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BPOV

"Bella wake up."

"Hmm."

"Bella."

I feel somebody shaking me awake. I open my eyes and see Jared standing over me.

I sit up with a jolt.

"What happened?"

Jared starts to laugh.

"I just wanted to tell you that I am leaving."

Then it hits me. He's leaving. My eyes start to tear. I cry not because he's leaving but what might happen when he's gone. Last night I couldn't sleep all I kept thinking about was Edward. They way he looked at me when I pushed away from Jared's embrace.

"Bella honey."

I look at him and a tear rolls down my cheek.

"Don't cry. I'll see you before your tour."

He said smiling.

"Don't go."

Jared leaned close to me and kisses me. He stares into my teary eyes and kisses me again.

"I'm going to miss you."

He said against my lips and kissed me again. Jared leaned his forehead against mine and I just kept pleading for him not to go in my head hoping he would feel what I am sending to him. I just couldn't shake the feeling if he left everything will change.

He kisses my forehead.

"I got to go."

He said while placing my hair behind my ears.

"Call me when you get there."

"I will." He winks and gets up and left.

I just sat there in the dark wishing him to come back.

"Hello."

I said while walking into Rosalie's house. As I open the door I smell bacon and coffee brewing.

"We are in the kitchen." Rosalie screams.

I follow the sounds and the smells coming from the kitchen. I walk in and Rosalie is cooking while everybody is sitting at the table.

I was shocked to see Renee was there. She didn't tell me that she was coming when I spoke to her this morning. She was feeding my three year old little brother PJ (Phil Jr). He looked up at me with eggs in his mouth and he yelled my name.

My leaving caused Renee to get her act together. She got help and a job. Renee walked into a coffee shop and met a baseball player name Phil. They were attached at the hip. Six months later they were married. Phil was good for mom. He took care of her. Phil was there talking Renee out her crazy ideas. He even pushed for us to come together. He used his being away all the time and not wanting Renee to be alone for us to work on our relationship. We feed into it. A year after they got married she got pregnant with PJ.

I smiled at him and muffled his hair. I walked over to Jaz and kissed her.

Rosalie put a plate of food for me and I hugged her and sat down. Emmett was stuffing is face as usual.

"Do you want coffee or tea?"

"Tea please."

Rosalie smiles at me and gets my tea.

"So Jared left today?" Renee said while I put a fork full of eggs in my mouth.

"Yeah he left."

"Are you ok?" Rosalie said as she put the tea in front of me.

"As good as I can be."

Renee took my hand and I stiffened a little. I can see the pain that cross her face. She let go of my hand and clears her throat.

"Don't worry. It's still hard when Phil leaves."

"Yeah I thought it would be easier but it's just as hard as the first time he left."

I hear somebody walk into the kitchen and I flick my eyes to the door and Edward is standing there in his sweats pants and nothing else. I swallow as I take in his sexy body. Edward sure grew up. He smiles and I just melt.

"Good morning everybody." Edward said while he walks into the kitchen.

Everybody greeting him back and he took the seat next to me. I could feel the heat radiating off his body and I had to fix myself on my seat. I can smell him. I can smell the face soap he uses and I just wanted to jump on his lap and kiss him hard.

"Bella."

I shake and I look up at Edward.

"Can you pass me the jelly?" He said.

"Oh yeah. Sorry." I said while chuckling nervously.

I hand him the jelly and I look at Rosalie who is staring at me.

I mouth what to her. I take another fork full of eggs and suddenly I am not hungry anymore. PJ starts to throw his eggs on the table.

"Well this big guy isn't hungry anymore." Renee said while taking him out of the high chair. Pj ran to the living room with Renee following him and I heard the Dora song come on. I smile because I remember whenever PJ comes to my house all we watch is Dora. He doesn't want to watch anything else.

I flick my eyes back and Edward is staring at me and he quickly drops his eyes. And I see him blush a little. I smile and take a sip of my tea.

After I eat my breakfast I go out to have a smoke. As I open the door Rosalie pushes me outside.

"Owww. What are you doing?"

"That's what I should be asking you. What are you doing?"

"What do you mean?" I said lighting up my cigarette.

"Oh don't be coy with me. I see you and Edward stealing glances at each other. Again what are you doing?"

I dropped my head.

"I don't know what's wrong with me. I have been thinking about Edward all night. I am lying next to my boyfriend. My sexy boyfriend I might add, and instead of enjoying my last night with him I am thinking and dreaming of Edward. And I am begging him not to leave. Not because I want him to stay but because I am afraid I will do with him around."

Rosalie laughs.

'This isn't funny. You don't have to go through this. You are friends with your ex."

Rosalie stops laughing.

"I don't know what it is about Edward that makes you crazy when he comes to visit."

I shrug my shoulders but I knew what the answer was. I love Edward. Always has always will. There is a part of my heart that is always for Edwards.

"Bella you need to know if you want to be with Edward again. I can see in his face that he wants you badly. But you guys need to talk about this. Because you have Jared and he has Rebecca. Oh speaking of Rebecca."

Rosalie looks around to see if the coast is clear.

"Last night, Rebecca and Edward got into an argument."

"What? What did they say?'

"I don't know they were speaking French but they were pretty loud. Then all of a sudden I heard the front door slam and I wake up this morning and she's not here."

I didn't realize she wasn't in the kitchen with everybody else. Maybe I just ignore the French tart.

"Wow. But he doesn't seem worried." I said taking a pull of my cigarette.

"That's what I told Emmett. But you know Emmett."

"Mind your business." She said imitating him and I started to laugh.

The door opened and Edward stepped out. He has put on a grey hoody sweater.

"We will talk about this later." She said to me and smiles at Edward and walks in the house.

Edward followed her with his eyes with his cigarette between his teeth. He looks so sexy like that. He moves his gaze back to me and shakes his head.

"Your sister is crazy."

"Yeah. Tell me about it."

He lit his cigarette and I wished I was that cigarette between his lips.

"I see your boyfriend is gone."

"I see your wife isn't here." I said sarcastically.

He laughs.

"Yeah she went to her cousin's house."

"I didn't know she has family here."

He takes a pull and blew out the smoke.

"You didn't ask."

"I didn't care to know." I mumble.

"So are you planning on writing another book?"

"It is in the works."

"Are you ok?"

"I am fine. Why?"

I tilted my head.

"You are just being very short with me."

"Am I?"

"Ummm yeah."

"I am just tired. I couldn't sleep. And I hate waking up so early."

I smile.

"Yeah I remember. I had to drag you out of bed. You would sleep the whole day away."

"I love the night."

"Yeah. You do."

I took another drag of my cigarette and I look at him. I can feel the electricity between us. It wanted to me to reach out and touch his face and kiss him. My body wants to feel his touch. I close my eyes and open them back up to see him taking a drag from his cigarette. I wanted to know what this was. I have to know if I should be with Edward or with Jared. I care for Jared but am I being too safe with him because I know he would never hurt me. We have to talk about this.

"Look Edward…"

I got cut off as I see Carlisle's car pull up the drive way. I smile as I see Alice step out with baby Cody in her arms. I turn to look at Edward and shake my head.

EPOV

The afternoon went by in a flash. The girls were all in the kitchen going over the wedding plans. And kept kicking us out whenever we tried to put our two cents. So they guys decided to play basketball. After the game which I have to say I wiped the floor with Emmett and jasper. And Emmett started acting like a big baby. He hates to lose. We decided to go back to our parent's house and hang out while the girls had their little sleepover.

I sit around the house watching all these football movies with Emmett. And this isn't where I want to be. I want to talk to Bella. We haven't really gotten a chance to catch up. I want to be near her. I want to touch her, to kiss her. I want her.

I look at my watch and realize it is now 9:00 so I get up from the couch and grab my coat and jump into my car. I drive around until I am in front of Rosalie's house.

I get out of the car and they are blasting music. I can see them dancing and singing around the living room. I lean against my car and light up a cigarette and watch them. Bella is dancing and everything goes in slow motion. Her hair is just flying everywhere and her soft angelic face is so beautiful. Way her body is moving to the music. I see her stumble when the song is over.

Is she drunk?

I see her walking to the door and it opens. As she steps out I see her take swig from a bottle. And she swallows she sees me.

"You."

She said and stumbles down the stairs. I rushed over to catch her and she pushes me away.

"Don't touch me."

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me. What do you want from me?"

I don't understand what is going on.

"I don't want anything from you." I said scrunching up my eyebrows.

"Why are you torturing me? I am happy with Jared and you are with Rebecca. You are married. You are married!"

"I know you are with Jared." I said while clenching my jaw.

"I can't be your yo yo anymore. You can't push me away when you need too then you pull me back. I can't. I need stability and that you can't give me."

She poked me against my chest.

"You left me. You hurt me. What did the note say?'

She looked up to remember.

"Oh yeah. Dearest Bella. It pains me to do this to you but I have to leave this way. I don't know if I would be to get on that plane if you are with me. I love you so much."

"I did that for us. I got on that plane for us."

"For us? You did it for yourself. I wouldn't have stopped you from going. I would have let you know that I have your back. You didn't even give me a chance to say goodbye to you."

"I would have stopped myself. I didn't want to leave you. I wanted to stay with you but you had your dream. You were about to start your dream and what would I offer you. I wanted to be something that you can be proud of. Not some messed up kid hanging on to you coat tail. I had to do this. I wanted to do this. Can you understand that?"

Bella was about to cry and she shook her head.

"No I am not going to cry. I will not cry."

"Bella."

She cut me off.

"No I don't want to hear it."

"Bella I love you."

She stopped moving and looks at me and slaps me.

I held my cheek.

"You are married."

"I don't love her. I love you."

"No. No."

She said while shaking her head and her hands.

"Don't tell me you love. Don't tell me that."

I grabbed her and she pulled her against my chest.

"I never loved anyone more than I love you."

She tried to push away from me then just gave up and started to sob against my chest.

"You hurt me. You hurt me."

She kept repeating over and over.

"I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I thought I was doing something good for us."

I lifted Bella's head and kiss her. Her lips fitted against mine. It's like it never parted mine. I felt so good against mine. Just as I was getting into it she pulled back.

"Whoa I can't. I can't do this."

She put her hand against her lips and tried to calm her breathing.

Bella crashed against me and kiss me with so much passion. I can taste the alcohol on her tongue when she pushed it inside my mouth. I moan against her lips. She wraps her arms around my neck and starts to trail her thumb on my neck. I shiver under that little touch of her thumb.

"Take me home." She whispers against my lips.

BPOV

The bright sun woke me up and my head felt like it was being held down by bricks. MY tongue felt like it was coated with fuzz. And my stomach feels like if I move all its contents will come out. I feel somebody moving and I quickly look to my left and I see Edward sleeping on his stomach with the cover to his waist.

I lift up the sheet and I see we are both naked.

Oh my God. What have I done?

Edward starts to stir and he turns his head and he opens his eyes and smile. He turns towards me and pulls me closer and kisses me.

"Good morning."

I couldn't say anything. I can't believe what I did. I can't believe it.

I hope you guys like this chapter. Please read my other stories The One I Yearn, Next Door Neighbor and my new story One Afternoon Alone. Thanks everybody till next time