Hey guys. Thanks for the reviews. I am sorry for it being so deep but we have to know why Edward is a troubled soul… This chapter is going to be worst, so if you can't take abuse please don't read further. I hope you guys like this chapter…

BPOV

My breath was coming in deep and slow.

"Baby what are you talking about? Raped?"

I put my hand to my chest trying to hold my heart into place.

"I don't understand." I said while lowering my head and tears flooding my eyes.

Edward walked closer and I could see the pain in his beautiful green eyes.

"Bella. I just want you to know the truth."

I blew out a breath and grabbed his hand and dragged him into the house.

We walked passed the kitchen where they were eating a pie.

"Hey come have a slice with us." Rosalie said.

"Oh." She continued when she saw Edward.

"Later." I said walking past them and hearing Rosalie mumbling something.

I pushed open my bedroom door and went in.

Edward turned the light on and closed the door.

"Bella this isn't going to be easier for both us of."

I didn't say anything. I just waited for the horrible story.

Edward walked to my bed and reached for my hand to join him.

I did.

"I told you about my real parents."

I nodded my head.

"My mother or I should say Josie, used to move us around and the places would be worst than the last. My mother used to say how I was too much trouble for her and that I was going to pay what was owed to her one day. I didn't know it would come when I was 8. We used to live in this bad part of Seattle. The apartment was dirty and it smelled like sex, vomit and piss. Every night there were different men coming in and out of the apartment. And one.. one night a man went to my mother and told her he would give lot of money for me."

I gulped.

"She agreed. I was sleeping and she went into my piss filled room and …"

I could see that Edward was having trouble continuing. I put my hand on his but he just got up and started passing the room.

Edward continued. "She came to my room and held me down while the man raped me. I cried so much and I tried to fight but they were bigger and stronger than me. Josie was happy with money she got for me that every night a different man came and the more I fought the more she beat me up. But she learned quickly that her clients didn't like their merchandise damaged so she used to tie me down before the men came so I would fight so much."

"Oh God!" I cried out.

Edward looked at me and I can see the tears in his eyes.

"I didn't fight anymore. I just stayed on my soil bed and just prayed the night would be over quickly. One night my mother brought a man home and I guess he didn't have enough money so she tired to throw him out. He knocked her out cold and he came to my room and raped and beat me up pretty bad. After he was done with me, he went to her and raped her. And while he was raping her I just couldn't help but think maybe this is it. Maybe I will finally die. Leave this hell. But something happened. I heard a voice that told me to get off that bed and I did. I was in a lot of pain and I crawled out of the apartment. And went to my next door neighbor, and passed out from the pain. When I opened my eyes I was in the ambulance and I learned that my mother was gone."

Edward went to sit on the bed and he faced me.

I wiped the tears from his eyes.

"I was in bad shape when I was in the hospital but when I opened my eyes I saw an angel looking down at me and I started to cry. I kept repeating you saved me. You saved me. It was Esme. She put her hand on my head and promised me that she wouldn't let anybody ever hurt me. When I was let out of the hospital I went to the Cullen's house."

I closed my eyes and more tears fell.

"Edward I am so sorry."

"Don't be. I wanted to tell you. I wanted you to know. I love you. I've never loved anybody. I've never told anybody about this and I begged my parents not to too."

I kissed him and put my hand on his face and I felt his tears streaming even more.

"You don't find me disgusting?'

"Why would I?"

He cocked his head to the side and said, "I just thought…"

I put my finger to his lips to stop him.

"You had something terrible happen to you and I will never hate you or find you disgusting. You trust me enough to tell me what happened and I love you for it."

I pulled him into my arms to let him know that I will always be there for him no matter what.

EPOV

I told her. I can't believe I told her.

She didn't turn away from me. She didn't find me disgusting.

I was laying on my back just listening to her breathe.

She stirred and I turned my head to look at her.

She was sleeping on her side and her hands were between her legs. I smiled thinking how cute she looks sleeping.

Her eyes started to flutter and she opened them and looked right into my eyes.

She jumped.

"Oh Jesus."

I started to laugh.

"I didn't mean to scare you."

"Please don't stare at me like that. That is creepy. What are you doing?"

"I was just listening to you breathing. And thinking"

"Thinking about what?"

I turned my body to face her.

"I was thinking about you. How beautiful you are."

She moved closer to me.

"You think I am beautiful?" She said.

I started to stroke her hair.

"Very beautiful."

Bella closed her lips to mine.

The taste of lips and the feel of her tongue in my mouth drove me crazy.

I laid her on her back and I laid on top of her trying to put my full weight on her.

I could feel her quiver beneath me and I just loved the fell of her body, the softness of her skin of my hands.

Bella whispered my name on my lips and I said hers.

She removed my shirt and was kissing chest. I moaned from the feel of her tongue on my chest.

I laid her back down and started kissing her neck and shoulder.

The energy in the room was crazy. We both wanted each other and the fight we did to remove each other clothes were a battle we both happily fought.

I kissed her body and I knew where I wanted to be.

Bella's hand was on my hair while I was kissing her thighs and her slit. As I licked her little nerve she bucked.

I put her leg on my shoulder and started kissing her deeply. She kept chanting my name over and over.

She pulled my hair tighter and I knew she was close. One kiss and she was shaking. I could taste her love juices and I knew she was ready.

I rose to face her and kissed her.

"Are you sure?"

She shook her head and was breathless.

I slipped inside her and I felt the barrier of her virginity.

I looked in her eyes again.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes please." She said.

"Tell me if I hurt you."

She grabbed my face and started kissing me.

I slipped further in and we both moaned.

I just laid inside; I didn't want to rush this feeling.

I kissed her neck and told her I loved her.

I moved slowly experiencing the bliss of our love.

"Look at me." I told her.

She opened her eyes and her chocolate brown eyes were cloudy from our passion.

"I love you Edward." She said in a husky voice.

"I love you too Bella." I said and we emptied each other.

BPOV

Wow!

All I can say was wow.

That was amazing. Yes I know I don't have anything to compare it too. But if that was lousy then I don't think I could handle better.

My legs were shaking. Was this normal?

Edward was breathing heavy against my neck and I couldn't move to get him off.

Finally he slid off of me and lay right next to me.

What should I say?

Should I say something?"

"Are you ok? Did I hurt you?"

Edward said finally catching his breath.

I can't say I was hurting but a little uncomfortable. Good uncomfortable.

Edward turned to look at me when I didn't say anything.

"Bella are you ok?'

I pushed my hair back.

"I ummm I am ok."

I smiled and looked at Edward.

"Do you have any regrets?'

I turned to face him and kissed him.

"I don't have regrets. Do you?"

"Well." He said laughing and I hit him lightly in the arm.

He kissed me softy and took me again.

I crept into Rosalie's room and I started giggling what I saw.

Emmett was sleeping with his mouth wide open and snoring. I don't know how Rosie sleeps with him. It sounds like a freight train blowing.

I slowly walked to my doodle's back and play and she was sleeping just like Rosalie. Flat on her back, with one arm across her face and her legs apart.

I picked her up and she started to stir and I quickly left the room.

"Who's this? Edward said when I put Jas in between.

"This." I said while fixing the sheet around her. "is my doodle bug. My baby."

"Do you think we will squish her?'

I pulled her closer and told him I will always make room for her.

"Bella."

"Hmmm"

I stirred when I heard someone call my name.

"Bells. I think you doodle bug is hungry."

I woke up with Jasmine crying looking down on me and Edward trying to grab him but she's pushing him away.

I didn't even know I had fallen asleep.

"Oh buggy." She reached for me and I got off the bed with her.

I walked into the kitchen and I noticed that nobody was up yet.

James and Victoria were sleeping on the air bed in the living room.

"Ok doodle. Time to eat."

I went to the fridge and I found her bottle.

While warming in the microwave, I checked to see if she soiled her pull ups and she just peeped.

I looked in her bag and I found what I was looking for.

"I should have known you would have taken her."

I jumped when I heard Rose's voice.

"I didn't mean to scare you."

I scoffed and said, "It looks like everybody is trying to scare me."

Rosalie scrunched up her eyebrows and said, "I see he stayed last night."

"Huh? What?' I said while putting Jas in her chair.

"I said I see he stayed over last night."

I blushed and couldn't look her in her face.

But I can feel her staring at me.

"What a minute." She said and walked over to me while I was giving Jasmine her bottle.

"Say thank you." I said to Jasmine

"Yank ou." Jasmine said while biting on the nipple.

"What?" I said when Rosalie lifted my face to hers.

"Tell me you didn't." She said.

"Ok I didn't"

She scrunched her eyes.

"You are so lying."

"Ok. Rosalie. I did. Twice."

I stick my tongue and I knew she wasn't joking.

"Rose please don't be upset."

"I am not upset. I am furious."

"Why?"

"You are not ready."

"Who says?'

"You did."

I folded my arms and tried to lower my voice but now I was getting upset.

"People change."

She scoffed, "People change?"

"Yeah, people change."

"Didn't my talk mean anything to you?"

She was really pissing me off now. Why couldn't she be happy for me? I was.

"Yeah it made not want to be stupid like you."

It was out of my mouth before I can stop it.

She looked at me and tears started in her eyes.

I closed my eyes.

"I didn't mean that."

"Yeah you did."

"Roses I am sorry. I am so sorry. I was angry. I shouldn't have said that."

I went to her and hugged her.

"Bella I just don't you to go through what I went through."

I pulled from her and looked into her eyes.

"I know. I will be careful."

"Jasper and I were careful."

"And look what you guys did together."

We both looked at Jasmine and smiled

"That is my baby." Rosalie said while messing up Jas's blond hair.

"Yeah and you were stupid for having her. You are the bravest girl I know. You raised her alone."

That put a smile on her face.

I hated fighting with her or even her mad at me.

"Rose don't hate Edward for this."

She scoffed.

"I don't hate him. I just think he's going to hurt you."

"What if I hurt him?'

I couldn't tell her what he told me. But it was a possibility.

Just then the house phone was ringing.

"Who is calling this late?' Rosalie said while picking Jasmine up out of her chair.

I picked up the phone.

"Hello."

I looked at Rosalie when I heard who it was.

Who is it? I guess you guys have to wait till next time. I hope you like this chapter.