It Was All Worth It
Chapter 3: Turning Tables
[A/N: Sorry for the long wait but I'm back now! Warning! Draco's a bit of a bitch in this chapter. Sorry, I just had to! No hate :)]
[Draco's POV]
"Draco… I"
"You?" I ask worriedly.
"Listen, I love you Draco, I do" she said softly, even when she's staring at the floor you can see that there are tears running down her beautiful face, "But think about it first"
"Think about what Hermione?" I demanded.
I was getting a little bit impatient with her.
"Listen, if we were together, me and Ron wouldn't be friends anymore and losing Ron as my friend is like losing a brother. You know how much Ron hates you right…" she questioned awkwardly.
"Yes," I answered.
I have no idea where this was going anymore, I couldn't tell.
"And you do understand what would happen if we were together?"
"Yes but-"
"I'm sorry Draco… but I can't afford to lose Ron"
"But I thought you hate him! And this isn't about Ron, Hermione, it's about us"
"It doesn't mean that if I'm always shouting at Ron means I hate him! I'm just disciplining him! And I know it's not about Ron, but it will be!"
"Why? You like him?"
"Well as a friend and brother but-"
"Nevermind anymore"
"Listen, Draco, I just can't lose him. I know he's not supposed to be related to this but if I lose him… I just can't imagine"
"But can you imagine losing me?"
"No, I can't…"
"So why-"
"Draco! I just can't! And anyways, it's going too fast! You have to wait!"
"Listen, I just can't wait anymore! I love you Hermione, I've waited for a year, a year for you to notice me!"
She then looked straight into my eyes, tears running down her face. There was an awkward silence as Hermione made soft sobs and I was there standing in front of the girl I love, panting like crazy.
"So what is it Hermione? Yes or no?" I asked calmly while holding in my anger.
"Draco… I already told you, I couldn't afford to lose Ron…"
"Is that a 'no'?" I asked, my voice shaking uncontrollably.
"Draco, we can still be friends right?" she said, her voice also shaking.
I couldn't believe this. She had just rejected me. The girl of my dreams had just rejected me.
Was it all worth it now Draco?
No, it wasn't. I just wasted so much time, all my work for nothing, all my work and I just get a 'no' as an answer. I couldn't believe this feeling of reject, there's a burning sensation in the pit of my stomach. I shook my head and stared at her face, her sobbing face. It was just too hard for me to take it in.
That's life Draco, move on. She's not the one for you.
"Yeah sure, friends, that's all, just friends"
"Listen Draco, you don't understand-"
"I do Hermione, I do," I said.
"Oh Draco!" Hermione shouted loudly.
She then moved forward towards me and was about to hug me. I didn't look at her in the eye; I was looking at the ground and trying to fight the tears. Her arms were already about to enclose around me but I said,
"I've got to go, going to be late for class" I said softly trying not to sound like I was crying, "Bye Granger see you"
I pushed her arms away from me and ran away from the empty classroom.
A few seconds later I had regretted what I had just done; I shouldn't have run away from her.
Why the hell did I run away from a girl?
I was still trying to fight the tears but I couldn't help it. Tears started trickling done my face as I ran farther and farther away from Hermione, never to be seen again. But now, the tables have turned and I have nothing anymore. All I wanted to do was to run away fast, run away from everything. I would even run away from my parents because nothing mattered anymore. I have no purpose anymore. I don't care about anything anymore, absolutely nothing… nothing at all.
I didn't know where I was going now, I just kept on running and running then suddenly I had hit something hard and then I and then I fell flat on the floor. I looked up and saw a tall blank wall. I believe that beyond that blank wall have things beyond your imagination…
"Room of requirement" I said.
I got up and touched the wall with my left hand then placed my ear on the blank wall. Of course I heard nothing, so I moved backwards and started to think…
I need a place that can make me forget about what had happened earlier…
I need a place that can make me forget about what happened earlier…
I opened my eyes and saw a large door, I walked to the door and pushed it open and then entered it.
There I saw an indoor Quidditch field, it was huge and smelled like grass. Of course this would totally calm me down and make me forget everything.
I walked to the cabinet on the left side, opened it and grabbed a Nimbus 2001 on the table. I positioned myself in it and flew high in the air.
Even though it was indoors it still felt like I was outside the castle being free from absolutely everything. I did flips, sharp turns and other cool moves I've learned from a professional Quidditch player.
About an hour has passed since I had been in the room of requirement and I thought that I've finally calmed down and forgot about the scene with Hermione.
I placed the Nimbus 2001 back in the cabinet and ran to the door and opened it. I stepped outside and looked left and right and no one was there which was good. I had missed my Potions class but I didn't care at all, I doubt Snape would kill me cause I could just tell my father and it goes on. I smiled to myself and headed for the Defense Against the Dark Arts classroom, which would be my next subject after Potions. To be honest, I walked proudly and put a bit of swagger in my walk; I walked like I owning it. I walked inside the classroom and bumped into Hermione, someone I didn't want to see in a lifetime.
"Oh… sorry" she whispered as she moved away to make me pass.
"Sure" I replied and walked over to Crabbe and Goyle and sat beside them then started talking to them.
It actually felt rude… not even saying 'hi' to her but nothing mattered anymore. I don't really care about anything because right now, I just want to live my life, no problems, no distractions, no girls, nothing, just a chill life. But I know that that chill life I want will have to end at some point and that's the reason why I'm making it worth it and bringing Hermione in it will just ruin everything.
After Defense Against the Dark Arts…
"Don't forget to do your homework or else!" shouted Professor Umbridge.
"Yes," everyone responded lazily.
I stood up, picked up my bag and headed for the door; not even waiting for Crabbe and Goyle because it was finally dinner and I'm absolutely famished. Once again, I was going to go out of the classroom but I bumped into Hermione again and this time her eyes were teary but I didn't care at all.
"Draco, listen," said Hermione as she placed her hand on my shoulder.
I sighed.
"Can't this wait Granger? Maybe tomorrow, or next week or next year or never at all" I said as I pushed her aside and walked away.
I heard her scream a few minutes later but once again, I didn't care. Right now at this moment, I felt like a care-free guy, no problems at all. But at the same time, I also feel like a total ass bitch, what I just said back there to Hermione was so rude and disrespectful… and all the things she has done for me, all the things she had made me feel and I just treat her like this?
This isn't right… this isn't me.
You don't care Draco! You're not supposed to care!
But I feel this pit in my stomach whenever I act rude to her… I just wanna pull my heart out. Doesn't it seem so mean?
But you wanted it that way; you can't change it anymore. What's done is done.
I stomped my foot hardly on the floor and now I was pissed at myself. I walked angrily to the great hall to eat dinner but I wasn't hungry anymore, I wasn't in the mood for food and drinks and talking. Actually, I'm not in the mood for anything at all! I sat down on the Slytherin table and helped myself to toast then I left immediately, catching her eye as I walked out of the Great Hall. Just by staring at her eyes, I felt horrible, her eyes were unhappy; she seemed so downcast. I shook my head and headed for the dormitory, as I jumped on my four-poster bed I thought of her, of the dreadful scene. I felt so angry, pissed and alone; I'm so stupid for leaving her… I could never forgive myself. And to think a while ago, I was saying I didn't care at all and now I care so much I could run to her and hold on forever. I just can't believe my rudeness to her, to a girl; to someone I loved. But wait do I really love her?
What am I to do now?! I feel so horrible, so alone…
You?! You feel alone?! She's the one who feels alone, Draco, not you…
Why did I have to run away from her, like a coward?!
It was your own doing!
Help me… please.
Face her, tell her, show her and give it your all. Remember how you never give up on her? How you find every chance, every time to talk to her? That's the Draco she wants, not some rude person. Love her; don't give up on her.
It's hard.
Of course it's hard!
Not helping…
Draco, life is hard not easy. You can only say something's easy when you've said it was hard before. You can do it.
Okay, I will, I wont give up on her.
And then I drifted off to sleep, thinking of her, the only girl that actually made me have this tingling feeling in my stomach. Because of Hermione I became more confident. She is the perfect one for me but the question is, am I the perfect one for her? I will do everything so that I could be perfect for her. The tables have turned once more and I am now ready to fight, I will not crouch down anymore. I will even betray my parents just for her because right now, everything matters.
[A/N: I always like to end it nicely :) Hope y'all liked it! Sorry if it took a while, school ruins everything! Reivew pleeeaseee! Xx]