BPOV (Bella's point of view)
Weeks past, endless happy weeks. I felt better than I had in a long time, and most importantly, I could feel. It was like Jacob's warmth was radiating every part of me and banishing all the numbness from my insides. I almost felt like me again. Maybe a new me, not the same one I had been with Edward. But almost as happy, I was getting there.
I fit in easily with the wolf pack, almost like I was meant to be a part of it, sitting next to Jacob. I didn't feel inadequate like when I was sitting next to Edward, being this me was much easier.
I could go on like this forever. I sighed.
Saturday morning, time to see Jacob again. I smiled so much it hurt my cheeks, but I didn't care, I was just so happy.
I chucked on whatever clothes happened to be lying around in my closet, Jacob wouldn't care what I wore anyway. I looked in the mirror and deemed myself as passable, brushed my teeth and hurried out the door. Charlie was so used to this by now that he didn't even need to ask where I was going. He was just thankful that I was finally happy again.
I started my truck and made my way to Jacob's place. Today we were going for a walk around Seattle; Jacob said he needed to get out of La Push for a while and I agreed. Alone time couldn't hurt either.
We were walking along the streets, not really paying attention to any of the shops or buildings, just enjoying each others company. Everything was bliss. People passed us by but didn't really take much notice of us. A pretty girl walked past, dark brown hair and honey golden eyes. She smiled as she passed us.
Jacob became motionless. I couldn't read his face, I didn't know if it was happy, or if it was horrified. Looked like a mixture of the two.
'Jake… Jake, what's wrong?! What happened? Are you okay?' I said, peering at his face, trying to read his emotions and failing.
'I just… I'm… so sorry Bella… I just… I couldn't stop it… I want to stop it… I don't want to hurt you but…' he said as he was still staring at the pretty girl walking away from us.
I knew exactly what had happened. I didn't feel broken. I felt almost as if I wasn't there anymore. I was just an empty shell now. I couldn't feel my legs as they started to run underneath me, it was just as if I was watching myself from far away. I could hear Jacob yelling, but I couldn't process the words. I just needed to get away.
This was too much. I can't… I can't… I saw the pavement as it rushed up to meet me.
JPOV (Jacob's point of view)
I yelled at her to come back, it was like she just couldn't hear or see anything anymore. I broke her. I broke her worse than the blood-sucking creep ever did. I said I would fix her and I just broke her more.
I was worse than Edward. I promised her I would help her, I would fix the state she was in. But I didn't do anything. I had her and now she's gone forever.
Even as I thought this I was going after the girl I saw, I didn't want to, I wanted to go to Bella, to help her. But my legs weren't listening to me anymore, I was just drawn to the girl, I couldn't stop myself.
Bella… Bella… I broke her.
EPOV (Edward's point of view)
I couldn't take this for much longer. I was going to have to go back, and soon. Every second I spend away from her is torture. She's on my every thought, her name repeats always in my head.
Bella.., Bella… My Bella…
I hope she's ok. She's probably leading a better life now anyway, without me to screw it up for her. I was bad for her. She deserved someone better, someone who wasn't a selfish monster like me.
I would go back. Just to see her, see if she's okay. If she was then I'm pretty sure I could leave again. I would leave. I had to. I wouldn't ruin her life again, I promised her it would be like I never existed. And I was going to keep my promise, even if it was killing me to do it. She was worth it.
Bella… My Bella… I can do this… You are worth it… Bella.
I got up, happier than I had been in a long time. I was going to see her! Even if she wouldn't know I was there, I was going to see her face again… hear her voice…
I rushed out of the door and into my car. It was time for me to go home. I sighed with relief. I was so close now…