A/N: Right so, interesting chapter, slightly abrupt but whatevers. I am starting college tomorrow so updates may be minimal :( Sorry, and please, please review x

Status: Sick in the pleasant sort of way
Where: Charms

Wow. Um. You know when you're in that state of shock you can barely even think where to start?

Yeah. It's pleasant shock though. Very, very, pleasant. Oh, let me just tell Alice, that way I won't have to write twice.

Notes me and Alice share in charms because I'm hyperventilating

Alice- So what's with the excited gleam in your eye Lily-dee?
Lily- I have a date to Hogsemeade. A date.
Alice- OH MERLIN! You finally came to your senses and professed your undying love from James?!
Lily- James? What, no! Don't be silly! Robert Davies, yes Davies, asked me out!
Alice- Shame about James. But still, MERLIN LILY! HE ASKED YOU?
Lily- Always the tone of surprise.
Alice- It's not that it's just…he's hot! Smooooooking!
Lily-Look at me okay? I'm rolling my eyes. That's for you.
Alice-Oh shush. Guess what?
Lily- What?
Alice- James is going to be so mad.
Lily-No he's not! Alice you need to get these sick ideas out of your mind, James likes me as a friend. He never liked me as anything more. So shut it now.
Alice-Whatever you say, Lils.
Alice-Lils?
Alice-Don't ignore me!
Alice-Damn.

So, as you can tell from me and Alice's conversation:

a). Alice has lost the plot (for the millionth time)
b). I am now ignoring her, and
c). ROB DAVIES ASKED ME OUT

He basically came up to me as I was going to breakfast and he was all like, "hello biggest fan," and I was all like *melt* and then he just asked me. Just like that.

And I said yes. Naturally. Ahhhhh, Rob. He's tall, he's dark and handsome. Totally my cup of tea. So yeah, next Saturday. Me. Rob. Hogsemeade. Bring it on.

Damn, he just looked at me. If I'm not careful I'll end up doing something stupid or melt into a quivering puddle. Not cool.

Status: Still elated
Where: Ancient runes

Well, Roberts ex is giving me hell in runes. Honestly that girl could kill something with her stares. Literally. Poke a hole through it. Poof. Gone.

News travels fast. Alice reckons she has spies. Spies! But then again, this is Alice we're talking about. Where she gets her info from I do not know.

In other news, these runes are difficult. So laters x

Status: Tired
Where: Head dorms

Got patrols with James in a half hour. Time to execute mission:

Show James what an amazing, inspiring and totally un-boring friend you are

Excited.

Status: Still tired
Where: Still head dorms

Whatever happens I cannot make a fool out of myself.

Status: Nervous
Where: Head Dorms STILL

OK so there's five minutes until my plan is put to the test. Five minutes. This could really break or make me. Wish me luck! X

Status: Ouch
Where: Hospital wing

Umm. Hi.

You know when I said this could make or break me?

Well, it broke me.

Literally.

In several places in my bones actually! But on the bright (or not so bright) side; I'm alive! I survived just to retell the story of just what happened to Lily Evans that night she got a clever idea to...

Let me just start at the beginning:

So after I wrote in here I headed out to patrol with James, rearing to go. Oh if only I knew.

We started on the fourth and fifth floor corridors at first wandering around aimlessly; no one was going to be there now.

He asked me what I wanted to do when I graduated.

"To be an Auror," I said, not missing a beat. I've always wanted to be one; I've wanted to tackle savage beings that ruin people's lives from the day Severus Snape called me a Mudblood.

"Cool, see you at training then," James said with a grin.

"You too?" I asked dryly, "I'm not surprised,"

"Why not?" he frowns.

"You're just the Auror type you know..." I start, not knowing fully where I'm going with this.
"You're always sticking up for what you believe in, I guess, hurray Gryffindor and all that."

James looked happy at this but didn't ask any more about it. Thankfully. It would be a bit embarrassing to tell him that I really thought this way because of all the times he stuck up at me when some nasty Slytherin decided to hate on me, or any other muggleborn for that matter. How his face would crease into a snarl and he'd have them at wand point before they could say "mud".

I chuckled out loud accidentally and James looked at me with a curious grin.

"Someone's happy about something hmm? Oh let me guess, does it begin with an R by any chance?" he asks wiggling his eyebrows.

I let out a little gasp. Hogwarts was some gossip mill! Honestly they don't give the rumour mongers enough credit. Their abilities to get stories spread around quickly are unparalleled.

"Oh no, what have you heard?" I groan, "I snogged him to sleep or something?"

"Something like that, just minus the sleeping," he informs me with a smirk.

Shoot. I don't know why but I suddenly had the fleeting feeling that this would somehow mess up my mission James. I don't know why, maybe old habits, but I felt I had to explain myself.

"There was no snogging! He just asked me out on a date for Merlin's sake!" I pout, irritated.

James chuckled fondly, "Thank god for that," he tells me.

I peer at him curiously, "why thank god? What do you and the rest of Hogwarts care of if I DID happen to snog him?!"

"Nothing!" he says quickly, "it just wouldn't be very proper you know, before the first date," he jokes with a wink.

Oh. That is true. Oh no half of this school must think I'm such a slag. Ah well.

I suddenly remember about my mission...all this Rob talk almost made me forget!

So before he could say anything else I asked him if he felt up to going to the astronomy tower with me. He shrugged and agreed so off we went.

Once we got there I ran to the window ledge, opened it and sat down, my legs kicking in the air.

"Lily," James began slowly, "that looks kind of dangerous, have you done this before?"

I cackled turning to face him, "loads of times!" I tell him, yet grip onto the ledge for dear life.

"If you say so Lils" he says, joining me on the ledge.

Okay so I told him a teeny lie. I had only done this once before, last year with Alice. But it is the most liberating feeling I have ever felt. Your legs floating in the air, the long height from the ground and the beautiful starlit sky.

"Wow," James breathed, "it is beautiful up here."

"Told you so!" I chanted.

We sat in peaceful silence for a minute or two, before he started pointing star names out to me. He showed me Sirius and I snorted tactlessly.

It was nice. Just me, James, the stars. He's bound to think I'm a little more interesting than he gives me credit for now; I stargaze!

He turned round after a moment we spoke at the same time.

"This is-"

"You look-"

I laughed awkwardly, "I look?" I asked him, prompting him to say what he wanted to. Did I have dirt on my face? (That would have been mortifying).

That's when it happened.

I turned towards him, wanting to know what he was going to say I don't know why or how or what possessed me to do it, but my hands slipped. I let go of the ledge and I was falling, screaming, everything.

I heard a scream of LILY! From James and then it was over. No pain, nothing.

And then I woke up, two days later and here I am.

The amazing bit, the really amazing bit, is that...

You know how I'm still alive?

Well, James saved my life.

A very stern Madame Pomfrey told me actually, that James had created a very powerful cushioning charm on the ground below me which is why I didn't feel any pain. And on top of that he had put some spell on me so that my bones didn't crush into a million in pieces. In those few seconds!

My broken bones and sleepingfortwodays-ness came from the impact of the fall apparently.

And Miss Pomfrey also said that James sat by me for a whole night and day. He refused to go to classes and only left because Madame threatened to call his PARENTS to come and remove him.

I just...James saved my life. I'm still alive; I'm on the mend...so why do I feel so awful?

What was I thinking? I must have given him such a fright. And Alice! She will kill me. Guaranteed.

I've made a mess of everything. It could have been James who fell instead of me. It could have been James.

And then what?

I'd be in bloody pieces that's what. I'd never forgive myself.

Because although it's strange to admit it, I actually enjoy being friends with him. I enjoy our little banters and I find myself looking forward to our patrols, to our little escape from everything.

And I had gone and risked the poor sods life.

I am an awful being.

Status: Mixed emotions
Where: Hospital wing

Ah, visitors. Usually happy people that come by bearing gifts and glad tidings.

Not my Alice.

It was a half past two in the afternoon when the door flew open with such force it was nearly knocked off its hinges. And the perpetrator? Lovely Alice of course. She stormed over to my bed and I waved at her innocently.

"Lily EVANS!" she practically screamed in my ear, "what did you DO? You do realise I've been waiting for two. whole. days. TWO! Just to be allowed to get in here? There's all sorts of rumours going around! The most popular being you tried to KILL yourself!" she finished panting heavily.

Uh oh. But what? Suicide! Bloody Hogwarts!

"Alice, I fell! I bloody fell!"I tell her impatiently.

"I know that know," she spat, but seemed to soften up a little.
"Oh Lily Dee!" she cried out exasperated, "you can't stay out of trouble for a second can you?"

This was a lie. Trouble just seemed to find me.

So we caught up for half an hour, talked about school work I missed (much to her displeasure), general chit chat. Then she made me explain six times how James saved me. SIX! And there was not much to say; I didn't remember anything.

Talking of James, I'm rather anxious to speak to him. What does one say after their new found friend saves their life after a failed attempt at trying to win said friend over?

I don't bloody know. Eek.

Status: Awkward

Where: Hospital Wing (sigh)

So the most awkward thing just happened. Ever.

It was an hour after Alice had been and gone when I received another visitor (popular me, eh?). To my utter excitement, it was Rob. He came!

After I explained to him five times I did NOT try to commit suicide (he said he was worried about me. Worried about me!), he was asking me if I were still up for Saturday.

"Of course!" I gushed at him, "I-"

That was when James Potter stormed into the Hospital, a look of pure rage in his eyes. Seeing Rob, he stopped.

"I can see you're busy," he snapped angrily, and promptly turned around and exited the hospital wing.

I looked at Robert. And it was the first time in my life that I wish he was not there. That is saying something.

So after we confirmed Saturday was still on, he left, probably sensing the awkwardness.

Meh.

I really am an idiot? In the past god knows how long I've managed to:

-Nearly get myself killed

-Sabotage my friendship with James

-Sabotage my date with Rob and

-Sabotage my friendship with James again for being with Rob when I should have been explaining myself to him.

All in all, a damn good day(!)

A/N: So next chapter, repercussions, that all important Lily/James talk. Eek. Please review people, or I won't feel wanted *sniff*