Here is another chapter. Thanks for the reviews. And sorry it took a while to post a chapter. I was have a writers block. I didn't know where to go with this story. But I thought put on my ipod and just let it flow out of my fingers. I hope you like it. And please send more reviews. I just love them. Thanks
BPOV
"Who is this?" I looked at Rosalie and she gave me a worried look.
"Who is it Bells?" She reached over and picked up Jas out of her high chair.
I closed my eyes to because I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
"I'm sorry can you please repeat that." I said and held my breath to make sure I was hearing what I thought I heard.
"Hi my name is Sabrina Watson from the Seattle Wellness Group. Your mother is checking herself out today against our better wishes. But unfortunately we cannot hold her due to the fact she checked herself in."
"Wait what." I said.
I couldn't deal with this right now. One moment I was on cloud nine and just in a blink of an eye I fell. She couldn't come back home. Was she well enough? I haven't seen her since the day she left. I handed the phone to Rosalie who was asking me over and over again who it was. I need to get outside. I couldn't breath. I felt the walls were closing in on me. I pushed through the door and tried to breath. But it wasn't helping. She was coming home and I was afraid. Afraid of my own mother.
All the bad times just rushed in my mind and I started to sob. I couldn't live like this again. I couldn't just slip back into the old patterns. I put my hand to my chest and tried to breathe in and it burned going into my lungs. I stood up and tried to breathe normally and wiped my tears. I pushed open the screen door and immediately Rosalie was by my side.
"I just need a minute."
She smiled at me and I continued to walk to my room. Edward was on my bed reading one of my twilight books (I hope you like that one. LOL) that I left on my night table. He was so sexy laying there with no shirt on and his beautiful body begging to be caressed. Edward's green eyes looked at me and he smiled his crooked smile at me. I closed the door behind me and walked over to him.
"I don't know why you read these crap." Edward said while putting my book back on the table.
I hugged him and pushed him down on the bed and lay on top of him. I knew this would be the last time I will lay with him in my house like this. The feeling of waking up next to him on my bed is gone just like everything else in my life. Music I could forget about it. Renee didn't approve then what makes me thing she will approve now. I started to cry and my tears where falling on his neck.
"What's wrong?" He said rubbing my hair. "Are you crying?"
"Renee is coming home." He stiffened for a brief moment and tried to comfort me.
"Everything is done. Music. My sister will leave again. And now you."
"Hey hey hey." He said while lifting my head to look into his vivid green eyes.
"Nothing is making me leave you. Do you hear me? Nothing."
Edward wiped my tears with his thumbs. While looking into his beautiful face I prayed that he was right. But he didn't know the strength of Renee. The strength of the hold she has over me. No matter what she's done to me, she my mother and I love her.
Edward kissed my lips that were salty from my tears.
"I care about you." He whispered while kissing me. His kiss turned gentle and passionate. My mind got clouded with the heat that was radiating through my body. He pulled back and hugged me. We both were trying to catch our breaths to calm ourselves down.
"Do you want to get out of here?" He whispered to my neck. I nodded and looked at him.
I smiled and he kissed my lips.
"Let's get dressed so we can go for a ride."
After we finished getting dressed I told Rosalie that we are getting ready to go out. I can see that Rosalie's face was pained and she wanted to talk but I didn't want to deal with that right now. I knew what she was going to say. She was going to tell me she was going to leave again. As everybody know Rosalie and my mother doesn't have a great relationship. And I know that she's not going to be under the same roof with my mother. But I just didn't want to say goodbye to my sister yet. I just wanted to just have my last day fun until the warden comes and take it away from me again.
As we stepped outside I noticed Edward's bike was here. Edward sat on the bike and handed me the extra helmet. He pulled me close to him and kissed me. I love his kisses. I loved the way they made me feel. The way my body felt like it was about to explode if he didn't touch me. Edward put his forehead against mine and smiled.
"You ready?" I nodded and smiled. I put the helmet on and climbed in behind him. He revved the engine and I smiled wider. I love the feel of being on his bike and having my arms wrapped around the man I care for. I know Edward has issues he needs to deal with but I do too.
Edward pulled out of our driveway and hit the streets. He turned his head to the side and yelled to me if I trusted him. I told him I did and he popped a wheelie. I yelled and laughed. The front of his tire hit the ground and we was off. I started humming and I know that Edward could hear me. I wanted to be like this forever. Hitting the open road and being with the man who was in control of the wheel. He was driving us to a destination that I didn't know. And I felt that inside. I didn't know where we would go but I know I wanted to go there with him. I wanted to be with him. I wanted to fight for him. Because. because. I started breathing heavy. I knew it. Right there I knew it.
"I love you." I said into the wind.
My love. I closed my eyes and held my love closer to me. And I noticed we were slowing down. I opened my eyes and noticed we were in a wooded area. He stopped the bike and parked it. He got off the bike and took off his helmet. His bronze hair fell to his eyes and he pushed the messy hair back. He walked to me and took off my helmet and lifted me off the bike. He bent down to look into my eyes and smiled at me. He hugged me and lifted me off the ground.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and he kissed me. Edward hugged me again and I started to laugh.
"What is going on here?"
He pushed me back to look at my face.
"You said you love me."
"Yeah" I said sounding nonchalant and shrugged my shoulder.
Edward grabbed my face and slowly pulled it closer to his.
"I love you too."
He kissed me and everything exploded. The kiss was so intense and I can tell that Edward was holding back on me. He attacked my neck and I moaned. Edward stopped kissing my neck and took my hand for me to follow him. He walked further into the woods and found a little bench and pulled me to it. He pulled me to it and sat down. I straddled Edward and wrapped my arms around his neck.
He stared into my eyes and removed a piece of hair from my face and whispered how beautiful I am. I smiled and leaned in to kiss him. This time there was urgency in his kiss. He wanted me and I felt it. Edward slowly unbuttoned my shirt while he was kissing my jaw line and went up to my ear.
"Somebody will see us." I said feeling shy but not wanting him to stop.
He unbuttoned the last button and opened up the shirt to see that I wasn't wearing a bra.
"Naughty girl." He growled in my ear. I felt his cock twitch through our jeans.
He cupped on of my breast and pinched my nipples. I threw my head back and moaned in my throat. I loved they way he touches me. Edward kissed the base of my throat and kissed down till he reached what he wanted. He took my other breast into his mouth and sucked my areola and my nipple. The sensation that was crawling in my belly was wonderful. He lifted his head and kissed me again. I reached down and unbuckle and unzip his jeans. I reached inside to touch his swollen member. He gritted his teeth and bit my neck. I gasped from the pleasure and the pain.
Edward unbutton my jeans and I lifted to help him take is off.
"I never did this before. I don't know what to do." I whispered in his ear.
"Just do what you feel like doing." I looked at him and smiled.
I slid off of him and without breaking the eye contact I got on my knees and released the beast from its cage. I kissed the head and his leg jumped. I smiled to myself and I opened my mouth and slipped the head in I sucked and tasted his pre-cum. I licked his head and lowered my mouth further down his cock and Edward grabbed my hair. He was moaning and thrusting in mouth. I lowered further down till he was all in my mouth hitting my throat. I gagged a little and went back up to his head.
"What the … Shit Bella." He said and kissed his head again. Edward pushed me to the floor saying he couldn't wait anymore. He lifted my leg and ripped my panty off with no effort at all. He wrapped my legs around his waist and took his cock and put it to my wet entrance. He slowly slipped it in and I groaned from the pain.
"I know it hurts baby."
He slowly thrust until her was all in me. He laid there so I can get used to him inside and moved his hips to see if I would respond and I did. He kissed me while thrusting slowly inside me. I lowered my head and started kissing his neck and that made him speed a little more. He pushed my legs back and opened my legs wider and he thrust I jumped at that new sensation and his thrust were going deeper and deeper in me. He thrust again to that spot and I screamed. I touched my belly and I can feel the little bump bump of his thrust.
"You feel me baby? Huh? You feel me?"
He was thrusting faster and deeper. I kept saying yes yes yes. Then I felt it coming closer and harder in my stomach.
"Shit Bella I am about to…." He said and I felt him filling me. And I followed suit. Our lips were together and we were breathing heavily filling air for each other. I could feel his heartbeat on my chest and inside me. He was slipping out and I chuckled.
"Oh my god. Oh my god." He said breathless.
He kissed my neck to my breast down to my belly and rested his head on my belly while he was still catching his breath. That's when it hit me. No condom.
"Ummm Edward."
"Hmmm." He said while kissing my belly again.
"That was amazing." He said traveling back up to my lips.
"Edward." I said against his lips.
"Wait give me a minute. I want to go for round 2." He chuckled and kissed me again.
I can feel I was getting aroused again but I had to stop him. Before I could stop him he was inside me again.
"Look how you destroyed my underwear." I said holding the black cloth that was my underwear. Edward lifted his head to look and started laughing while pushing his hair back.
"That's not funny. It was one of my favorite." I said while zipping up my pants. I was mumbling under my breath calling him an animal.
"I will buy you another one." He said while slipping into his shoes.
"You can't buy me another one. That was one of my favorite pairs. And not it's gone."
I pouted my lip and stuffed the ripped undie in my pocket. Edward walked over to me and kissed my pouty lips. He wrapped his arms around my waist and my arms around his neck.
"I'm sorry Bella I don't know what came over me."
He kissed my neck and I lifted my arm to glance at my watch and noticed it was almost 3 o'clock.
"Oh shoot we have to go."
We gathered our stuff and went to Edward's bike to go back to my house.
The ride there was a short one and I noticed my mother's car outside. I looked around for James and Tori's car but it was gone. I also noticed that Emmett's truck was also gone. I told Edward to go and I will talk to him later. I walked up to the porch and I could hear yelling coming from inside. I gulped and opened the door.
"Rosalie come back here."
I walk to the kitchen and I see Rosalie leaving our mother in the kitchen upset.
"Hi mom."
I went to give her a hug and she accepted it.
"What happened?" I said while pulling back from the hug.
"Your sister is stubborn and she doesn't listen."
I put my hand on my mother's shoulder and told her I will talk to her. I left the kitchen and walked to my sister's room. I knocked and waited for her to tell me to come in. I opened the door and Rosalie was throwing clothes in a bag and my doodle bug was on the bed playing with her toy.
"What happened Rosie?"
Rosalie threw the clothes on the bed and sat on the bed and pinched the bridge of her nose.
"That woman is pure evil."
I sat next to her on the bed and Jas crawled over to me. I lifted her in my arms and nuzzled her neck and she giggled. Rosalie turned to look at me and I can see the anger in her eyes.
"Look Bells. I am leaving."
My heart fell when I heard this. But I knew she was going so I prepared myself for the blow but I didn't prepare for what she was going to say next.
"And I want you to come with me." She continued.
"I-I c-can't go." I said stuttering.
"And why not?" She said as her eyebrows twitched.
"I need to finish school and I just can't pick up and go."
"Well when school is over. You come and join me in Seattle."
I've always wanted to live with my sister but I didn't want to go with her now. She can see my hesitation.
"Look Bells. I know you have Edward but I don't want you to live with this woman anymore. I don't want her to hurt you anymore. And I can't stay here with her here." She pointed to the door.
"Please don't do this Rosalie." I whispered as I put Jasmine on the bed to play with her toy.
She hugged me.
"I should have done this a long time ago. I should have taken you with me when I left. It kills me that she's been hurting you for something that is absolutely not your fault."
I pushed her off of me and rose off the bed and started pacing the room. In my head I knew what happened to my father wasn't my fault but in my heart I felt it was. I felt I could have done more for him. I was in the room living room playing on the piano with my dad. That was something we loved to do together. I noticed he stopped playing and he grabbed his arm and told me to call 911. As I got up to call he had fallen off the bench and hit his head pretty hard. I yelled for my dad. I dropped the phone while the operator was still on the line and I tried cpr we learned in school. I was crying while I was pumping his chest and blowing air for him. I did this till the paramedics came and they had to fight me off my dad. My dad died on the way to the hospital.
When my mom came home from the hospital she looked at me with such disgust and she slapped me. I ran to my room and Rosalie came to comfort me. We both cried for the man we lost. He was my life my best friend. I didn't know how to survive without him. And being blamed for his death everyday didn't help the matter.
"Bella I can not stay in Seattle and think you will be safe."
"Who will watch over her? Who is going to help her?"
I stopped pacing and looked at Rosalie.
"Who is going to watch you when she beats you again?"
I kneeled in front of my sister that I love above all things.
"I will be alright. Go to your life in Seattle. I will be fine."
She pulled me into her arms and I can feel her shaking. She was afraid for me.
Rosalie left again. I stayed by the window wishing she would have changed her mind and came back. But I knew she wouldn't. We had to go back to the old patterns of seeing each other. And that is for her to sneak back here to see me. And I didn't want that anymore. I want to live. I want to be able to enjoy my music and not sneak to sing. I want my mother to be proud of me. I wanted my sister and my mother by my side. They were the only family I have. I have to talk to my mother. As I was thinking that Renee was coming down the stairs. I had a feeling that I shouldn't say anything yet but I pushed it out.
I turned to see Renee walking down the stairs. I smiled at her while she was walking to me and I turned my attention back out the window. As I put my head in my palm and watched a blue bird flying by. Renee dropped something on my lap. As I picked it up, it was my ripped underwear. A lump was in my throat and I tried to swallow it down. But it was lodge there. I turned to look at Renee and dropped my head to look at my hands wringing the ripped undie.
"I can explain." I said in a whisper.
EPOV
I had to admit it felt good having dinner with my family. Now Esme wanted us to sit with her to watch a chick flick. But of course when she gives us the dimples we can't say no. But today I didn't care I was in love with a beautiful creature and she loves me back. I've never felt this way towards anybody. I never even felt comfortable enough to let anybody close enough to know who I am but Bella was different. She never judged me for what was allowed to happen to me. I clenched my jaw when I thought about her.
Bella love me. She didn't care I was used and thrown away like garbage. She saw me. She felt me. The only that got me. She knew I was troubled and she dealt with me. I smiled as I thought about our day in the woods. I've never experienced this type of connection with anybody. Granted I am only 18 but I felt Bella Swan in my soul.
My thoughts were interrupted by somebody ringing the front door. I got up off the couch saying behind me to my parents that I got it. I ran to the door and I opened it my smile fell. Angela was standing there with a hurt look on her face. I stepped closer to her.
"What is it?"
Angela cleared her throat and I clenched my jaw. I closed my fist till my knuckles were white.
"Angela! What happened?"
"Bella is in the car. She…"
I pushed Angela out of the way and ran to her car. I wrenched open the door and that made Bella jump. When I saw her face I fell to my knees. Bella had a bruise on the side of her face. Her top lip is split and swollen. Her eyes were full of fear. She looked at me and started to tremble and she started to cry. I wrapped my arms around her to calm her down. I was fuming. I know who did this.
"She wanted me to bring her here." Angela said behind me.
"What happened?" I growled in Bella's hair but Angela answered.
"She hasn't told me what happened. She called me and she was crying. She wanted me to get her. So I went to pick her up. When I got there she was in her room on the floor and her mother was acting like Mary freaking poppins. When she was leaving the house she waved us off that hag."
I clenched my jaw even tighter and I lifted her out of the car. She whimpered by the movement. I reached inside the house with Angela following behind me and I called out for Carlisle. My parents came running and we put her in the living room. As I laid her down on the white couch she started crying harder. I knew she was embarrassed and it was probably killing her for people to see her like this. Esme was trying to calm Bella down.
"Where does it hurt?" Carlisle said and she showed him. When Carlisle lifted up Bella's' ripped pajama top, Esme gasped and clutched her throat. Bella's chest and back was covered in bruises. I walked out of the room and I punched a hole in the wall and walked out of the house with my bloody knuckle.
3 cigarettes and a 10 minute talking to about not going over to Bella's house, I was calm enough to go back inside the house. When I reached my parents I apologized to them about the hole I put on the wall. They forgave me. Carlisle told me she doesn't have any broken ribs but she's going to be bruised and quite sore. And her lip and cheek will be bruised but she'll be ok. Ok? Are you kidding me? Her mother just got out of the looney bin and she's already pounding on her daughter. I asked them if I can speak to Bella and my parents left and Angela said she wanted to know what happened too.
"Bella do you want me to call Rosalie?"
She sat up and I can see her wincing from the pain.
"No don't call her please. She will be upset with me."
I sat on the couch with her and Angela moved closer to her.
"She has every right to be mad."
She put her hand on my arm to stop me.
"If you call her than she's going to take me to Seattle with her. And I am not going."
"But Bells maybe you should." Angela said and I glared at her.
I pushed back her hair and touched her swollen cheek and whispered to her.
"What happened?"
She gulped and she asked Angela to get some water for her. I know she didn't want Angela to hear this. When Angela left she started.
"Renee came into the living room where I was sitting and she dropped my ripped undie. So I told her I could explain. Then it hit me. She went through my things. And before she came down I was thinking about how I didn't want to live the same before Renee left. So when I stood up from the couch and I got really mad. And I said to her How dare you go through my things. And next thing I knew she slapped me. I fell on the couch."
Just then Angela came back in the room with the glass of water and handed it to Bella.
She thanked her and continued.
"I was sitting on the couch holding my cheek and I told her that I was tired of being her punching bag. I got up to walk to my room. And she was screaming at me. I was so pissed that I wasn't listening to her."
Bella's bottom lip started quivering.
"As I was walking to my room she grabbed my hair and she was screaming in my face and she slapped me again. I tried to fight her off and she kicked me and I was on the ground. She said something about me being to grown and she started kicking me. When she was done I crawled into my room and I called Angela to come and get me."
As I looked up at Angela, she was crying with Bella.
"You aren't going home." I said to her sternly.
"Yeah you aren't going home. You are staying with me. I spoke to my mom and she said you can stay at in the guestroom."
Bella started crying harder.
"I can't do that. I have to go back."
"Oh no you don't" I said angrily. "She beat you up pretty bad. You can't go back."
"I'm sorry Bells I agree with Edward. You shouldn't go back. You sleep at my house tonight and tomorrow we will go back to the house to get your stuff."
"We have school tomorrow." She said trying to adjust herself on the couch.
"Bella stop it ok. We aren't going to school tomorrow and we are going to get your things from your mother's." I screamed at her. I know she didn't need that right now but I was tired of her making excuses of what's best for her.
"You have to meet with Mrs. Sanchez tomorrow." She reminded me and I groaned.
I told Bella that I was going to meet with her but I was coming to Angela's house. As Bella and Angela started talking I excused myself. I went to Bella's' bag and pulled out her cell phone. I checked her contact list and found the number I was looking for. I pressed talk and the phone rang.
I waited for the person to pick up and I said, "We need to talk."
I hope you guys like this chapter. Please read my other two fan fics The one I yearn and Next door neighbor. You will like them. Thanks again.