OMG IT FEELS LIKE IT TOOK FOREVER FOR ME TO UPDATE. I'm so sorry for those who have been waiting patiently to read this. Life has gotten a little busy lately with work and my social life. ANYWAY, I'm so overwhelmed by the love I have gotten from the past two chapters (which technically are one). It means a lot to get on and read your reviews. I hope I haven't disappointed with this chapter after the big shocker of last chapter. But maybe now we can finally get in the swing of a Kogan relationship. WHO KNOWS? ;)

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P.S. Here is the fan mix I made for this story. I'm not good at making graphics and since the story isn't even close to being over, it was a little hard to pick just a few songs to describe the whole story. BUT HERE YOU GO (take out the spaces, duh!): xoxokogan. tumblr .com/post/20817542169/a-kogan-fanmix-to-my-fanfic-you-are-the-best-thing

June 20th, almost three months since that night on the beach and yet…nothing had changed. Logan and Kendall returned home with a warm greeting from Jo, who missed her boyfriend greatly. The two boys never spoke one word about it to her, or even each other. It was like it never even happened. Sometimes when Logan woke up all alone in the middle of the night, he thought it was all a dream. But then he felt that feeling of something missing deep down and realized it was real. Everything had happened just like he remembered. So he'd lay there, unable to fall back asleep, just thinking of those special moments him and Kendall had shared together. It's on nights like these when he realized, that deep down, then and now, he was in love with Kendall. He realized that he was completely and utterly crazy for the boy with the brows. He just couldn't get enough of those green eyes and would do anything for one more moment like that at the beach.

And before he knew it, it was time to wake up. It might be summer, but he stilled liked to get up pretty early to get ready for his days, which were usually filled with studying or work. Sometimes both. But today was his day off and Jo wanted to spend it together. Possibly shopping and eating. It was going to be their first outing alone together and Logan was a bitter nervous. He didn't want to make anything awkward or let anything slip. He was a bit paranoid because Jo was his best friend after all and Kendall was her boyfriend. Oh boy, what did he get himself into?

"You're such a great friend," he said to his reflection as he looked himself up and down. He was in nothing but his undies, he hated to sleep in anything more. His hair was a little out of place and his eyes were still a bit foggy from sleep. As he turned on the shower, his phone vibrated. He saw he had three texts, two from Jo and one from Kendall.

Jo:

Are you up yet?

LOGAN HURRY UP AND GET READY I WANT TO GO SHOPPING!

Logan rolled his eyes, his best friend was up way a lot earlier than usual. He chuckled as he typed in a reply back.

Jo, calm down. I'm about to take a shower. I'll be ready in like an hour or so. If you want, you can head on over in a few. Love you. Be safe.

As Logan pressed send, he put his phone back down to check on the water to see if it was warm enough yet. He slipped off his underwear and stepped a foot into the shower before he remembered Kendall had text him. He leaned over to grab his phone.

Kendall:

Good morning, beautiful! I hope you don't have too good a day without me. ;)

Beautiful? Logan was a bit puzzled by this, but he shook his head as he put the phone back down without replying back. He stepped into the shower and let the warm water run down his body. He covered his face with his hands, bringing them up to push back his hair. He still couldn't shake what Kendall had called him. It was unusual. He hadn't called him that since the night they kissed. And since that night Logan had cried himself to sleep so many times because he knew Kendall wouldn't utter those words again. But here he is, after three months. Who did he think he was? He couldn't just open up and then leave Logan hanging. Logan wasn't some toy you could throw away once you were bored. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"Logan, this isn't the time to get worked up over this. You're getting ready to have a wonderful day with your best friend who you love dearly," he said as he started to wash himself. He was out of the shower within 20 minutes, give or take a few minutes. He grabbed a towel and began to dry himself off, wrapping it around his waist as he got out. He looked down at his phone and saw he had yet another text from Kendall.

Hey, I gave Jo a note and I told her not to open or read it until she leaves you later today. Make sure she does as I told her. Please and thank you. Have a great day, Logie Bear!

Logan smiled as he read his nickname. He couldn't help it, he loved when Kendall called him "Logie Bear". He send a quick reply and wiped of the mirror, looking at his somewhat still wet body. He smiled at himself, feeling a lot better about his image than a few months before. He dropped his towel as he started to get ready for the day.

"Come on Logan! Lets goooooo!" Jo said as she started to walk out of the apartment. Logan laughed at how persistent his best friend was about leaving. "I don't wait to waist a precious moment of retail therapy."

Logan locked the door as he walked out. "Jo, we have all day! Slow your roll, sister. My car or yours?"

"I'll drive us. OH, look!" she dug in her purse and pulled out an envelope. "Kendall wrote me a note but won't let me read it until I leave you tonight."

"Oh yeah, he told me about that. He told me to make sure you do as he said. So that means you CANNOT read that today. Ok?" Logan got all serious, trying not to giggle.

"Fiiiiiiiine," Jo sighed as she stuffed the envelope back into her already stuffed purse. "Come on!" she started walking faster as the reached the parking lot, her car in site. Once they got in and buckled, she took off towards the mall. Logan played DJ, seeing as he had the best taste in music out of his little group of friends, like always. The mall wasn't too far away, so they reached it within 10 minutes. That's one thing Logan loved about living in the big city, everything was so close to everything else. If he wanted to, he could just walk to the mall.

After a few hours of shopping, they had only made it half way through the mall. Logan laughed at some dumb joke Jo just told him and he was the happiest he'd been in months. He'd be getting on just fine, except for those lonely nights, but he hadn't been truly happy since that one night at the beach. Even then it was bittersweet. Logan had both his hands full of shopping bags and was having trouble holding anymore, and he wondered how Jo could possibly have twice as many as he and counting. She was crazy.

"Jo! JO!" Logan tried to get his best friend's attention, she was distracted by something in the window of the closest store.

"What is it Logan? Do you not see those amazing Prada red pumps? They'd go perfect with the black and white polka dot dress I got from Forever 21. I just have to have them!" she said, practically drooling.

"Do you know how much those must cost? We're already blowing through our savings as it is. But look, lets go…"

"BUT Loooogan, I just need them!"

"Ok, look. Listen to me and maybe we can go in and look at them." he said, trying to sound serious but he just couldn't do that. He loved the look on her face whenever she got excited about something she wanted to buy oh so bad.

"What is it, dear?"

"It's a photo booth!" Logan's face lit up like a light bulb on a Christmas tree. "I've always loved these things. And now thinking about it, why haven't we ever taken pictures together in one?" He scratched his head thinking back on their friendship.

"WELL, I don't know… but now that we're here, lets go do it!" she said grabbing his hand, almost dropping his bags. They stuffed into the booth and Logan inserted a few dollars, the screen starting to show the different options for them to choose. He decided on black and white to keep it old school. Jo laughed at him when he explained his reasoning. The lights came on and the two got ready as the screen counted down the seconds until the camera went off.

4, 3, 2, 1... Click: the both smiled really big

4, 3, 2, 1... Click: Logan crossed his eyes and stuck out his lips, Jo messed up her hair and looked at Logan like he was insane

4, 3, 2, 1... Click: Logan started to laugh at Jo from the picture before and couldn't compose himself, Jo kissing his cheek

4, 3, 2, 1... Click: Logan took a hold of Jo's hair and acted like he was screaming at her as she pretended to punch his cheek she just kissed, Logan going with it

WAIT 30 SECONDS AND YOUR PICTURES SHOULD BE AVAILABLE ON THE SIDE. THANK YOU AND WE HOPE TO SEE YOU AGAIN! HAVE A GREAT DAY.

Logan couldn't help but laughing as he waited for the pictures. This was definitely the highlight of his day. He was so thankful to have a best friend like Jo. Jo was looking at him like he was crazy, like she had in the picture, and it only added to Logan's giggle fit. Thirty seconds passed by and out popped the pictures, Jo beating him to them.

"These are amazing! I look sooooo good." Jo said as she pumped her hair up a little, winking as Logan took his copy.

"I love these. These are so great! Going right up on my fridge." he said with a huge smile on his face. He pointed the third picture. "My daddy would be SO proud I finally got a pretty lady."

"Oh hush, Lo! You're going to make me blush.""Now don't get too full of yourself, Jo." he said with a wink. "Hey, I know I said we'd go straight to those pumps, but I have to go to the restroom. So just wait right here and I'll be back in a few minutes!"

"LIES! The bathroom is way over there! Logan, you're gonna take forever and I want those shoes NOW!" Jo whimpered.

"Oh Jo, you can wait a few more minutes. I'll be back as soon as I can." he said with a smile and took off towards the bathroom.

It took Logan nearly five whole minutes just to reach the restroom, the traffic in the mall was nearly as bad as the traffic on the highway. He had to wait a few minutes after he arrived for a stall to open up. He got in and locked it, relieving himself and making his way to the sink. Logan hated people who didn't wash their hands after going to the restroom. It was just plain nasty. But go figure there was no line for the sink. By the time he made his way out, it had already been fifteen minutes since he left Jo.

"She's going to hate me," he mumbled to himself as he tried to make his way through the people. Five more minutes. He could finally see Jo, but something didn't seem right. She was looking at a piece of paper she had in her hand, her expression was mixed with hurt and anger. Logan stopped and just looked at her, a little puzzled by what he saw. Somehow it was like she could feel his stare, because it was then she looked up with tears running down her face.

"YOU! YOU! HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?" Jo yelled as Logan just stood there. She made her way towards him, screaming things Logan couldn't understand. "HOW COULD YOU?"

"Jo, calm down. What's wro…""DON'T TELL ME TO FUCKING CALM DOWN! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TI ME?" she shook the paper in her hands. "I thought you were my best friend! How could you?"

"I am your best friend!" Logan yelled at her, a little relieved she lowered her voice some. He was so confused by what was happening, but understood the moment he saw the paper. It was the note from Kendall. No. He couldn't have. Logan shook his head. He couldn't have told Jo.

"How could you do this to me, Logan? I trusted you. I thought you were my best friend. BUT NO! My best friend wouldn't steal my boyfriend from me. How… how could you do that? I love him, Logan. I LOVE HIM! How could you kiss him?" Jo was starting to break down into tears. Logan went to hug her but she pulled away. "NO! Do not touch me. You pull this shit and then thing you can just hug and make it better? NO!"

"Jo, you don't understand. It… it just happened. And.. It mean nothing. It didn't mean a thing." Logan was almost in tears as well. He didn't care that people had stopped and started to watch their little show.

"HA! You expect me to believe that? That's not what Kendall said," she shook the note again. "You know what? FUCK YOU! I'm done. I'm done with you. I'm done with Kendall. I hope you two are happy together." she wiped her eyes and grabbed her bags. "I don't need this. I thought you were my best friend, but obviously I was mistaken."

Jo started to walk off. "Jo, wait! I promise it meant nothing… I didn't mean to. JO!" Logan started to follow her.

"No Logan, you can find your own way home!" she said without looking back.

Logan just stood there, tears running down his cheeks as he watched his best friend walk away from him. It only took a minute before he could no longer see her, the crowd swallowing her. He just stood there, too shocked to do much of anything else. People kept stopping to ask if he was ok or if he needed anything. He just shook his head and grabbed his bags as he started to walk away.

It might have taken 10 minutes to get to the mall, but it took about 45 for Logan to walk back to his apartment building. After the whole Jo fiasco he continued shopping, trying to drown out the feeling of being completely alone. He didn't have Kendall the way he wanted and now Jo was gone. Logan felt completely broken inside and didn't know what to do. So he bought and bought and bought. It made him feel better, but it was no permanent fix. So with all his purchases in tow, he walked the complete way back to his home. He thought about his life. He thought about what he wanted. He thought about Kendall. How could he do that? Jo didn't deserve that! He loved Jo. He didn't even talk to Logan before he did this. But Jo said Kendall said the kiss meant something to him. Logan wondered whether or not he really wrote that. He thought about that the whole way up the stairs.

"Well, at least I got my exercise for the day. Or month." he said to himself as he unlocked his door. He placed his bags down right inside his apartment, his door closing behind him. He fumbled for the light switch on the wall.

"Hey there beautiful." he heard as the light came on.