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BPOV

I jumped in my car excited that I am going to spend time alone with Cullen tonight.

He asked me if I wanted to grab something to eat.

I blasted Rihanna in my car.

Then my song came on The Final Goodbye by her. And I started to sing along.

I reached in front of my house and I parked and was still singing while I was walking through my front door.

I threw the mail on the counter and noticed Renee sitting one the dining table with folded hands.

I immediately started thinking about thinks I've done.

Is Renee upset I came home late?

"Please come sit Bella."

I hesitated then she motioned for me to come.

Even though I was scared of the first hit, her eyes showed something else.

Pain? Resentment?

I walked slowly to the table and she signaled for me to sit.

So I took the seat across from her.

At least if she raises her hand, it will at least give me a second to back up or maybe the table will block her and I can run outside.

When she took my hand, I jumped.

Renee pinched the bridge of her nose and ran her finger through her hair.

"When you were born, I always swore I would protect you. But I never thought I would have to protect your from myself."

Tears fell down her cheeks.

She huffed when she wiped her cheeks.

"Ever since your father passed away and the problems with Rosalie, I've been a bit of a mess. I've been depressed and angry. And I've been taking out on you. Do you know how it is to be so angry at your daughter for something she couldn't control?"

She looked at me and said, "I am so sorry. I want you to know that the last think I've ever wanted to do was to ever hurt you. I can't even touch you without you flinching. "

"What is this about mom?"

She took my hand and I flinched.

"I am checking myself into a hospital to seek help. I need help."

She started to cry uncontrollably.

I got up and went to hug her.

She was crying into my hair repeating how sorry she's been and how much she loves me.

"When are you leaving?"

She lifted her head to look at me and I dropped my arms.

"I ummm tonight. I am leaving tonight. I spoke to Dr. Becker and he has a bed for me at St. Elizabeth hospital."

"What am I going to do?"

It hit me that she was leaving. I started to cry with her.

She grabbed my face and said, "You will be fine. You are strong and you've always been independent. Everything is taken care of. Don't worry."

I hugged her and said, "Please don't go mom."

She hugged me tighter and said, "I have to. I lost your sister I don't want to lose you too. I am doing this for you. I love you."

Even though she put me through hell, she was still my mother and I love her very much.

We hugged each other until it was time for her to leave.

EPOV

She cancelled on me.

How can she do that with no explanation?

I stomped on the clutch and pull the car in second gear.

I didn't want to strip the gears but I was pissed.

When I reached her house, I noticed her car was there but the house was dark.

I got out and slammed the car door.

I walked up to the window and noticed not movement and I started to get worried.

I knocked but there wasn't an answer.

I swallowed hard because of the images that were running through my mind.

Thoughts of Bella getting hurt by her mother again or killed this time were very hard for me to shake off my mind.

I turned the knob and the door opened.

Without even thinking I stepped inside and called out for Bella.

I walked into the living room and saw Bella sitting on the couch crying.

She looked at me and sniffled.

I went to her and she looked at me and said, "She left."

I hugged her.

"Who left?"

"My mom."

In my mind I was happy that the crazy woman who hurt her daughter had left.

But that's not what Bella needed right now.

Bella sniffed again and told me what happened between her and her mother.

"It will be alright. Did you call Rosalie?"

"Yeah I called her. She was going to come home but I told her not to. She has school and she said she's coming this weekend."

"I am sorry she left but maybe it what's good for you and her right now. It sounds like she wants to be a better mother for you."

She pushed away from me and said, "I understand that but she is left me just like everybody else. Rosalie left, my dad and now my mom. I don't have anybody."

I drew in my eyebrows and said, "But your dad died."

She pushed off the couch and said, "I know he did but he left me. Everybody leaves me."

I followed her and grabbed her arms to turn her to face me.

"You listen to me Bella. Your dad died. Your sister, who I have to say you are annoyingly close to is away at school and your mom went to better herself for you. You shouldn't be upset."

"How should I feel then?"

"You should be proud that your mother loves you enough to want to change for you."

I dropped my arms and I felt like I should tell her the truth.

But there was a barrier in my mouth stopping the words for coming out.

"Your mother knows what she did is wrong and she is trying to fix it for you. Be proud of her. Give her the chance to at least try to change."

I looked into her eyes and I knew they were trying to find the truth.

I dropped my eyes.

"Umm I think you should go lay down and I will make you some tea."

I gave her some tea and I stayed with her until we fell asleep.

I was dreaming of Bella, her long wavy brown hair blowing, her soft innocent eyes.

Bella's soft lips on mine while she is kissing me

The feel of her arms around me and the sound of her voice when she says my name and the look she gives when she is annoyed with me.

Then the dream turned into a dark room, the same dark room. The sounds of men grunting and her laughing filled the room.

The dark room that always smelt of vomit, piss and sex.

I was back there. The place I vowed I would never be again.

I looked around for Bella. Where is she?

She shouldn't be here.

I could feel myself sweating. Trying to get out but I couldn't.

Why am I here?

I started screaming for Bella to help me.

Please help me!!!

I want to go home.

I hear her laughter coming in closer.

I covered my ears to block out the laughter and the screams with the city sound outside the window.

"You owe what is due to me."

I turned to see if she was there.

But there wasn't anybody, just me in the room trying to get out.

The feel and sounds of glass vials breaking under my feet showed me this dream is real.

Please I don't want to be here anymore.

"Please no more. Please no more."

I dropped to my knees and covered my head.

"I want to go home. Mom, dad, Bella where are you. No more."

Hands grabbed my shoulders.

I jerked up.

Bella reached for me and I pushed her away.

"Edward you are dreaming. It's me Bella."

I was sweating and panting.

My throat was dry and my tongue was stuck to the roof of my mouth.

Bella held me trying to calm me down.

"What happened?"

I couldn't speak.

"It's ok. I am here."

I can usually calm myself but it wasn't working.

"Baby I am here. What happened?"

I didn't realize that I was crying.

I could tell Bella was scared.

I finally spoke but in a whisper.

"Can I have water please?"

"I got it."

She jumped off the bed and ran to get some water.

Damn! I didn't want her to see this. I didn't want her pure self to be tainted by me, something so ugly to scar her beauty.

I got off the bed and started to put on my shirt and shoes.

She came back into the room with the water and I took it from her and drank deeply.

"Where are you going?"

"Home."

"But why? It is 5 in the morning."

"I got to go."

"What happened?"

"You know it was just a dream."

I tried to brush it off but she didn't push it.

"Fine I guess I will see you in school."

"Fine."

I left without a second glance or a kiss.

While jumping into the car, I looked out thru rearview mirror to see if she had followed me.

I was a bit hurt that she didn't.

I closed my eyes and started the car and went home.

As soon as I opened the door Carlisle was in my face.

"Where have you been?"

"Ahhh man not right now."

I walked past them and Carlisle grabbed my arm to stop me and said, "Yeah right now"

I brushed his hand off.

Esme stood in between us.

"Look Edward. Just tell us where you've been."

I looked at her and let go of my defensive posture.

"I went to Bella's we had a date and she cancelled and I wanted to see if she was ok."

Carlisle cut in.

"You know you are not supposed to sleep out."

I turned my gaze to him.

"Do I look like I planned it?"

"Don't be a wise ass. You are to be in this house. No sleepovers ever. I am warning you."

I clenched my teeth and said, "What are you going to do that hasn't been done already?"

Esme clutched her chest and I went to my room.

Carlisle was about to yell after me but Esme stopped him.

BPOV

"I don't know what happened."

I was walking out of my last class of the day and I haven't seen Cullen all day.

"What was he doing?"

I played with my chain to stop myself from screaming.

"Rose I was sleeping and I woke up with him whimpering and crying out no. Please. I want to go home. I started freaking out."

"I would be too. And you haven't seen him all day?"

"Nope. I tried to call him but he isn't answering his phone. I don't know what to do. This is just perfect."

"Bells calm down. He probably dreamt something that freaked him out and he just needs time to sort it out. Don't worry. If he doesn't call you by tonight we will call an apb."

Its been a week since I haven't seen Edward Cullen.

I've been by his house and his parents are telling me that he doesn't want to see anybody.

I even as spoke to Emmett but he wasn't a big help.

I was getting worried. I didn't know what was going on.

As I was walking to my next class I see Edward sitting on his car smoking a cigarette with his dim-witted friends Mike and Eric.

He picked up his phone.

I kept walking away and my pocket was buzzing.

I noticed I got a text.

HI

I turned to look at him and rolled my eyes.

The rest of the day went by rather quickly.

When I was walking to my car, I saw Edward sitting on my car.

I walked by him and he said hello but I just ignored him.

He scoffed and said, "We are back to this again?"

I stopped and chuckled.

"Yes we are back to this Cullen."

I turned to face him and said, "What happened to you? Why haven't you been answering my calls? Better yet why haven't you called me to let me know that your finger hasn't been broken and that you are alive?"

"I am sorry."

"That not what I want to hear."

I opened my car door and put my bag inside.

"I want to know what happened to my house that you just ran out and I haven't heard from you in a week."

He exhaled and said, "I've just been going through something that I need to work out."

I threw my hands up in disbelief.

"That's what I get? You were going through something that you needed to work out. Perfect."

"What do you want me to say?"

I pushed my hair back and tried to rack my brain for what he possibly can say to make me feel better.

"Well let's see. Bella what happened to me that night scared me but I feel like I can talk to you."

"I can't talk about it."

"Why can't you?"

Edward started to pace back and forth.

"Please I can't."

"Oh I see. You walk into my life and I show you this is how my life is. I give you the opportunity to choose if you want to deal with my baggage. But you can't open up to me to let me know what your baggage is. I've known from the beginning that we both are troubled souls but you can't even respect me enough to show me who are. You can't even trust me enough to be there for you. As soon as you show me a little weakness you run."

"It's not easy for me Bella."

"Do you think it was easy for me? Do you think it was easy for me to look at you everyday knowing that there is one person out there who knows the shit I live through? Well you don't need to worry about that anymore."

"What is that suppose to mean?"

"It means goodbye."

I started to walk to the driver side and Edward stopped me.

"No Bella. Don't do this."

I scoffed.

"I didn't do this. You did."

I continued to walk to driver side and opened the door.

Edward grabbed my arm.

I looked at him and said through clenched teeth, "Let go."

He looked into my eyes and let me go.

Edward watched me get into the car and drive away.

I know this one is long. I just get carried away when I wrote this story. If you like this one check out my other story called The one I yearn. You will love that one too. Thanks