HELLO THERE! I know you might think "Wow, this is a really quick update!" but I promise it isn't. This was originally the ending to Chapter 5 but I cut it out so we could see the importance of Kendall finding the sea glass (AKA Logan's heart). But I loved this so much and thought it was needed, so I decided to give it it's own chapter because there was no way I could fit it into the next chapter. So I hope you guys enjoy this little piece of what should have been chapter 5.
AND THANK YOU ALL FOR THE REVIEWS AND KIND WORDS AND AMAZING RESPONCES. It means a lot to read them and it motivates me to keep going. Thank you
Also, I obviously do not own Big Time Rush or anything in this story. Enjoy!
The whole way back to the fire, Kendall held tight to Logan's hand as if if he let go, he would lose him. Logan didn't mind at all, he was still a little overwhelmed by everything that had happened only minutes ago. He'd never had a kiss so…so…perfect. Every aspect of what that was, of what they shared in the middle of the ocean, was perfect. Then smile that had crept onto his face just after the kiss was still there shinning full force. Until he thought of her.
Kendall looked over "Are you ok?" he asked a little puzzled by the expression on Logan's face.
"I'm completely fine, it's just a little chilly out here." the shorter boy lied.
"Well, here we are. Sit down and I'll get you a towel." he instructed, kissing Logan on the cheek.
Logan smiled again, but he couldn't help but to think about Jo. Jo was Kendall's girlfriend whom he loved very much. How could he kiss him? Maybe it didn't mean anything to him? Maybe Kendall was just lonely and acting on that with Logan. Logan shook his head and looked over at Kendall grabbing a very towels, unaware of what Logan was thinking.
"Could you bring the guitar over as well please?" Logan asked with a little smile.
"Of course, as long as you sing me a song!" Kendall said excitedly and headed back over to Logan. He wrapped a towel around his best friend and handed him the guitar. "You know, I've never heard you sing before. I mean, Jo has said you could sing, but you never have around me."
Logan's mood dropped again at the sounds of her name. "Well, you've never really asked. So." he said as Kendall took a seat next to him. He knew what song he wanted to play and he hoped Kendall got the hint. He hoped with every once in him that for once Kendall actually paid attention and understood. He started to strum away on the guitar, music filling the quiet night.
You got me caught in all this mess,
I guess we can blame it on the rain.
My pain is knowing I can't have you,
I can't have you.
Tell me does she look at you the way I do?
Try to understand the words you say,
And the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush,
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me, am I crazy?
Or is this more than a crush?
Kendall had gotten very still, not taking his eyes off of Logan. It seemed like even the waves had stopped to listen to Logan, who had a very beautiful voice. But that wasn't the reason everything in the world had gone still. As Logan sang, you could feel what he felt and could see it written plainly across his face. The words he sang came straight from the heart and Logan had to look away before he got too emotional.
I catch my breath,
The one you took the moment you entered the room.
My heart it breaks at the thought of her holding you.
Tell me does she look at you the way I do?
Try to understand the words you say,
And the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush,
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me, am I crazy?
Logan finished up the song and sat completely still, looking into Kendall's eyes. Neither one of them daring to break the silence. But Logan couldn't last long and began to break down and cry. Kendall scooted closer to the boy and wrapped his arms around him. Logan let himself melt into Kendall as he continued to cry.
"That was beautiful, Logie. You're beautiful." Kendall said as he kissed the top of the brunette's head, a tear rolling down his cheek.
This song is not mine, it happens to be a beautiful song by He Is We called "Blame It On The Rain". I suggest you listen to it because its great and I just thought it fit really well with how Logan felt deep down. Also, I might make a fanmix sound track to this story. What do you guys think? :) ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU SO MUCH!