this is good for you."

"I had no choice, my heart made the decision for me. I look into her eyes and I can't explain."

Alice giggled, "You don't have to every one can see it." He shook his head, "I don't want to hurt her she's not like us. I don't know how to keep from hurting her one wrong move could kill her. I still feel like I am taking her future away."

"You will be fine. I've seen it. You won't hurt her, and as for her future, it takes two to make that decision."

"You don't understand what I mean." He sighed placing his face in his hands. She smiled, "Edward, yes I do. You are in love with her you want to be with her intimately. You won't hurt her don't worry, as for the rest you two are destiny it doesn't matter what you do, you will end up together."

He looked up horrified, "You saw that! Alice!"

She shook her head defensively, "Hey I didn't see it on purpose, but just so you know it was very sweet and you don't hurt her."

He growled looking away. She leaned close to his ear whispering, "I think we have an audience." He turned meeting my eyes. I hadn't meant to listen that long but I couldn't turn away. I jerked back stumbling over the chair behind me and flat onto the floor. Great Bella always clumsy.

I tried to stand but before I could I looked up and he was kneeling in front of me, "Are you alright?" Leave it to him to act innocent about it all. Here I was nosing in on his private conversation and he was asking me was I ok. Always the gentleman.

"I...I tripped over the chair."

"I see, but that's not what I meant." He ran his hand through my wet hair with a look of concern on his face, "You are wet." I looked down, "I had a bad dream it scared me, and I guess I woke up." He nodded, "I am sorry I wasn't here." He lifted me easily and sat me back on the bed crawling in beside me, "How much did you hear?"

"Not a lot."

He gave me a doubtful look but thankfully didn't press the issue. I was embarrassed enough at being caught and I'm sure he knew that. He made sure I was covered good and wrapped his arms around me, "Want to tell me what the dream was about?"

"The fire."

He exhaled thickly in my ear and nodded, "I wish I could help." I felt the tears begin to slide down my cheeks, "Why can't it just all be a bad dream and go away? Why can't my dad be here?" I began to shake and he pulled me into his chest, "I don't know why. I wish I did."

His body was so cold and with me wet it wasn't helping. I wanted to be close to him, but with his temperature it was making things a bit difficult. He felt me trembling uncontrollably and tossed the covers back, "I'm going to get you sick, come here."

He lifted me and carried me to the bathroom depositing me onto the cabinet. I said nothing as I watched him start the shower and close the door then turn. "The water will warm you up."

I was wearing a tank top and pajama bottoms so, I figured just losing the bottoms was ok with him there right? I mean my important parts were covered. I looked up noticing the way his eyes grew darker as they raked down my legs and back up to meet my eyes.

"Get in Bella, you're shaking."

"Are you..." I left the question unasked.

"Yes." He answered knowing what I meant.

"I bit my lip nodding and getting in under the warm spray. It felt like heaven and I melted into it, for a moment I forgot Edward was fixing to be in there with me and I had no idea what he would be wearing, or wouldn't be wearing. Either way WOW.

I heard the heavy door shut and turned to see his chest, so beautiful and pale. Now that is how I like to be greeted. I was almost embarrassed to look down, but come on you know I am human and I am going to and yes I did. He had on black boxers. I felt him lift my chin to meet his eyes and he smiled, "Better?"

"Yes."

He stepped into the spray with me and talk about your exotic wet dream Edward. I mean you do realize I am a teenager with hormones, and I am in the shower with the most perfect vampire in the world. This is what dreams are made of and all I can think of is how great the water looks running down his hard marble chest.

I am such a lost cause. When I looked up three shades of red later I realized he wasn't looking at my face either, in fact he was looking at my chest which with my now wet tank top was accentuated in every way. I doubt he missed a thing. Wonderful now we are both perverts.

He looked up pulling me close, "You are so beautiful."

"I bet you say that to all the woman you get in the shower."

He laughed, "I do, because you have been the only one." I smiled. Just knowing that was true and that he had waited all this time for me was such a powerful emotion. It was funny in a way because I was young and yet I knew when I looked at him exactly what he meant. I couldn't imagine being with anyone else, or even wanting to.

"So is most of what you do like humans?" I asked caressing his chest. He looked at me curious then brushed back my hair, "I don't quite understand what you mean?"

"I know we are physically the same, but I mean marriage, kids, etc..."

He was silent a moment then had a look of sadness, "We get married, unfortunately we do not have children. I can not give that to you should you choose to be with me Bella."

"I never said I wanted it I just wondered what you life was like." I stroked his face, "Is it the same?"

He nodded, "Mostly, we try to remain as human as possible. Our food choice is the most obvious difference. We tend to have some animalistic tendencies."

I bit my lip kissing his jaw, "What is your favorite food?" He cleared his throat, "Bella this really isn't a great subject."

"Why? I want to get to know you. I want to see who you are."

"If you saw who I was you would have the sense enough to stay away from me, because I can't seem to stay away from you."

"I don't want to stay away from you." I cupped his handsome face in my hands, "I thought you wanted this?"

He inhaled deeply pulling my hands down, "I do, I feel like I am robbing you of a full life Bella. You could have so much and all I can offer you is death. No children, no future, only death, I live off of the death of animals to survive Bella. I have killed humans to survive. I am a predator. It is what I am made to do. I am a creature of chaos and pain and as much as I try to be a good person and change things around me in the end I can never change the real monster that rages inside me, the monster you should never see but you have a right to see before you choose to stay with me."

"So show me."

"Bella, don't do this."

I pushed him hard back against the tile, "I see in your eyes you are hungry. Show me the monster you hide Edward. Show me the truth you hide." He growled slightly but I didn't back off. "Are you afraid that I can't handle it? I lived through a childhood of being ignored by my mother, and I watched my father die in a fire I am sure I can handle your inner demon."

"You don't know what you are asking." He said thickly.

"Yes I do, show me or are you scared that just maybe you aren't as scary as you think?"

The shower was off and I was being dragged out the door and shoved in the closet, "Get dressed." I grabbed some clothes and walked out opening some drawers and getting my personals and dressing, I put my hair up and turned just as he walked back in.

He handed me my shoes and I slipped them on as he took me by the hand tossing the window open.

"What are we doing?" I asked looking at him curious. He raised an eyebrow, "I am hunting, you are watching."

He tossed me on his back and I heard voices calling his name from the hallway as he leapt out the window to a nearby tree and we were gone. It was only minutes before I couldn't even see the house anymore. He stopped inhaling deeply and sat me down, "Wait here."

I heard noises and followed the sounds as softly as I could, I was curious. It was then I saw a deer looking around cautiously as if she were aware of another presence. She should be. I knew he was close. In a flash she was down and I felt my heart stop. I didn't move, I didn't want him to lose focus and think I was dinner, it was absolutely unbelievable.

This beautiful being feeding on this deer in such a way, it actually looked like he was kissing its neck. I could see no blood, no gory details and his eyes were closed as if he were in heaven. He was beautiful. I was supposed to be turned off, scared, and disgusted and I suppose so many other things that would be natural but he was beautiful.

I am totally and undeniably in love with him. I stepped closer very slowly and saw him tense. I stopped immediately. He released the deer and tilted his head up to look at me. His eyes were so beautiful, large and golden and with a fierce look. Even in the moonlight he was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. I was uncertain what exactly his thoughts were except that this was probably extremely dangerous for me.

He stood smoothly without taking his eyes off of me and walked effortlessly to me. I swallowed hard backing myself into a tree. Why run? He would catch me. His hands came to rest on my waist. I felt my heart pounding and tried to calm it, I was not afraid of him. If he wanted to kill me so be it, I loved him and I had to show him I trusted him or this would never work and he would never learn he could trust himself around me.

I can't explain the look in his eyes they were full of question and wonder. He didn't speak he simply tilted his head and watched me curiously. I reached up resting my hand on his now slightly pink cheek, "I love you Edward." I told him softly, and I meant it. Whatever this was between us, wherever it lead. I wanted it.

I could hear what sounded like a content purr in his chest as his eyes closed and his face tilted into my hand. He is magnificent. I can't imagine anything on this earth being more beautiful than he is at this moment. He just did something I am sure no other vampire would ever do, he allowed me to watch him in the most intimate of acts feeding and I am certain it took more willpower than I would be willing to admit for him to do so.

When I took my eyes from his chest I realized his were open and on mine again, they were darker and I am not sure of the look they held. His hands moved to the tree above me so he was leisurely leaning down and he smiled, "Did you enjoy that?"

"It was beautiful." I said feeling his warm breath against my cheek. He closed his eyes with a sigh.

"I don't know how you can think that." He answered sadly. I reached up to grab his shirt and pull him closer, "Because I love you, it is who you are and that is all that matters. We all have our demons. We all deal with them in different ways. You try and change your demon by killing animals instead of humans how can I fault you for that?"

His expressive eyes met mine, they glowed brightly in the night and his large body moved closer to mine. "So, you mean because I try to change the way I am it changes how you see me?"

I looked down finding my hands had slipped under his shirt to caress his stomach, I could feel the emotions from just the touch. It's almost like lightning this energy that draws us together. I don't know how else to describe it. I have never felt anything like it.

My breath hitches and I felt his abdomen tense, "Yes, you try to be better. I can't ask anything more of you." I closed my eyes trying to control my now rapid breathing. Why did he have the ability to do this to me so easily? I felt his hands run down my hair then slowly down my arms to where they rested under his shirt.

"Bella." His voice trembled. "I don't have much control right now."

I heard him swallow and felt him fall forward gripping the tree, his breathing hard against my neck.

"Feeding tends to make us feisty so to speak...this might be a good time to take you home."

It's almost as if I could feel the emotion radiating off of him, as if my will were overpowered by something other than myself. I've never felt more alive than when I am with Edward. I miss my father, I always will but this family makes me feel so welcome, so loved and Edward makes me feel so wonderful inside. It takes away almost all the pain and emptiness.

I could hear the tree bark shredding under his fingers as he fought to control himself. I should have cared, I didn't. I wanted him, here like this without control or restraint. Was I crazy? We weren't talking about a normal human boy here. He could crush me in a heartbeat.

Feeling his warm breath on my neck I turned my head to see his face, his eyes were strained closed. His body was like a rock, hard and rigid. I reached up stroking his cheek, "Edward?"

He groaned, "Please." I could barely hear him. His head tilted to mine more, his lips almost to mine as he spoke again, "My God Bella I need you so much. I've waited all my life to find you. I want to give you everything I have."

His words were so powerful and my body shook in response, his lips finally resting on mine in a powerful kiss. It was deep, passionate, and ever so slow. I felt him lifting me off of the ground against him. How can it be possible to feel so many emotions?

He gently set me back down but never released his hold. "I know a place, not far. If you want we could go...to be alone." He looked down nervously. I knew what he was asking he wanted to leave the decision up to me on just how far I really wanted to go. Was I really ready to take this further than this? I had waited my entire life for him and never knew until recently.

I nodded with a small smile, "I would like that." He looked dazed a moment then lifted me into his arms and before I knew it we were in a small cabin, I am not sure how far it was from the house, probably miles but for them minutes. It was secluded and just the right size for two lovers to be alone. I imagine the Cullen's had it especially for them. It fit a little get away they might have.

It was a simple room with a fireplace, bed, and a couch. The decorations were simple and light there was not refrigerator or air conditioner, why would there be? They didn't eat or need air. He turned, "Are you cold?"

"A little"

He lit the fireplace then smiled sitting on the couch. "We come here sometimes just to get away." I nodded and looked around. I actually liked it. It must have been early morning I have hardly slept all night. I really had not been tired.

I felt him behind me as I looked out the window at the stars, his hands on my arms delicately.

"Do I make you nervous?" He asked kissing my neck gently. I felt my body leaned back into him.

"No. I want you to touch me." When I realized what I said I felt myself blush. I didn't turn but I am sure he knew. He chuckled brushing my hair back, "Do you?"

I felt his lips on my neck again and gasped as he gripped my waist tightly pulling me back against his hard body. He moaned, "Bella, are you sure you want this? I don't know if I can stop once we start. I want you too badly."

I knew one thing. I didn't want him to stop, ever. I had never really thought about sex a lot. What it would be like? When I would finally do it? Would I enjoy it? Who would it be with? It wasn't the first thing I thought about like most people my age but suddenly it was all so clear, it was simple. It was him, I didn't care when, where, or how but I knew it must be him.

I turned to look into his eyes, sure of one thing for once in my young life. "I don't you to stop, please Edward. " I grabbed his hair and pulled his lips to mine begging him with my body not to stop. He molded to me easing me back onto the soft bed beside us. His lips trailed down my neck I felt them stop at my shirt again, probably unsure. I gripped his arm arching up into him, "Please don't stop." I begged breathlessly.

I heard a growl and I felt my shirt rip. I sure hope he has a spare around here some where. I felt his cool lips on my stomach and I closed my eyes knowing tonight would be forever engraved in my memory as the first night of us together.

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