Note: songs are all Palmoa faith first is freedom the next is just be- I couldn't help but think of our two heatbroken characters when listening to these two songs, this is amazling longer than I ever thought I could right, I have about four chapters so far I am hoping to finish around chapter 6 but I will see were these two take me. thank you for reading, again I am dyslexic so please excuse the mistakes I have checked best I could and thankyou for reading :)
Freedom
If you left how could I go on? If you walked away from me baby all the right would turn wrong. I've had too many heartaches for my blistering hands. But know your my calling to the promise land. You're the one who runs through my veins like a hurricane; you lift the hurt I've felt before. You and me could own this earth, ditch the dust and dirt, light up this city with our freedom….
(palmoa Faith-Freedom)
"I can't do this"
Edith stared in shock what had he just said. Her ears wouldn't process what he just said she just stared into his eyes, blue as the sky but instead of happiness in them it was full of sorrow and sadness
"I don't understand" her brain and heart not willing to process his words what was happening just seconds before she had been Happy so terribly terribly happy.
He was speaking but she couldn't hear him, all she could hear the sound of her heart breaking into a thousand tiny pieces, leaned towards her, and his last words penetrated through the fog
"Goodbye my darling, god bless you…always"
Then he was leaving striding down the aisle away from her, , how could he do this, they were meant to be together, he lifted all the hurt she had felt before and stole the dark turned it to stars, now the darkness was returning, her life and heart crumbling before her, before she knew what she was doing she was running, ripping of her veil and letting it float the ground, she hitched her skirts and ran, the cries from her mother, father, grandma fell onto death ears, she stops outside the entrance to the church, both cars were at the front waiting she runs towards them
The drivers are looking baffled having seen Sir Strallan stride past them minutes before and now Lady Edith is running past them her white dress flowing behind her. Not evening stopping when one of the drivers opens the door she keeps going
She runs always back to Downton once back in her room she collapses onto her bed and crys. Crys with anger, with sadness, with heart break, how could he think he is to old, and that she could be happy without him! He is the one that makes her happy, and no way is she going to let that slip through her fingers
She doesn't care what her Papa says or her Grandma they have never cared about her she was the forgotten sister, just plain little Edith, well no more, before the week was out she would be Lady Anthony Strallan even if she had to beat it into him that it's her choice and her choice is him!
She sits down at her writing table and starts writing
My Dearest Anthony,
Your more than likely thought that I would hate you for walking away from me today, but If you remember I said I wasn't going to give up on you and that is still true…..
She stops writing and crumples the piece of paper up and takes out a fresh piece
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
We need to talk
Yours always
E x
she takes it down stairs and gets one of the footman to take it over personally for a shilling , she returns to her room climbs into her bed and hopes that tomorrow will be a better day
Anthony is sat in his library drowning in his sadness in sadness he made, but it was for the best, they is a knock at the front door glancing at the clock he wanders who it could be he hears his butler answer the door and awaits hoping its not Lord Grantham coming to call him out, he has no strength to fight he broken.
His butler knocks on the door and he bids him to enter
"letter for you Sir Strallan"
Taking the letter from the butler without saying a word but a slight nod of the head, the butler retreats leaving Anthony alone looking at the writing on the front, he knows who it is from, he opens the letter and reads
Tears come freely while reading her letter she has wrote the start of her favorite poem and wants to talk to him even though he was jilted her at the church in front of friend and family , what has he done to deserve this beautiful young woman who is steady in her Feeling from him, it fills him with love but she must believe he is wrong for her but how can d he fight her when his heart hums with love for her , and when he is near her he wants to protect her, to pull her to him and never let her leave his side, his life is over when she isn't with him, only her makes life worthwhile.
Just how is he to respond folding the letter, placing it in the pocket next to his heart he sits back staring into the flames of the fire, and wonders just how he is going to convince her to give up on him and how is he going let his little bird fly away from him forever?