So, I'm not the best at remembering to update things, I know. I just want to say to everyone that I promise (I know I always say this and I always break this promise) that I will be updating regularly, and if I don't, you all have permission to pester me until I finally do update it because writing this today has helped me through a lot of stuff that I was trying to avoid, and it has been the most enjoyable fic I have worked on in a while. I hope you all enjoy it, there will be plenty more where this came from.

For a split second, Sebastian was in peace. As soon as his lips touched Dave's, he was the happiest he had ever been – elated with the fact that he was finally able to kiss the boy that he had been thinking about non-stop for days – weeks, even. As soon as Dave pushed him away, that feeling went away and the confusion and the fear was on his face. He was being rejected – something that never really happened to him.

"What are you doing?" He asked, timidly, running his hands through his hair, confusion on his features. "You…"

Fear boiled through Sebastian's veins – he thought that Dave wanted that, too. How could he have been so stupid? He bit his lip and shook his head, trying to push what just happened out of his memory.

"Sorry, I thought…"

"Thought what?" Dave's demeanor had changed, and it scared Sebastian. It reminded him of events that he'd love to forget. He wasn't angry, or he wasn't visibly angry, he was just… Cold. Sebastian looks up at him slowly, his body starting to tremble.

"I… I need to go." He turns and tries to let his legs carry him. A hand grabs his shoulder.

"Sebastian, no… I… I'm sorry, you just… Caught me by surprise," Sebastian's body tenses, he's not too sure why. He looks at Dave slowly, his eyes blinking back tears he didn't know were about to be shed.

"I surprised you?" He said quietly, "I surprised me, too."

"Talk to me, Sebastian. Have coffee with me. I've missed you," he whispered, letting go of Sebastian, Dave turned and opened the door slowly, he held it open and watched Sebastian before walking in and over to the counter. Sebastian watched him, scared of what was going to happen. He followed him in slowly and found a table near the back, he fiddled with his hands. He knew that Dave would tell him that he didn't like him like that, or worse, and Sebastian couldn't deal with the rejection – it was something that he was never good with.

"Here, large with a shot of Courvoisier just how you like it," Dave said, a blush on his cheeks which made Sebastian wonder how he knew that. He'd rarely spoke about his coffee choice – only when he was with Blaine, when he was taunting him, making himself seem more desirable to the young ex-Warbler. He smiled shyly at Dave and took it.

"Thanks," he whispers and fiddled with the cup. Out of the corner of his eye, Sebastian saw Blaine sitting at a nearby table with a pissed-off looking Kurt. No matter how hurt Sebastian was, how confused he was, he still found pleasure in that look on Kurt's face. He slowly turned his attention to Dave.

"Sebastian, you know that I like you, right? I mean, you've shown me a new lease of life. Taught me how to show who I really am, show what potential I could have. Look at you – how far you've come, you… Everything you have told me – it's all helped. I even went to see my family," he whispered. "They didn't want to know me, I grabbed another bag of things they had left in my room, it's already been decorated. Like they're erasing me completely, but I went. I faced them, and I wouldn't have done that without your help. Hell, I don't think I'd be here right now if you hadn't come back to visit me.

"We fought and the minute I walked out the door, I regretted it. I just wanted to come back to you, but I was scared of what you might say. I know you told me not to go, but I… I was scared, so scared. Kurt, he… He just made everything worse. I asked Blaine to make sure you were okay, and now we're here, so…" Dave sucked his lip and reached across the table and took Sebastian's hand loosely, his palms were sweaty. Normally, Sebastian would have pulled away, he hated sweaty hands, but Dave's hand there, it was more of a comfort. He nodded slowly and watched him carefully.

"Like I said, you took me by surprise, Sebastian. I… You have really, really soft lips," he whispers and let his eyes linger on them slowly. "Just don't… I needed time to understand what was happening,"

"Okay," Sebastian said simply, he took a sip of his coffee and watched Dave; he couldn't keep his eyes off him. Dave really did affect him. "So, does all this mean you're coming home with me tonight, then?" Sebastian was nervous, he hoped the answer was yes, but what if it was a no, that he still wanted to find somewhere else.

"Of course it is. If you drink up, we should get you fed, you don't look like you've eaten in a few days." Dave's hand disappeared from Sebastian's, he sighed softly and drank his coffee slowly, he glanced over at Blaine and nodded thanks which was greeted with a warm grin and a nod of his head.

They sat in silence as they drank, their eyes just ghosting over each other's faces, their lips twisting at the corners every now and then.

Dave was the first to stand; he looked at Sebastian and smiled. "Shall we?" Sebastian followed and stood up with him; he walked towards the door and smiled at Dave.

"You know it's a long walk…" Sebastian smiled, "I know a shortcut through some forest growth," he mused, walking the opposite direction to driveway. Dave chuckled and followed him slowly.

"This isn't a ruse to get me closer to you, is it?" Dave said lightly, half-joking and half-serious.

"If it was, that wouldn't be a problem, would it?" He looked up, the thought hadn't occurred to him. Sebastian just hated walking through the long roads, down all the private roads where he had once made a reputation for himself. Dave just shook his head slowly and inched closer to him.

"There's nothing too scary down here, I promise," he smiled, leading Dave down a beaten path and down to an opening of trees and what looked like a hiker's path.

Sebastian led Dave through the path; it was a beautiful place, quiet. A stream running down the side, shallow enough that wearing the right shoes, you could walk in. When Sebastian walked towards the end of the path to a gate that led to Sebastian's private estate, he looked at Dave nervously.

"Say, Dave?" Dave looked up, a small smile on his face. "I just… I need to know. You do something to me. You make every part of my body feel alive – I've… I don't ever feel this way. I just… Please tell me you feel the same way." His eyes were pleading, like a child who had just walked past the largest toy store in the world and couldn't go in. Dave watched Sebastian's features and stayed silent, the seconds felt like hours to Sebastian, and once again, he felt as though he had ruined everything. He turned and unlocked the gate, sighing.

"When I was at Kurt's it made me realize just how much I actually did like you Sebastian. That it was you I wanted and not Kurt. That you were the one that made my stomach turn when I thought about you, you're in my head, my heart and my soul and I just… I feel lost when I'm not with you. If that's not what liking someone is, then I don't know what it is," he whispered, his hand reached out and turned Sebastian around.

"You mean that?" He asked nervously, he had played with people's emotions so many times; he didn't want that to be him this time. When Dave nodded, Sebastian's face broke out into a grin; he wrapped his arms around Dave tightly and grinned. "Let me show you that I can treat you the way you should be treated, please." He whispered. "Let me call you my… My boyfriend."