After Matthew had told Blaine the truth about his past, he felt more closer than ever to Blaine. He was also a bit more talkative than he was before. He would stay after school in the glee cub to wait for Blaine to finish whatever it was he was doing. Matthew actually liked watching the glee club practice. He used to think that glee club's were a joke, but now that he has been seeing he New Directions practice for events, he thought they played an important role in high school. He was even considering asking Finn if he could sign up. It was a little late for that, but he decided he would give it a try. The only things he didn't like about staying in the choir room were that Kitty and Jake were there. He disliked Kitty the moment she opened her mouth. She was rude, snotty, and just a straight up bitch. As for Jake, he and Matthew had history.
Matthew was the last one to walk into Art class. The class was mostly sophmores and juniors. He liked being around teenagers his age after being in a math class full of seniors. He didn't really like the class though because he couldn't draw to save his life. The teacher shushed the class and began to speak. "Okay class," she began. "The project I'm assigning you is not an individual project. You will be working in pairs." Everyone began turning around to look for their friends and give them a sign to say "We're working to together". The teacher took notice and said, "Don't get all excited. I have already chosen partners for you." "Aww" and "what" were the responses that came out of everyone's mouths. "I don't want to hear it." The teacher said firmly. "I have already paired you all up, so when you here your name, I want tyou to go sit next to your assigned partners." Matthew groaned. He didn't like where this was going.
"Marley and Wade," the teacher said. Wade and Marley both ere smiling and moved to sit next to each other. The teacher kept calling names until she got to his. "Matthew and Jake." she said. Matthew groaned and Jake's eyes widened. Jake turned to meet Matthew's gaze. Matthew wasn't looking at him. Jake got up and walked to the back where Matthew was sitting and took the seat next to him. They were quiet for a moment and then Jake spoke. "Look," he said. "Whatever happened between us is in the past. I'm sorry for what I did." Matthew sat silently with his arms crossed. "Can we just start over?" Matthew quickly turned to look at Jake.
"You want to start over?" Matthew said with a sarcastic attitude. "I cannot forget everything that you did to me. All the teasing and the harassment, you just want me to forget that?" Jake was silent. "You are part of the reason why I had to switch middle schools. You only added on to the abuse I was getting at home. You helped make my life hell."
"Well, I didn't know that was happening to you." Jake said calmly.
"And does that make it any better?" Matthew said.
"Look," Jake said again. "We were friends once."
Matthew turned away from him again. "Yeah," he said. "In like fourth grade."
"Doesn't that still count for something?" Jake said. Matthew was silent. "I want us to get back to that. What we once had. I'm not the same person I was back then." Matthew turned back to him.
"I am never going to be your friend again, Jake." Matthew said, glaring at him. "All I want you to do is help me get an A on this project. After this I never want you to speak to me again. Understood?" Jake was silent, but he nodded and turned away from Matthew.
Matthew was glad that Art was the last class of the day. He just wanted to go home. He opened his locker and saw the book that Blaine had let him borrow. He had forgotten to give it back to him. He really didn't want to go give it back to him, but he thought he might as well get it over with. So, he got the book, slammed his locker, and went straight to Blaine's house.
Matthew had to knock several times before someone opened the door. When the door opened, he saw that it was Blaine.
"Hey," Blaine said. "What are you doing here?"
"I came to give back your book." Matthew said and he held the book up.
"I forgot you had it." Blaine said with a little laugh and he got the book. "I have the next book if you want to read it."
"Yeah," Matthew said. "I need something to do at home."
"Come in then." Blaine said. When Matthew walked in, he was shocked at how squeaky clean everything was.
"Wow," Matthew said. "It's like looking at a home magazine cover."
Blaine smiled and said, "Yeah, my parents like to have a clean house." Matthew was still looking around when Blaine grabbed him by the hand and pulled him. "You can stare at my house later. Let's go." Blaine pulled Matthew to his room.
Once they entered, he said, "So, this is where everything goes down."
"And what goes down in here?" Matthew said.
"Nothing really." Blaine said as he walked over to his bookshelf. Matthew sat on Blaine's bed as he waited. On the nightstand next to his bed, there was a picture of Blaine and another guy. Matthew picked it up. "Is this Kurt?" Matthew said holding the picture frame. Blaine turned and saw what Matthew was holding and smiled. He walked over and sat next to Matthew to look at the picture.
"Yeah," Blaine said. "That was when we one Nationals last year."
"You two look nice together." Matthew smiled and turned to Blaine. He was smiling too, but he had tears forming in his eyes.
"I miss those times." Blaine said still staring at the picture.
"I'm just going to put this back now." Matthew said, realizing he had made Blaine emotional. He leaned over and put the frame back on the nightstand. He saw that Blaine had his head down.
"Look Blaine," Matthew said. "I'm tired of you beating yourself up over this." Blaine stayed quiet. "I see you walking around school with your head down looking sad all the time. The negativity you give off isn't helping the people around you either. It gets kind of annoying actually." Blaine was quiet. "What happened to the confident Blaine you had told me so much about? The Blaine who was captain of the Warblers, the Blaine that stood up for Kurt when he needed someone to, the Blaine I met in the choir room." Blaine looked at Matthew. "So, you messed up once. So what? The world isn't going to end."
"That's what you don't get, Matthew." Blaine said. "My world fell apart when I cheated on Kurt! You make it sound like what I did wasn't a big deal, but it is, okay?" This time Matthew was the one who was quiet. "Ever since Kurt and I broke up, I haven't been the same. He was my better half and now he's gone." Blaine put his head in his hands.
Matthew sighed and said, "I know this is going to sound mean, but you need to stop feeling sorry for yourself, seriously. You are the only person who is making it worse. Putting yourself down the way you do, is not going to help you heal. If you don't get over this, you are never going to be happy again."
"I just feel sad all the time and I don't know what to do anymore." Blaine said looking up at Matthew. "I haven't felt even remotely happy since..." Blaine stopped talking.
"Since what?" Matthew said.
Blaine shook his head, "Nothing. Forget I said anything."
"Tell me." Matthew said.
Blaine was quiet for a moment and said, "Since the moment I heard you play Teenage Dream that day in the choir room." Matthew looked into Blaine's red puffy eyes and saw that he wasn't lying. Matthew was quiet. He didn't know what to say. Before Matthew could do anything, Blaine leaned in and kissed Matthew on the lips. Matthew was shocked that this happened. He had been in denial this whole time. Of course Blaine liked him. It was so obvious since the beginning. After a few seconds, Matthew pulled away and shook his head. "I can't do this." Matthew said.
"Why not?" Blaine said leaning in again for another kiss. Matthew gently pushed him away. "Because you still have feelings for Kurt." Matthew said. "I need to know that I'm the only person that you're thinking about." Blaine didn't say anything, but kept looking at Matthew. "And that can't happen because I know you're still in love with Kurt. And besides, I'm just really confused right now. That's why I try not to have feelings towards anyone. Don't save me Blaine. You need to save yourself." Matthew stood up and walked toward the door. "I'm sorry." Matthew let leaving Blaine staring at the doorway with tears in his eyes.
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