A/N: Okay, honestly, I took a lot of liberty with this one, especially after how closely I followed the last song. It'll be explained in the end A/N.

Disclaimer: No. Song is by Honor Society. YJ is owned by DC. Conner's POV.

My Own Way

I have to hold him up against the wall because he's still too short for a proper kiss, even on his tiptoes. At fifteen, you would think he would be taller. But he isn't.

Maybe that bothers me too. That, and the fact that he's really touchy-feely with me. I love him, I do, but we've hit the point where he's putting more into the relationship than I am.

Not to mention the fact that I'm falling in love with M'gann again. She was with Kaldur for like a month and they broke that off because he was too simple and straight with her. Or at least that's how I think it went. Not like I really know. But what few arguments I heard, it sounds like he just wasn't her type.

And I don't think she was over me, really. Honestly, I'm not sure if I ever got completely over her.

"Con." His voice is holding a slight laugh, his head is slightly cocked to one side, and a grin is splayed across his face. "What's up? You're distracted or something."

One hand moves to brush my cheek but I shy away, a little bit embarrassed because I was thinking of M'gann while kissing him. And then I stopped kissing him because I was thinking of her. So I'm guilty. Some form of cheating, right?

"Conner."

"It's nothing." It's something.

"Tell me."

"No." Yes.

He sighs and wraps his thin, gangly arms around my neck. I'm all too aware of how fragile he is, how easily I could snap him in two. "You've been spacey lately. I'm just worried about you."

And in that moment, Wally walks past, hands shoved deep in his pockets, green eyes tossing a glare our way. "PDA. Come on, guys, seriously."

Robin, with a slight glare right back, sticks his tongue out until Wally's disappeared in Mount Justice's black depths, swallowed whole by darkness. Quickly, his attention returns to me. "Conner, I care about you. So just tell me what's up. I won't judge or anything." Then his smile is back, innocent as ever.

Common sense says make up some kind of lie. But my gut doesn't want me to hurt him anymore. I've been thinking about Megan for a long time now, and Robin? Robin hasn't really been on my mind. I missed our three month anniversary. (Or at least that's what he was trying to celebrate, I guess.) I may have missed his birthday. Not to mention the twenty-some dates I turned down because I was moody about Megan and Kaldur...

No. I won't hurt him.

"I... I've been thinking a lot lately."

His smile falls almost instantly, probably because the tone of my voice. Robin knows it is bad news and fears it; his arms loosen around my neck.

I try not to stutter, calculating my pauses to make easy, coherent sentences that won't break his heart even more. "I don't know if I... if I can keep going like this. I'm not physically attracted to you, Robin. You're great to be around and you definitely know how to have fun, but I don't feel that way about you like I should." I slowly let him down off the wall. His eyes are right at my shoulder, but he's looking up at me so I can see a scarce sliver of his eyes behind the glasses: blue, like the ocean. "A-And you're younger than me. Kind of like a brother. It-"

"It's about Miss M, right?"

I pause. I know how much I hurt him sometimes by even looking at her, but I try to remember him and to leave her at just a thought... "...yeah."

His smile is sad. I can read him though, and he isn't disappointed. He isn't angry either. But I can't pinpoint what it is exactly that brings him so low. His emotions are hard to read without seeing his eyes. "Hey, I figured." Robin shoves his hands in his pockets, immediately closing himself off. "You were depressed about the break-up with M'gann and I played you." Still, that smile quirks the corners of his lips. "Besides, I don't think you swing my way, Con."

And I end up being disappointed. In myself, more than anything. He put his trust and love in me, trying to make up for something of his own, an obvious deficiency somewhere in his own heart and home, but I couldn't fill whatever hole had been dug inside his hollowed chest. I failed him.

"I'm sorry," I murmur, touching his face in that loving way I know he likes one last time; his face tightens and he shies away like a child trying to ignore a parent.

"My fault, not yours. I'm different and you're straight, that's all there is to it." Then, in an attempt to lighten the mood, Robin jerks his head over towards the Mount Justice's hub, the center of all activity. "Go get Megan. Tell her I approve." Then that smile grew into a cheeky grin, suppressing everything else he was feeling, wearing that grin like a mask for his turmoil.

I don't want to push him, so I take his advice and head on in, aiming to get back to the level we were before. I just want her to care again.

One last check over my shoulder shows Robin disappearing into the blackness, head up, hands in his pockets, cool and collected walk. He'll be alright.

A/N: The song is actually a "You didn't care enough and that's why I'm leaving" kind of song, but I always feel like Dick would be perfect to anyone lucky enough to date him. The Dick/Con chapter just felt like it had to be a break-up, so I picked this song for the break-up sense rather than the actual reasoning.

Next one is actually going to be a companion chapter to this one, and I've already got it planned, so yay (:

~Sky

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