All Over and After!
2
by: WhiteGloves
Blaine's not really good with Romance:
Kurt's really passionate about it:
Two against the World:
The Future will Hold!
Kurt has just closed the door of their apartment when Rachel's face greeted him.
"Hey, Kurt," she called looking cheerful about something, "Guess what? I've just been praised by my dance teacher!"
"Oh, wow," Kurt said with a smile as he walked inside and dropped his bag on the counter, "that's an achievement. What did she say?"
"She told me 'uhuh' when I showed her my ballet hop! Isn't that amazing?!"
Kurt's jaw dropped as he gave Rachel a blank look. Rachel blinked and then automatically asked, "What?"
Kurt blinked so many times and then shook his head.
"Yeah, wow, that's amazing," he blabbed nodding vigorously, "I mean, yeah, you should be happy cause a nod is like a very good right and an 'uhuh' is equal to the next level, right?"
"My thoughts exactly! And now I'm way over the top!"
"And way over your head,"
"What's that?"
"Nothing," Kurt quickly said and then he gave his friend a serious look, "but look, Rachel, don't hop too high okay?"
"I know, that'll be the end of me on my teacher's eyes," she winked at him, "anyway, how's work?"
"It's fine, nothing much really," Kurt sighed as he slid himself down the floor looking suddenly lost. Rachel gave him one look, and then exactly knew what the problem was.
"You ok?" she asked as she slipped beside him.
"I don't know Rach," he shook his head as he placed his arms on his knees and set his head back till it was leaning on the wall behind him, "Finn called and told me Blaine transferred back to Warbler."
Rachel stared at him with no words to say.
"Finn called you?" she asked slowly, making Kurt press his lips.
"Oh right, it's about you," Rachel suppressed a sigh.
"I guess it's really over for us, huh?" he whispered quietly as his friend listened, "Going back to Warbler basically means he'll be with Sebastian right? And what would stop that octopus to wrap his eight long tentacles around him now that we're through?"
"Yeah, I totally get you," Rachel nodded in sympathy, "I mean, Blaine is really attractive, and talented. Remember how I nearly hooked up with him if not for the fact that he was gay? If he wasn't I would—"
She stopped blabbing when she noticed that Kurt has his eyebrows raised.
"I'm just saying," she pressed on, grabbing him by the arm and pressing her fingers on it, "Blaine's young and cool, talented and so many things! It's really impossible for him not to attract attention… and for you, my friend, you're also cool and talented and you have a career ahead of you… but when it comes to love, then I have to say you just let a lion slip under your clutches."
Kurt snorted and shook his head.
"Way to make me feel better, Rachel,"
"I'm not kidding—with Blaine's talent he could be the next broadway owner, d'you get what I'm saying?"
Kurt closed his eyes.
"He cheated on me. And he could be doing it again too. With Sebastian and for all I know that would really put on the widest smirk on Sebastian's face… I really don't know how to feel about this anymore."
"Well, do you love him?"
"Of course."
"Do you still care?"
"I won't be like this if I don't. Just thinking that he's with Sebastian makes me want to fly back there and get him back… Blaine's pretty emotional you know… I mean, I'm also emotional, but he's different. He can be this cool free style guy who only exists for fun, but there's also this vulnerable side of him that can be triggered with so much emotion… and not to mention he's a bad drinker… I know, I've seen it… and I can imagine what could have happened back when he was drunk with that other someone… because that's just how vulnerable he is when he drinks…"
"Do you think that other someone took advantage of him?"
"Don't ask me that, it just makes me more frustrated." Kurt heaved a heavy sigh, "From what he told me, he said he was feeling lonely… I should have seen it coming. The first time we fought over me going here. He said he was trying to be distant so that he knows a life without me. I should have seen the sign… Blaine couldn't survive McKinley without me that's why he returned to Warbler where his safe zone was… because that's the place he lived his whole life without me… and now that's the place where Sebastian is… this is crazy… I broke up with him, I was the one that got cheated and I'm the one who's lonely and feeling sorry."
"Well, do you want to meet other guys?"
Kurt looked up at her with wide eyes. Rachel shrugged.
"I mean…"
Kurt patiently closed his eyes and licked his lips.
"That's a thought…. But I don't think so." was his flat answer, "as much as how reasonable it sounds, and as much as I want to meet new people… I don't think there's anyone out there that can make me feel the way Blaine made me feel."
He looked up at Rachel with sincere eyes.
"Because he's my first real love."
"Then go," Rachel inclined her head toward the door, making Kurt look at her seriously and sigh with a smirk.
"You know I can't do that. We just broke up. And he cheated— "
"But he already apologized for that right?"
"Apologizing wouldn't change anything—"
"Oh yes, it would," Rachel said sounding convince of herself, like usual, "You can be together again. For the second time you can try it all over again."
"I don't get it, why do you always want to push me back to him?"
"Because you love him," Rachel answered simply, "and you know he loves you too… so what's making it so difficult? Everyone deserves a second chance, Kurt… I know it should take time before you feel okay with what happened—but what I see right now is my best friend dying and that fact concerns me! Between you dying and pretending you're ok with someone else, I'd rather see you leave this room and go to Blaine."
"But why should I be the one to go there?" Kurt didn't understand that fact… why would he be the one to always do the soothing then?
"Well," Rachel shrugged his shoulders, "it's because you're the one who understands better between the two of you, right?"
Kurt's eyes flickered as he looked closely at his friend. Rachel took her time to look down her hands, before looking up at Kurt again with knowing eyes.
"It's not that easy to forgive, I know, Finn and I have been there for so many times, but Kurt, it's different with you and Blaine… you've been in love with each other for all I care… you're the most perfect couple I've ever laid my eyes on… besides, it's better to love than to hate, right?"
Kurt gave her a long look, before looking down the floor and sighing.
"You really make it sound so easy," he said softly, "I just hope it's easier to be done."
"Kurt, come on," Rachel encouraged more, "I don't like seeing you like this… even if I ask you to hang out and enjoy ourselves, at the end of the day you'd still be this sad Kurt like you are right now... Enjoying parties and pretending to move on—that's not it… you love him… he's your perfect guy… so come on Kurt… I just want you to be happy."
She rubbed his arm and smiled down at him while Kurt cast down a very serious face.
The next day Kurt is seen marching on the hallway of Warbler's school with his shoulder bag swinging beside him. He looked resolute. He slid down the round staircase and headed toward the music room where he could hear people singing.
Kurt stopped in front of the door as he heard Blaine's familiar voice singing behind the doors.
"We take three steps forward and three steps back,
She says "I don't like the way you're dressed"
So then four words later, she takes four back
She says "I don't like the way you're tryin' your best to impress"
You win.
Everything you do, Makes me wanna run
Home, will you get me going
Home, will you get me going
Home, home!"
Kurt felt his knees give away as he heard his voice. It has been a long time since he heard Blaine sing… god it has really been a long time… he felt nostalgic… he felt everything he felt before… and he mustered his strength and pulled the doors open.
And there was Blaine, smiling and laughing around his Warbler friends. He was back to his joyous self. When was the last time he saw Blaine happy like that?
"Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me what I want,
Give me, What I want, want,"
And then Blaine looked up and found him, and there was this surprise expression that enveloped his face, followed by the silence of those around them.
Kurt raised his chin but somehow felt uncertain as Blaine looked at him so piercingly. He couldn't help noticing the sadness that overcame Blaine's expression next. That pretty face that has been joyful… now making one of the saddest expressions in the world…
"Kurt?" Blaine called out as if he wasn't sure if what he was seeing was true.
Kurt was about to answer when he saw Sebastian suddenly walk in front of Blaine and faced him.
"Well, hello there," he said placidly.
Kurt couldn't help the contraction of his eyebrows.
"I came to talk to Blaine," Kurt said firmly as he tried to look over to Blaine who was still being blocked by Sebastian's shoulder. Sebastian raised his eyebrows as if he couldn't believe what Kurt has just said when Blaine appeared behind him, still eyes fixed on Kurt.
"Blaine," Sebastian said that made Kurt frown, "you wouldn't want to do this."
Kurt wanted to retort but he really didn't know what to say. What was Sebastian and Blaine's status anyway? Were they together? Was Blaine able to get over him easily? Or was it because he was so lonely?
The look Sebastian was giving him was enough to make him believe he was on his way on achieving his goal… but Kurt wouldn't just let that happen… under his dead body.
Blaine nodded his head, but then Sebastian reached a long hand and placed it on Blaine's left shoulder, making Kurt feel flair of jealousy sprang up on his chest. He wanted to hook his arm around Blaine again, but that wouldn't be right… they broke up after all… but this Sebastian…
He was left feeling foolish and hurt.
"Let's go outside," Blaine said quietly without looking at Sebastian and Kurt felt relieved. Sebastian looked as if he swallowed a microphone as Blaine walked passed Kurt who followed him until they found each other sitting by the comfortable room where they shared their first kiss.
Kurt wanted to point that so bad but had to strain himself not to give his emotions away. They sat across each other with Blaine's eyes transfixed at Kurt who at that moment felt like melting.
"This uniform really suits you," Kurt started, giving close attention to how the blue coat and red lining really emphasized Blaine's features.
"Thank you," Blaine whispered with a small smile, "I actually just got this from the dry clean…it's been a long time since I last wore it so it was kinda dusty."
Kurt nodded and pressed a smile. He was already nervous. What was he doing there again?
The same question seemed to be on Blaine's mind as he looked at Kurt with meaningful eyes.
"What are you doing here, Kurt?"
Kurt looked down the table and then up at Blaine. What was he suppose to say? That he was still in love with the guy? That it doesn't matter if he cheated him or not because he was willing to forgive him? That he was willing to spend more time with him even if it meant affecting his career—no wait… maybe that topic can be rearranged.
"I heard you quit McKinley…" he answered instead with emotions mounting up.
He was surprised when he saw tears sprang up Blaine's eyes, making him look very tired and fed up.
"Yeah… what do you expect me to do?" he asked huskily, "I've no reason to stay there anymore…I lost you…. I can't stay there. It'll just remind me of you… and I don't want that because it hurts…"
Kurt felt his own eyes sting with tears.
"I understand…" he whispered, "perfectly well…"
Blaine controlled his tears and heaved a sniff.
"So you came all the way from New York just to check if I really transferred, is that it?"
Kurt looked up.
"Maybe," he whispered with a sudden determination in his eyes, "I was hoping I can find the reason why I returned…"
Blaine gave him a questioning look, and then shook his head.
"Kurt, I am so sorry for what I did… you know I didn't mean that…"
"I know, you were drunk, you told me," Kurt sighed, feeling suddenly light that he was able to accept one of Blaine's shortcomings, "but you know, you're gonna have to stop drinking if you're always gonna end up like that…otherwise I'd really tie you up."
Blaine shot Kurt a look of surprise again.
"Wait… what do you mean?"
And as silly as he felt, Kurt refused to say more because he doesn't know what should be said next. Was he suppose to say let's go back together since all has been forgiven? Or should he warn Blaine that it was their last shot?
Blaine suddenly grabbed Kurt's hand and squeezed it tightly.
"Kurt," he croaked, "what are you saying?"
Kurt quickly wiped the tear that ran down his cheek and chuckled.
"You really don't get it, how much I love you…"
Blaine bowed his head down and reached his other hand to Kurt who was also feeling the intense emotion surrounding them. Just then, Blaine looked up with a painful expression that made Kurt nervous again.
"Kurt," he whispered after a moment, removing his hands from Kurt's and sitting straight and rigid, "I don't know… I'm not sure I still deserved you…"
"Blaine—"
"No, I screwed up!" Blaine wiped his face but the tears wouldn't just stop coming and at that moment, Kurt felt more scared than ever, "I—I don't know why I even did that… It's not right to you! I betrayed you and I hate myself for that! I love you, and I can't be selfish with you…so I can't… not after that…"
"Blaine… stop," Kurt felt like he was about to die, as he leaned over and grabbed Blaine's arm "stop it, now…"
"I love you," Blaine closed his eyes tightly, making Kurt feel his pain and he went over to Blaine and embraced him.
"It's okay…" he whispered softly, his hands tightly clutching on that person who was breaking before him, "Blaine, please stop crying…it's ok…I'm not gonna let go of you just yet… Blaine, I love you so much."
And Kurt believed Rachel now… that it was better to love than to hate… because right now he felt much better than the past few days… and here was the answer… because of this person beside him.
A week later…
Kurt was back to town for awhile despite his busy schedule. It was one of those sacrifices that he was willing to do because he was serious when he said he doesn't want to let go of both his career and the love of his life. It wasn't easy. But it was worth it.
Kurt watched Blaine sing out his heart freely on the stage, giving all his got and giving all his best while he, Kurt, sat with the audience, admiring him with all those other people. And when he meant people, he meant all girls and boys alike. Kurt looked over his shoulder and saw the ladies' dreamy eyes and the men's amazement that made him wonder how many of them would join his league sooner or later. Then he looked back at Blaine who was oblivious of all the attention but most concerned about his ecstatic performance.
This made him most concerned.
Not that Blaine would actually betray him again but that some people tend to be scary when they openly flirt with his boyfriend. Say for instance, when they were hanging out at the Lima, a jock from another school just suddenly turned out and started throwing these meaningful gazes and smiles at Blaine— who was not totally oblivious of the intention, but is too polite to refuse the smile. Kurt had to hook his arm on Blaine's once or twice to give those strangers the signal but sometimes it's not even the case. Some were pretty bold like approaching their table and actually sending out mouthful of compliments and then asking for Blaine's number!
Kurt understands the fact that Blaine is one of these cool gay guys that everyone couldn't help looking up to because all about him was amazing! But to actually shove him off aside like he wasn't there was an insult. Every time it happens, he always had this urge to kiss Blaine in public—if not of his own moral about being private.
In fairness to that, Blaine always apologizes for all the trouble.
But attraction to his boyfriend can never be avoided.
And that was what he pointed out when they were together in his room after the day.
"Can you just stop being gorgeous and just pay all your amazingness to me?" he asked innocently while lying on the bed on his stomach to Blaine, who was on the other side of the room and trying to change his clothes. He looked over Kurt with wondering eyes.
"What?"
"Oh, come on! You know how those people kept throwing themselves at you because they think you're cool and very attractive…"
Blaine was silent for a moment, and then he broke into a grin.
"Do I detect jealousy here?"
Kurt sat on the bed and nodded vigorously as Blaine walked near him.
"Yeah, totally." He admitted, "I don't know how to stop them anymore, I mean they just keep coming out of nowhere! And what am I suppose to do? Tie my arms at you every time they make movements? I mean—seriously! I thought we were alone in our world… I didn't think there are so many gays out there already!"
"Hey, whoa," Blaine was grinning widely as he sat beside Kurt who was pouting as he continued,
"And you know who the key is? It's you!"
"Me?" Blaine blinked.
"Yeah, you," Kurt emphasized, "You're cute and hot and gifted—everyone just wants to be with you."
"Well, not really… I mean, yeah—but that doesn't make me want to be with them, right?" Blaine reasoned.
"You say that," Kurt said with narrowed eyes, "but you actually flirt with them."
Blaine looked totally shock.
"When did I—?"
"Oh, but you like all the attention to you,"
"Kurt—"
"And you like it when I'm all protective of you and jealous!"
Blaine shut his mouth at that which didn't escape Kurt's knowing eyes.
"See? I know what you were doing…"
"Look, Kurt," Blaine raised his hands in defence, "I don't know what I was doing, but I'm sure I wouldn't let you feel that way like you weren't even there and all that!"
"I know, but the way you flirt with them makes me look like an idiot,"
"Hey—whoa! Pause over there!" Blaine hovered in front of Kurt and touched those porcelain cheeks, "I don't flirt with them! What made you say that? I mean—yeah sometimes I kinda have this feeling of playing along—but it never crossed my mind to— I love you, Kurt!"
And that makes the difference.
Kurt tried not to smile but it was too hard not to show how pleased he was. Blaine plopped himself beside his boyfriend and sighed with a pout.
"Actually, if you ask me… I think you're not off the hook either."
He gave Kurt a meaningful look, who on the other hand looked confused.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"There are guys out there who have their eyes on you!" Blaine exclaimed with a very concerned face.
Kurt blinked so many times at Blaine who can't seem to get over his emotions.
"They walk around you, try to get your attention… I mean, hey, who am I kidding? It's like you're the most beautiful person out there! You're even more beautiful than Rachel—!"
"Whoaa—hey, stop!" Kurt enclosed his palms on Blaine's face and looked him in the eye. Blaine looked seriously troubled and Kurt couldn't help but feel an extra amount of love filling him. "Stop, okay? I get it…"
Blaine sighed, and for Kurt, he was the most handsome jealous guy he has ever seen. And cute too.
"There's no need to worry about them," he explained patiently to his jealous young lover, "I don't even notice them and that's because I only have my eyes on you, Blaine… you're the most perfect guy love for me… there's no way I'll let you go, you're stuck with me."
He encouraged Blaine to look him in the eye. Blaine slowly did and their forehead touched. Then his boyfriend smiled and they kissed sweetly, making Kurt so glad he had this special relation to this amazing guy.
"Did you mean it?" he asked softly when their lips parted for a moment.
"What?" Blaine whispered, still trying to catch his lips.
"That I'm beautiful,"" Kurt wrapped his arms around his neck, making Blaine smile too and kiss his lips.
"Totally," he answered and they fell into a sweet kiss again.
They laughed off after the sweet moment and Blaine skidded off toward his favourite place—the open floor where he can enjoy his jolly movements and dance around while Kurt watch.
Kurt looked contented as he watched his boyfriend.
"When are you going back to NY?" Blaine suddenly asked that made Kurt blink.
"Oh, probably later. Isabelle's been calling me too, they really can't make it without me."
Blaine grinned in agreement as he made a manoeuvre.
"They're all loving you there," he said sounding glad, "I swear I wouldn't make any fuss about you being busy, but I love having you here."
Kurt felt something flutter in his stomach. Yes, they were back together… and he's been coming back and forth for Blaine… but, there was still this one issue that he can't seem to get over with.
"Blaine," he started quietly that made Blaine look up, "who's Eli?"
Blaine's face turned cloudy and he shook his head.
"No, let's not talk about him." He said firmly and there was this resolute expression on his eyes. Kurt sat properly on the bed and suppressed a sigh. Just too many rivals for his boy.
"Come on," Kurt said that made Blaine stop dancing, "it's about time you tell me who he is… so that I know…"
Blaine stared at Kurt with fixed eyes. Kurt didn't look away but gazed seriously at him too.
Who is Eli?
~ToBeContinued~
November Come What MAY!
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