Chapter 5

'Lavi

Auntie Tricia prepared a nice and warm meal but the coldness in the air remains as the tension between Tyki-nii and Uncle Sheryl is still there.

Even if I didn't see their conversation, I know that because of it Uncle Sheryl and Tyki-nii aren't on good terms now.

Uncle Sheryl tries to be civil and does not ignore Tyki-nii completely but the tension is really there.

I don't really like it at all and Auntie Tricia is also worried but we can't really do anything. It is up to the two of them.

When dinner is finished, Sheryl called his attention back to Tyki. He gave the lad a look.

Then said, "What do you have to say for yourself, Tyki?"

It took awhile before Tyki finally answered.

"I don't think anything will improve at all. I'm thinking of contacting the earl and accepting his offer of taking me in. I'll leave this place and-"

"No! Please don't leave, Tyki-nii!"

The child who finally understood what he meant could not agree and protested.

"Don't just decide things like that, Tyki. A lot of things needed be taken care of."

The uncle who was surprised as well agreed that the lad can't just leave like that.

"Then I'll wait."

`Lavi

"I don't think anything will improve at all. I'm thinking of contacting the earl and accepting his offer of taking me in. I'll leave this place and-"

I couldn't understand what he meant by this at first but then the moment he said the words 'leave'. I finally understood and could not accept it.

I don't want him to leave. I don't want Tyki-nii to be gone. Even if we don't exactly get along as before, I want to be by his side. He is important to me.

The moment he said the words of leaving, tears fell down uncontrollably.

Even if he is not going to disappear and just coming to live with his relative, the fact that he is leaving made it feel like when I lost my family. He really is important to me and leaving makes it worse.

I don't want Tyki-nii gone. I don't want him to leave.

In haste, I walked towards him and held onto him tightly not wishing to let go. I knew he might get angry even more but I don't really want him to leave.

I continued asking him not to.

"Please don't leave!" I begged.

`Tyki

The moment I said my plan of leaving, Lavi suddenly cried out and kept begging me not to.

I couldn't understand his reaction at all. I hurt him so badly. I caused such pain yet he still wants me to stay. I thought he would have been happy about my decision since the one who caused him pain would leave.

He didn't though and held onto me tightly while in tears begged me not to leave.

It hurts. It really hurts, this feeling of guilt and undeserved care. It pricked and hurt.

The more he cried and pleaded, the more it made me feel so bad inside.

I may have been the one who caused him to cry and feel this pain but now I feel so bad seeing him like that.

I don't like it at all seeing him cry and in pain, it hurts. I don't like it at all.

If it had been like the usual, I would have shoved him off and raised my voice at him but now for some reason I don't. I can't.

I can't bring myself to hurt him and held him in my arms then said the words I never thought I would say.

"I'm sorry. Don't cry anymore. I won't leave. I'm sorry."

He stopped crying and looked at me as if his eyes were asking if his ears had heard right.

"Hey, I meant what I said, okay? I'm sorry and I'm not leaving," I said in a playful tone of pretending to be slightly hurt by his doubt then smiled at him.

He smiled back so innocently and gave his thanks that I won't leave. It made me really happy.

The prickly feeling I felt disappeared. Inside, it feels so warm and light.

His smile seemed like the sun and brightened the darkness in my heart and melted the cold ice within.

I feel so happy then ever. The place now that I just called a house felt like a home. And it didn't just feel like a home since I am already at home. I am home.

`little bunny: This isn't the end yet and far from it. What I really want to say is, "THANK YOU!" to everyone. It made me so happy seeing that a lot reviewed this story and liked it. I'm really grateful and even more motivated to write.

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Thanks to everyone who is reading this ^_^ I hope you like it.

10/05/2011