This World #12
Mellos POV:
What? Why would he say something like that? After all these years of knowing my Matty, why on earth did he come out with something like 'I still love you' now!
My eyes look down into his, confusion filling my entire expression. I'm not sure how well my moods come across now my face is half blown off because he doesn't even flinch and my questioning gaze.
Oh! He is still high!
I snort a little laugh and kiss his forehead, letting myself relax again. He is probably so off with the pixies he is just saying whatever comes to his mind, like the boys at the base who came in so drunk they didn't even know who I was when I pointed a gun in there face. Of coarse he Loves me, we have been together through so damn much! Where closer then brothers though... Sometimes... I wish we could be even closer.
It's not a good idea though. Things between us can never work out. We would be happy together I'm sure, but with kira and... And all the death and pain that follows me... It would only make it all the more painful if we lose...
I had already considered the possibility my matty may die before me, even before this little overdose. I always considered the mafia might turn on me and use him to get what they want then feed him to the sharks...
That's always been in my mind, but I've always done my best to stop it! The biggest part of me stopping it is sacrificing what I always wished we could become...
It was a hopeless dream anyway...
Matt is straight... Well I admit he has never told me that... I've caught him watching porn though! More specifically some odd japanese animated girl on girl thing... It was actually pretty frightening... God I hope we don't end up in Japan, his whole room will be flooded with that shit and I'll have to look at it! I prefer his link posters! I'll even go so far as to buy him Pokemon charts like a damn five year old if it stops him from putting up pictures of naked chicks!
Though now that I think about it... I've caught him with the guy on guy version to... Though he did say that it was only put there to tease me...
Wishful thinking on my part.
"I love you to matty." I whisper truthfully and kiss him as softly as I can manage. I've never properly kissed anyone before... I sure as hell don't kiss those damn hookers!
It's nice... It leaves me wanting more...
I can't though and I won't! He won't even remember this, but if I full on assault his mouth I'm sure he will, off his face or not.
A thought slips into my mind that I do like however. I can still get just what I want without doing anything my little redhead doesn't.
"hey, I'm going to give you a sponge bath okay?"
(sorry about the short chapter! I've been feeling a little uninspired because I can't rp much ATM... I have one rp partner who I love to death but she is only on of my mornings (because she lives in Canada and I live in Australia) and man have I been bored and uninspired without constant ideas flowing (I make fics like this one out of ideas that I don't feel fit into our rps XD kind of like someweird overflow system... I'll try hardernext time I sware!)