Chapter 17

`Lavi

In class, with my outgoing personality, people weren't children anymore so no one really bothered with my eye patch.

I get along with all of them. I even grew popular among them.

I felt bored with them though except for this one classmate of mine who's really quiet but sends out daggers with his piercing look.

Kanda made it obvious how he hates people but I didn't bother with it and teased his most of the times with his names and often bugged him.

He would pull out his sword which unexpectedly was allowed to be brought to school by him.

He would threaten me with it at times but I dodge well just fine since I had been trained by Bookman in all types of martial arts for reasons I never really understood much until I found out a bit of the truth.

I goofed off though and didn't seem like I had such training but Yuu noticed it which is why he doesn't hesitate.

He always has that look of his face, indifferent when not scowling, cold or angry. He seemed uninterested in a lot of things except for his hobbies like kendo. That is the only time his expression changes most of the time.

He knows about my fake character though which I understand why he obviously shows his hate/irritation for me.

In the club I joined, Allen was the only one I really got along with the most. I guess it's because we experienced almost the same scorn from people due to our peculiarities.

He's really kind and polite, a very good friend. He's appetite is also very interesting to watch.

The dark Allen though is really scary. I wouldn't dare come up against him. It's scarier than Yuu.

I also found out how he and Yuu can't get along. That is the best, so hilarious. It's so fun to watch when they're bickering at each other. A concerned friend would have stopped them but 'Lavi' is enjoying it anyways.

Another thing so funny to tease about Allen is the times when he mentions his friend.

He blushed whenever he mentioned his friend and will introduce me to her after school which is why I won't be picking up Road today. Uncle Sheryl said that it was fine.

Oh yeah, I also learned that he knew Kanda reluctantly because she was a childhood friend of his.

I wonder now who that friend is? She's probably cute with the way Allen keeps blushing and the way he praises her.

She's probably really kind as he says with the way she accepted Allen despite being that way and the fact that she is actually friends with Yuu. But a little bit of the latter part is believable since I found out that Yuu has a sweet spot for girls.

We decided to meet at a certain shop since Allen had to drop something off at his uncle's place. I waited outside ordering only a drink as I waited for them to come.

"Hey, Lavi. We're here," said Allen as he arrived with his friend.

My back was turned so I didn't actually see at once who his friend was. And when I met her face to face, 'Lavi' couldn't actually hide the shock on his face as he saw her and recognize who she is.

The said friend too was shocked upon seeing him. It wasn't even a question when she mentioned my name. It was that of surprise. "Lavi!"

Allen became confused. "You met him already, Lenalee?"

"We already met in the past, Allen. But it's nice meeting you again, Lenalee," I said with a smile like the usual as if the happening from the past never occurred.

I can't stay long though.

"Since we already met. I need to get going. I still need to pick up Road. Here's the payment for the drink. See you at school, Allen. Nice meeting you again, Lenalee," I said with my usual smile and cheerful tone.

I walked away. I may not feel anything but for 'Lavi', seeing her again is painful.

What a liar I am? 'Lavi' isn't the only one in pain, I am too. I am Lavi now after all.

It's just felt unfair. Those lies she made me believe in the past. The pain is still here when I remember it. It's hard denying it but I'm still Lavi. And remembering my past here, it's really painful.

Deak might have felt nothing for Bookman but I did. I lied to myself when I denied it. I lied to myself when I came here pretending as if none of the past affected me.

I lied a lot just like the others did. Humans are such liars that I came to hate despite being one. I can't deny not entirely hating them all though. That is just irrational. I can't say that I've become entirely indifferent. That is just impossible.

It had only been a few weeks but 'Lavi' sure has quite an impact now. Before coming here, before becoming 'Lavi', I never expected any of these at all.

Emotions started building up again.

That is the way 'Lavi' is though, my forty-ninth persona.

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11/05/2011