Chapter 5

Tonight my parents are having a very nice, formal dinner party for a couple of their friends. They like to do that a lot. Of course my sister and I are invited. Yippee! Cant wait for this. Their friends were very nice but they're old. I just want to go home, get into comfy clothes, watch TV and lay on the couch. But no I have to stay here and entertain with my loving parents. I walk into my parents house "hello! Anyone home?" My mother appears from her room. "Hi honey, how are you?" "Tired" I tell her. "Well I thank you very much for coming over and helping your father and I" She says while putting earing into her ears. "Sure mom".

The party is in full swing. People were talking and having a good time. I was sitting on the stool in the kitchen next to my sister. She was talking to someone else so I was just sitting there taking in my surroundings when James' dad, Mr, John walked over to me. "Hey sweetheart. How are ya?" "Good and you?" I answered "Oh ya know same 'ol same 'ol. How excited are you about James coming home tomorrow?" I looked up at him with a huge smile on my face "very excited!" "Yea! Me too!" We chatted for a bit and then went on about through the party. It went on for a few more hours. I went to my mother and father to say goodbye before I headed home. Thank God its Friday. I was so tired, I went straight in let the dog out for a few minutes, changed into PJ's, brushed my teeth and washed my face. I went down to let the dog in and we both headed up to my bed. I was too tired to even turn the TV on. While laying there I realized 'James will be home tomorrow' it hit me all of a sudden. OH MY GOSH! HES GOING TO BE HOME TOMORROW. I knew when he was coming home but I have been so busy that I guess I just didn't realize. Now I knew I was never going to be getting any kind of sleep. I looked at the clock, 1:37 am. I was excited about him coming home, I mean cloud nine excited but I knew while he was home I was going to have to talk to him about our relationship. I don't want it to end but then again selfishly I want more. I just want to know if this is all I am going to get, is this as far as it goes? Are we always going to be in a long distance relationship. I stopped myself, Hannah just be excited for a little bit that you get to see him tomorrow, you can actually touch him for the first time in 3 months. With that I did drift off to sleep.

The next morning I woke up with a huge smile on my face. I had a text message from James;6 hours and I will be with you. :) I can't wait to put my arms around you and kiss you and...yea! ;) Ugh! That boy! I got out of bed showered and got ready. I had a few things to get at the grocery store. I put my shoes on and walked out the door. These next four and half hours are going to drag. After I got back from the grocery store and put things away I looked at the time. Its ONLY 1. Seriously 2 more hours. What the hell am I going to do for 2 hours? I decided to take the dog for a walk. I got back to the house around 2. I was cleaning up a little just to keep myself busy. I heard the door bell. Who is the world is this, I wasn't expecting anyone. I opened the door and right there in front of me was James. "AHHH" I screamed jumping into his arms "I thought you wouldn't be getting here for another hour!" "We made it back early" He said before he put his lips to mine, carrying me into the house. He put me down but kept his arms around me. "I really missed you" he said moving a piece of hair behind my ear. "Oh you have no idea" I told him before I kissed him again, very passionately this time. I fit perfectly in his arms, are lips were like to puzzle pieces fitting together perfectly. I missed this. He walked me over to the couch, we were so caught up in each other and the passion and the whole missing each other I didn't even know where we were or what was going on. All I knew was I missed him and I missed being with him in more ways than one. I just wanted to feel him, all of him. Clothes were being taken off and we made Love right there on my couch. I Love him.

We were laying there on the couch. He was telling me about the tour and the different places he saw and the thing he was able to do, he told me how much he missed me. I didn't say anything I just nodded my head, taking in the fact that he was here with me. I was laying in his arms. The greatest place on earth to be. If I could stay like this forever I would be one happy girl. After a little while I looked up at him, "maybe we should get dressed and go see your dad" He started laughing "yea he may be a little upset about me coming here and SEEING you before even telling him I was home, if you know what I mean" I smacked him lightly "Stop it". After we got dressed he called his Dad and said he wanted to meet him. We went to his office and had lunch with him. His Dad was almost as excited as I was. We went back to his Dads house and hung out with him for awhile. Had dinner and they talked, I just sat there and listened to the two of them talk taking it in. I was thinking to myself how nice it is to see them just talking and I guess you would call it bonding, it was nice. I kept think how nice it would be if he was able to do this all the time with his Dad, but I know thats not possible at least for a long time.

That night we were laying on the couch together, just the two of us, well and the dogs who were laying on the floor. James looked beside him at me and said that he had something to tell me. "We have extended the tour for 18 more shows in South America!" He looked a little sad as he said this. I couldn't help but tense up and be a little upset about it. "Well how long will you be gone?" "Are last show will be November 23rd" That was 2 and a half months from now. "OK" and with that I got up and walked into the kitchen. James followed me, "Look Hannah I know its 2 and a half months but we have too do it." He walked over to me and put his arms around my waist "It sucks, it does but there isn't anything I can do about it. Im sorry. I don't want to be away that long again but I love what I do and I have to do it." I backed away out of his reach. "James we need to seriously talk about this, I mean us." With sadness suddenly coming across his face. "I knew this was going to happen." He was now looking down at his bracelets on his wrists. "James, you told me that if this ever got to be too much for me that I needed to tell you" he wasn't looking at me "James its beginning to be too much. I cant take it anymore, I know this is your job and what you have always wanted to do but being with you, it takes work, I just need more then this. If all we are ever going to be is a couple that has a long distance relationship then I don't want it." He hasn't looked up at me yet. "Don't get me wrong, I love you more then anything else in this entire world but I need more." Looking up at me with tears in his eyes made me begin to cry. "I don't know what to say" he said. I nodded looking at the wall beside him. "James Im sorry" "I don't blame you, I understand!" With that he turned around and walked into the living room. I stood there in shock, realizing that I had just ended a 7 year relationship with the one person who I loved with every fiber of my being. Thats it, I've officially lost him. A few minutes later he walked back into the kitchen walked over to me with red eyes, put one arm around me and kissed the top of my head and said "I love you Hannah, Goodbye" I didn't say anything. Nothing. Nothing at all. I let him walk out the front door. As soon as the door shut. "I love you too James, Goodbye" As soon as it left my mouth I felt myself hit the floor, hands to my face sobbing. I miss him already.

(A/N) - sorry this one took a little while to get up. I have been really busy and it may be a few more days before I get another chapter up. Thank you!