(a/n) I decided that I would do an entire chapter from James' POV, thought it would be fun so lets see.

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Chapter 4-James POV

Ugh...that was a tough show, really hot. I need to go to sleep, my head is killing me and I have been in a serious funk lately. I miss my own bed. I absolutely love doing the tour, the fans are great and I appreciate all the love we get but 3 months on the road sometimes gets the best of you. And not to mention I miss my family and Hannah. Thank God we have an entire week off, a week of absolutely nothing. I'm going home to San Diego and I CAN NOT WAIT! 25 more days. Again I love our fans but like I said, there is a lot I miss.

After the show we all walk back to our buses. Carlos and I share a bus and our basses stays with us as well. I hurry to the bus so I can get in the shower first and hopefully be able to call Hannah, if its not too late. God I miss her! After my shower its almost 12 midnight and Im not sure if its too late to call but I try anyway...No answer. She is probably sleeping. Being away from her these last three months has been horrible. I know she understands but I just wish things where a little different. I wish she could come with me on tour and be with me all the time but she has a life too. I wouldn't trade the opportunities that I have had for anything but it get to you sometimes thats for sure. I laid there for a few minutes just thinking when Carlos came in. "Hey, what are you doing just laying back here in the dark?" "I was trying to call Hannah but I think she's sleeping cuz she didn't answer." "Well dude it is..." he looks at his phone "12;15" "I know but I was hoping she was awake. I didn't talk to her today" "Yea, I know how that is. Are you OK man?" "Yup, I'm good" I tell him getting up to go get something to eat. He follows me down the small hallway through the bus. "Are you sure? Ya know you can talk to me right...about anything" "Yea man I'm fine, just tired and I have a serious headache. I'm gonna eat and then head to bed" He looked at me kind of strange and just said OK and sat down. I ate and like I planned I went to bed. Not that I went right to sleep. I laid there for almost two hours just thinking when finally I did fall asleep.

I woke up in a different city. Not really sure where but Logan will know, Ill ask him when I see him. Carlos was still asleep so I quietly got out of my bunk and changed into something more comfortable to go running in. I grabbed Fox and his leash and walked out the door. I have to remember where I'm running because again I'm not sure where I am and I don't want to get lost. I ran for a good hour and a half before I got back to the bus. Everyone was awake and in our bus. I went in a grabbed a pop tart put it the toaster and sat down next to Kendall. I looked at Logan "Where are we?" the other two looked at him as well and said "yea where exactly are we?" Logan didn't even look up from his huge bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch "Cleveland Ohio" we all nodded and went on talking. It was about 1:30 and we had a show at 7 so we had time to kill. We played video games, had a bouncy ball war and I even joined Logan in skateboarding, not that I really knew how to do it but it kept me busy. I needed to stay busy because if I didn't I'd drive myself nuts. It was time for us to do sound check and make sure everything was all good. We did the show and Cleveland was great as is any of our other shows, it was a lot of fun but every time we do Worldwide it gets to me a little, OK maybe a lot because it make me always wonder what Hannah is doing at that very second. I would never say that to anyone else because it supposed to be special for that one fan who does us the honor of joining us on stage but still. Its hard. I can still remember the day we decided to be more then just friends, that was one of the top 3 moments of my life.

~Flashback~

Homecoming was right around the corner and being in the 10th grade you had to make a name for yourself so you had to make sure you had a date, being as it was the first homecoming you would actually go to in your high school days because as 9th graders you just don't want to go. There just wasn't anyone that I really wanted to ask. All these girls where either stuck up, mean or just blah. I walked into my 3rd period class, English. Thank God I had this class with Hannah even though we were not allowed to sit any where near each other because apparently we talk too much. Whatever this lady was crazy anyway. I walked over and sat at the desk next to Hannah just until the bell rang then I'd have to go back to my seat. "Hey" I said as I sat down "Are you seriously doing your homework RIGHT NOW?" She looked at me and said "James say that a little louder, Mrs. Webber didn't hear you and yea I am, I didn't get to do it last night I was a little busy" "With what?" I asked because I think that I would know if she was busy. We did everything together. "I had to catch up on my One Tree Hill" she said smiling. I started laughing "your the worlds largest dork, you do know that right?" "shut up, if I remember correctly, you where over three nights ago watching it with me" "Shh I don't want people to know that" The bell rang so I walked back to my seat. Mrs. Webber was going on and on and on about Shakespeare. The time couldn't move fast enough, I swear. Then all of a sudden it hit me. Why not ask Hannah to go to Homecoming? I don't think she is going with anyone, well I know she isn't. And we are best friends so I'm sure she would.

Later that night we were sitting on her bad doing homework when I thought about asking her. For some reason I was nervous. I have no clue why, I mean we are friends why is it so hard just to open my mouth and ask. I sat there tapping my pencil. She looked up at me. "Problem?" I shook my head and went back to working on my homework. Come on James, its not like its prom or anything, its just homecoming and its not like you like her like that she is your best friend. "Who are you going to homecoming with?" I just blurted it out. "I was hoping you. I just thought it would be more fun, I mean unless you want to go with someone else which I would totally be OK with because..." I cut her off " I was thinking the same thing!"

A week later was homecoming. We got dressed at the same house because it wasn't like we had to do the whole traditional thing, we were just friends, we were just going together as friends. Not sure why I keep reminding myself of that but yea, just friends. A few minutes later she came walking in the room. She looked absolutely beautiful. It was at that very minute I realized I loved her and it was more then just a friendship kind of love, I was in love with her. That whole night I just kept thinking about my weird revelation and decided that I would keep it to myself and never say anything to her. After the dance we went home. She came to my house and we watched a movie. After the movie she said she was going to go home, she got up and headed toward the door. I grabbed her arm "Wait" I pulled her to me, hands on both sides of her face and just went for it, I kissed her. She didn't pull away, she was kissing me back. I pulled away from her "James" she said looking into my eyes, short of breathe. Then she did something I was not expecting at all, She kissed me. Greatest night of my life.

~End Flashback~

We weren't leaving right away so I went to get Fox and I was just going to take him for a walk before we got to moving. Carlos caught up to me, he had Sydney. "want some company?" "Sure" I answered him. "Great show tonight man, it was awesome" he said jumping up and down. "yea it was, it was a lot of fun. They always are" "I know, this is a great life we live" "Sure is! Get to see different places and go all over the country and other countries too, yea its pretty great." I told him. He looked at me and said "But on that same note I cant wait to be home. I get to see my family. Are you going back to San Diego?" "HELL YESSS!" I said almost at the top of my lungs. "I really miss my family and I really miss Hannah, oh man I cant wait to see her." "Ill bet dude!" he said. "Im Scared though" I told him. He stopped which made me stop as well, he looked at me and spoke "Why? What are you scared of" I didn't say anything. I kicked a piece of gravel. "Come on man you can talk to me, tell me anything, we are like brothers. You need someone to talk to, talk to me." I looked up to the sky and then to him "Im scared that Im losing her. It scares me shit-less to think that one day she is going to tell me that she cant handle it anymore and that she doesn't want to be with me. I'm just waiting for that phone call or a time when I go home or she comes to my house. Dude it petrifies me. I don't want to lose her." He came closer to me, put his hand on my shoulder, "Listen, that girls loves you. She has put up with a lot of shit for along time now. She is a great girl and I'm sure she will do what is right for not only her but for you too. Don't sweat it bud." "Its easy for you to say though. I cant ask her to keep going on with this relationship like this forever. I don't know if she would do it forever. Who knows how long this will last, I mean I hope for a very long time but how long is she gonna sit there and take it. I don't know, like I said, it scares the shit out of me. I love her so much and I don't want to lose her." "You wont" I didn't say anything else, I just started to walk. I don't know, something doesn't feel right. I needed to call her and talk to her. I needed to hear her voice. God I MISS HER!

OK so this was longer then any of my other chapters but thats because I don"t PLAN on doing anymore chapters from James POV. Hope you Like it.