Chapter 13
`Lavi
Going on a journey, I received a new name to call myself as Bookman explained to me the different types of characters of people.
"Each travel we have, you'll receive different names. And with each of those, you'll have to play different personas. You're still a beginner now so I'll give you with something simple. You will act as like a little child, sad about losing your family. You know what it feels like. It will be easy for you."
I did as said although in reality, I never cared for what happened. It is true that the first persona is the easiest. I hadn't understood at once why I needed to do this but he explained that it will be much more effective in not getting attached to people for we won't stay in a place long. I understood that as we left within a month. He only talked with different people, asking information and teaching me about history.
After that we went to another country and town. I learned something new each travel. I even learned other different languages.
I've lived different lives and met different people. I've learned how they're all so similar, so foolish yet I'm one of them.
He taught me to treat the ones we meet as merely ink on paper so it would be easier to not get attached.
And I wondered, how can I even get attached? No matter where I go, people still are full of lies even myself.
Years have passed and now we're in Vietnam where I'm living with a new persona as Deak.
We did encounter a lot of dangerous things in the past but the time here is the worst.
Bookman tries to hide it but I know how wary he is of his surroundings. He can't seem to sleep without making sure that everything is closed shut well.
I couldn't understand why he is acting like someone's after him. I did try asking but he simply ignored my question.
I didn't ask further. It isn't part of my worries. All I have to act right now is my current persona, Deak. And this latest persona doesn't need to bother with meddlesome things.
I did as said and acted as I should.
I seem to have acted this persona so well that his death did not affect me.
I know it had been a murder. He was killed and his death had been made to look like an accident just like those times.
Was I really that indifferent now? No tears or expressions of affection ever came for the old man.
Within the week, he had been buried and his belongings were passed onto me. There weren't much. The old man may have a lot of book but the more personal things were very little.
Looking over those things, I found an envelope that contained a letter addressed to me. I thought it weird since we're always together.
I guess it's probably something like a last will. He even used my real name.
Lavi,
I know how well you mastered different types of personas. You're close to being completely indifferent.
Despite that, Lavi still lives deep inside, my grandson, the son of my beloved daughter. That is not a bad thing despite what I taught you.
I may contradict my words from the past but they held a purpose.
I raised you that way the pass years to lessen the pain you will feel but I know that did not really do much, only little.
You might say that it does not affect you. You are wrong there though. It does not affect the persona you have become but it affects Lavi.
I may probably have died now, killed but made to look like as if it were an accident. You are smart and I know you can tell.
As a last assignment, go back as Lavi to the Kamelot household. I have talked with him before leaving back then. We expected my death as I took you away. Return there and find out about the truth.
Find the truth about your parents' death and be careful. Let not my work be done in vain. Seek for the truth and justice.
Everything is settled in the other paper on how things will be explained. Documents are made so every transfer will be made easily.
Go back there and seek the truth but do not forget to live. That is what your parents wish. They wish for you to live so I hope that even if you ignore me, at least listen to your parents' wish for you.
That is all that this old man requests. Farewell, my grandson. Farewell Lavi.
Your grandfather,
Bookman
It felt weird, his letter. It held so much emotion unlike him. He told me that everything has been arranged. I am to return to that place and live with them once more.
And I will become 'Lavi' again but... Who is Lavi now?
They know that he left with his grandfather traveling around the world.
What they don't know though, Lavi didn't exist in those times. Who is he now? I don't really know. I'll just go on with what the old man said. He set everything up, even this forty-ninth persona.
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10/29/2011