Dear Izzie:
I am sorry I haven't written you in awhile. Yes, it's been a couple of months, but it's been a traumatic couple of months on my end. It's funny how your world can come crashing down in an instant…a direct blow to your heart. I mean, I was so elated with that fact that we were communicating and off to such a great start…I can of neglected myself. I started getting some really intense bone, but I suppose I ignored it for too long. I suffered a fractured humerous about three months ago, and the doctors decided to run a few tests. My bone density level was low, so they ran a few more tests. Unfortunately, it wasn't good news. I have full-out bone cancer. Because I had waited for so long, ignoring the little symptoms there were, it is already in the later stages. They said that the progression can be sort of unpredictable…you know that…but I probably only have a couple more months left. Please do not feel sorry for me, though. I was given a second chance ten years ago, and I have lived my life to the fullest. I have dedicated my heart to serving others and in return, have found inner happiness. Few people my age can say that. Jeremy and I, well, we got married last month. He knew it would only be short-termed, but he said he wanted to spend the rest of my life with me. It kind of puts a different perspective on the whole "til death do we part" thing. I am sometimes afraid of what will happen to him when I "go home," but we talk every night. I think he has come to terms with it. I am had some time to reflect. When I look back on my life, I do not see regrets. I see fulfillment. Yes, I am sorry our relationship could not have blossomed more, but I am happy we got to share as much as we did. Communicating with you helped me achieve self-fulfillment and peace of mind. I now feel whole inside…the piece that has always been missing has been filled. I cannot express the joy that has filled my heart just to know you. I must go now. I do not have much strength at the moment, but please, know that I am happy even in passing. Please do not mourn for my illness but relish in my life.
Sincerely,
Hannah
Dear Hannah:
I wanted to give you this message before it was too late. I am proud of you. There is not a single ounce of me that isn't proud of the young lady you have flourished into. I may not have known you for long, but I can tell that you have lived a life full of honor and integrity. When you see St. Peter at those pearly gates, there will be no need for judgment, you will be sent right in to live your eternity in paradise. There are still times when I regret my decision to give you up for adoption, but then I realize that being adopted became part of your identity. You would not be the same beautiful person you are today had I not made the decision that I did. Your parents did a marvelous job raising you and instilling in you a strong, moral foundation. I know, deep in my heart, that your baby brother will be there to bring you home, and that you will be happy. As for the rest of us left here, well, we'll manage to get along without you…always holding your memory deep in our hearts. I am so proud of you.
Love always,
Izzie