BPOV

I can't believe what happened. I can't believe I just woke up in bed with Edward. How could I do that to Jared? I turned my head to look at Edward and he opens his eyes. He smiles and comes closer to me.

"Good morning."

He tries to kiss me but I move away from like he is contagious.

"Oh my God." I said while pulling the sheet closer to my chin.

"What have I done? What have I done?" I said while lifting my hand to cover my face.

"Bella."

Edward tried to take my hand but I shake his hand off.

"I can't believe this. I really can't believe this. My bed isn't even cold yet and there you are."

The room started spinning and I feel like I am about to throw up. I take deep breaths to calm myself down. Edward starts to laugh and I glare at him.

"It's not funny. I don't find this funny one little bit."

I sit up and place my head on my knee. I feel a wave of nausea hit again but I fight against is.

"Calm down Bella." Edward said laughing.

"How can I calm down? I just slept with a married man. I just cheated on my boyfriend and I am not a cheater. You know I am not a cheater. Oh God."

"Bella. Calm down. Nothing happened."

I lift my head to look at him. The room starts to spin again.

"I mean things happened but that didn't happen."

"What are you talking about? We are both naked. Hello." I said lifting up the sheet to show him.

"Yeah." He said clearing his throat.

"We were into it. And you were said you were about to get sick. And I got up and got your garbage and you threw up."

Edward pointed to my wicker garbage basket.

"I took the plastic bag and put it in the kitchen garbage. I put a new bag just in case you get sick again."

Edward started laughing again.

"But why are we still naked?"

"Hey I am a man. I wanted to feel you. I forgot how good you feel." He said while putting my messed up hair behind my ear.

I sucked my teeth at him.

"But why did you stay?"

He stops laughing and his green eyes turn soft.

"You asked me to stay."

I blushed and he rubs my cheek. My stomach rolled again and I knew I wasn't going to win this war. I pushed off the bed and ran to the bathroom. I just made it to the bathroom and emptied my stomach. I sat against my cool tile and closed my eyes.

He stayed even thought I asked him too. I tried to remember the events of last night but my head just kept pounding louder and louder.

"Bella are you ok?" Edward said while knocking softly on the door.

"Yeah." I said hoarsely.

My throat hurt and I tried to clear it but it didn't help. I got off the floor and I opened the bathroom door. At this point I didn't care I standing stark naked in front of him. He stood on the other side of the door with a concern look on his face and he was holding out my robe. I took it and smiled weakly while putting it on.

"How are you feeling?"

"I feel like….. I don't ever want to touch alcohol ever again."

Just the thought of alcohol made my stomach roll again. I turned around and threw up the rest of the contents in my stomach. Edward started to rub my back. I got up and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand.

Edward handed me my tooth brush.

"Brush your teeth. Get into bed and I will make you my Edward special."

Before I could argue he was gone.

After I brushed my teeth I went into my room and put on my pj. I walked around the room and close the shade to try to make it as dark as possible. It helped a little.

I crawl into bed with a groan. Edward walks into the room and sits by me on the bed.

"Drink this." He said while putting 2 white pills in my hand.

"What's this?"

"This is aspirin. It will help with the headache."

"Drink the aspirin with this drink. Take this"

He handed me a glass with red liquid. I put it to my nose and it smells bad.

I made a face and he laughed.

"I know it smells but believe me it will help."

I put the two pills in my mouth and I took a big gulp of the foul drink.

"Yuuuucccck! This is so nasty."

Edward laughs again. And it hit me. I haven't heard him laugh like this in a long time.

"I am sooo glad I am here to amuse you." I said after I took another sip of the drink.

"What is this?" I said while trying to hand it back to him but he refuse to take it.

"This is a concoction I learned in Paris. While living there I would kind of go crazy for wine. And I would wake up with very bad hangovers. So my friend Laurent made that for me and I would feel better in a couple of hours. But you have to drink the whole thing."

I gag as I put it to my lips and smell the drink.

"I am going to lose it if I smell it or taste it."

"This will stay in your stomach, it's like tar."

I made a face before downing the whole drink.

"Now get in bed. Lie down and try to sleep. Let it do its magic."

He took the glass from me. And for some reason I didn't want him to leave. I wasn't use to this Edward that was taking care of me. Before I can stop myself I grab his arm as he was about to turn to walk away.

He looks at my hand and at me.

"Are you leaving?"

"Do you want me to go?"

I bite my bottom lip and I really didn't want him to go.

"No" I whisper.

"Then I am staying." He said with a big grin.

He turns and walks out of the room. I lay down and as soon as my head hit the pillow darkness took me.

~~x~~

"No. Please don't."

I feel the bed shaking. My eyes fly open and I notice that the room is dark. I blink a couple of times to adjust my eyes. I look at the clock and it reads 9:50 pm. Damn I slept the day away.

"No!"

I turn my head behind my shoulder to see Edward shaking. I turn to face him.

"Edward. Wake up."

Edward was shaking his head and mumbling.

"Edward. Wake up." I started shaking him.

Edward starts fighting against me with his arms. I tried to hold them down and shake him.

"Wake up!"

His eyes flew open and he looked around with a scared look on his face.

"It's ok. It's ok babe. It was just a dream."

Edward's eyes starts to look around the room. I remember this all to well. I remember the nights when the dreams used to take him to a place that scared him. I take off my shirt to wipe his damp face.

"It's ok. It's me. It was just a dream."

Edwards's eyes fix on me and he starts to tremble. I pull him close to me and I stroke his hair.

"I am here. Nothing can hurt you here."

Edward did something that shocks me. When he used to have these he would run out faster than a bullet. Instead he pulled me closer to him. I stroke his hair till we both fall asleep.

EPOV

I reach over for Bella but I feel the side of the bed cold. I open my eyes and I hear music playing. Last night was crazy. I was back in the room. The room I hated as a kid. The room where my mother sold me for her fixes. I rolled my shoulder and I wince from the pain.

My body always hurt after the dreams because I always tense up ready to fight. But last night I open my eyes and Bella was above me. I looked around the room to see if it was dream but she was right above me. I can see the fear in here eyes. It was always there when I had these dreams. She pulled me close to her and I could hear here heartbeat.

Bella is the only female that I felt comfortable sleeping with. I knew she would never judge me and I knew deep down we both are damaged. She understood. And I loved her for that. But instead of running away like I usually do I just pulled her closer to me and I let go. I didn't want to hide the pain anymore. And she just took it and calmed me down.

I pulled my tee shirt to me and I could smell her on me. I turned and put my face into her pillow and just breathed my angle in. I rolled over to my back with a sigh and I got off the bed. I opened the bedroom door and I smell her cooking. I smile and I walk to the kitchen. As I walk closer I see her whipping eggs and singing along with the radio. I didn't know who is singing but I just leaned against the wall and watch her dancing and singing.

I would love this. Going to bed with her and waking up with her. That would be perfection for me. I would walk up behind her while she is whipping the eggs put my arms around her and tell her I love her. I would take the bowl from her and lift her up on the kitchen counter and make love to her. Then I would take her in every inch of this condo.

"Oh you scared me." Bella said while placing her hand to her chest.

"I didn't want to interrupt you." I said smiling.

"Make a noise. Let somebody know you are standing there. Jesus." She said putting the bowl down on the counter.

"Sit I will get coffee for you. Breakfast is almost ready." She said while pointing to the kitchen table.

As I walk to her wood table she had everything ready for us. I sit down and she put the mug of coffee in front of me.

"I made eggs, bacon and pancakes. I hope you are hungry."

"Starved." I said as I took a sip of coffee.

"Ummm this is good."

She turns to look over here shoulder and thanked me. I watched her as she walked back into the kitchen to get the breakfast together. She didn't push. She didn't fall over me to see if I was ok. She knew me. She knew that I needed space and she always gave it to me. At that instance I envy Jared. When he's in town this is life. And I want this life. I want it with her.

"Can I ask you something?"

I look up into there brown eyes as she put the plates down.

"Shoot." I smile and take a sip of the coffee.

"Where is your wife?"

I look at her and put the mug down.

"I mean we spent the night together and she hasn't called your phone looking for you."

I have to tell her.

"I mean if my husband didn't come home I would go ballistic."

"She isn't."

I picked up the fork and stuffed a fork full of eggs in my mouth. I can see the irritation building in her eyes.

"I know you guys had a fight."

"I know you know we had a fight. But she's not here."

"What do you mean she's not here? Where did she go?"

I shrug my shoulder and smile at her reaction.

"Aren't you're a bit concerned where she is?'

I shook my head as I took a bite of the bacon.

"Edward what is going on?"

Put the fork down and huff.

"We got into argument because I couldn't give her what she wanted."

"And that would be?"

"I don't love her. I can't love her."

Bella widen her brown eyes.

"But you married her."

"Yes I married her but I didn't marry her because I love her."

"Then why?' She said in a whisper.

"She knew I was coming to the states and I am not going back to Paris."

"Your not?"

I shook my head.

"She wanted to come to the states to further here modeling career here. So she asked me to help her out with citizenship and I did."

Bella sat back in here chair in disbelief of what I told her.

"But my parents don't know about this."

"But you introduced her to your parents."

"We had to keep up pretenses Bella. Just in case they come and ask questions my family can say. Yes we meet his wife Rebecca. She was lovely girl and they are in love. But I couldn't love her the way she feels she should be loved. She said it's either we work it out and let love grow or she leaves. When I didn't say anything she left. And I haven't heard from her."

I let it all out. Now she knows the truth. I couldn't love anybody but her.

"Are you crazy?" She said in whisper.

Her eyes move to mine.

"Are you crazy?" She repeats louder.

"Excuse me?" I said narrowing my eyes.

"How can you marry her? What if you wanted to get married again?"

"Are you asking?" I said with a smile.

She started to stutter.

"No Umm. I was just asking."

I sigh and reach for her hands lying on the table.

"Look Bella. Rebecca and I had a sexual relationship."

I could feel her hands clench and I smile. She was just as jealous as I.

"She wanted me to help her and I did. We decided that 6 months with us living in the states we will file for divorces. She will still be a citizen and it will be a year we were married."

"Of all the craziest things you've done I think this is the craziest."

I start to laugh.

"Well you would know."

Bella just stare into my eyes. And I could see her cheeks getting red. I reach over and touch her cheeks.

"You know I always love to see that."

She took my hand and lowered her eyes.

"Do you have plans today?"

She looks up into my eyes again and I just melt in her gaze. I could feel the goose bumps on my arms.

"Now I do."

She smile and got up and put her untouched breakfast on the counter.

"Terry called me today and we are meeting up to rehearse. And I want you to come with me. But I have to show you something."

She ran into her room to get ready. I sat back and smile inside. I pick up the fork and finished my cold breakfast. I didn't care. I am happy to be with my angel.

~~x~~

"Edward I want you to keep your eyes close."

Bella had her hands over my eyes as we stepped out of the elevator leading to her garage.

"If you peek it will ruin everything."

"I am not peeking. I promise." I said while laughing.

Bella pulls me in the direction she wants to go and I just put my faith that she won't push me over the ledge. I laugh at the thought.

"We are almost there no peeking."

I told her again I wasn't peeking. She giggles and stops me from walking.

"Are you ready?"

"Ready."

"Ok you can open them." She said as she removes her hand over my eyes.

My jaw drops from what I see. I look at her and walk towards my bike I had when we were in high school. I touch the black paint and the handle bars. I look up at Bella who is biting her bottom lip.

"You kept my bike?"

"Yeah. I also got it fixed and I ride it as often as I can."

I looked up at her and narrowed my eyes.

"You ride?"

She shrugs her shoulders.

"Yeah I ride. I missed when we used to go riding together. And when you left, I used to go to your house and you bike just looked so sad sitting there. So I took it, with Esme's permission of course and I just started riding. Jake taught me but I used to ride everywhere."

I went back to admiring my bike that I loved so much.

"Why did you do this?" I said while trailing my fingers along the seat.

"It's yours. And I wanted something from you."

I look back at her and her cheeks grew red and I walked over to her.

"Now the only question is are you driving or am I?"

She held out the keys and bit her bottom lip again.

"Don't do that." I said while pulling her lip out.

I cup her face and lean down to kiss her. Her breath comes in fast as our lips touch. I pull her to me and wrap my arms around her waist. Her lips are so soft against mine. It wasn't the same kiss we shared the night before when she was drunk. This kiss is more gentle and passionate.

I pull back and look into her cloudy eyes. I lean my forehead against hers.

"Thank you. You don't know how much this means to me."

"Your welcome." She said softly.

I kiss her again and she sighs against my lips. I had to stop this or I would have her right on this spot.

"Thanks for taking care of my bike but I will be driving thank you." I said while snatching the keys.

She gasps and I hand her the extra helmet and climb on my bike. I turn the ignition and feel the bike rumbling underneath me. God I miss this. Bella climbs behind me and I pull off his her holding me tightly. I smile and speed out of the garage.

As we pull up to the Hipster Lounge, Bella jumps off the bike laughing.

"That was great."

I pull her to me and take off here helmet. I love to see Bella smiling like this. She clears her throat and steps back while putting her hair in a messy bun. Show off her neck. I got off the bike and took off my helmet.

"This is Jacob's lounge." She said pointing to the sign.

"We come here to practice from time to time."

She takes my hand and leads to me to the door. I open it for her and she thanks me and walks inside.

"I am here." She yells as we walk in.

"It's about time." I recognize the voice.

"Edward Cullen. It's been a while."

Angela rushes to me and hugs me.

"I haven't seen you a while now."

"Look at you." I pull her back to look at her.

Angela looks so different than in high school. The glasses actually brings out her beauty more.

"And why are you late?" She turned her attention to Bella.

"I am here now."

"Whatever."

Angela looks at me and wink. I shake my head and follow them inside. Bella introduces me to her band.

"I remember you." Terry said while running her finger up and down my arm.

"I remember you too. It is nice to meet you again." I said while taking her hand to shake it. But she would let it go.

"You have a boyfriend." Bella said taking her hand from mine.

Terry laughs.

"Sit at any table and I will have the waitress bring you something."

She grabbed Terry's arm while she is looking at me like a cat in heat. She whispered something to Bella that made her shake her head. They went up the stage.

"Ok guys I want to work on the song we've been working on."

The band started to play Say When by The Fray (Song is on my profile.).

Bella starts to sing the song and every time she opens her mouth it sounds like a different person. Her eyes are closed and she is feeling the music. I am stuck in my seat just watching her and she opens her eyes and looks into my eyes. Everything disappears and it's just us. Staring into each other's eyes and the colors are just floating around her. Just as I am about to float up she closes are eyes and I get up to walk to the bar.

"Can I get a corona?"

The red head waitress nods at me and get the beer.

"Are you ok?"

I turn to see Angela standing by me.

"I'm fine." I said while I turn to reach for my beer.

"Alright guys that was good. Let's try the next song."

Bella started to sing the next song. Bella turns and reaches for her guitar. And she starts to sing Alexandra Bruke Hallelujah (the song is in my profile) and I just melted by her voice.

"I love this song." Angela says then smiles.

I put the neck of the bottle to my mouth and I take a big swig. I start to feel the chills run up my spine.

"I love her voice." I mumble to Angela.

"I can see it in your eye. You still love her?"

"I still love her."

"Oh Boy. That's a problem."

"A very big problem." I sigh.

I gulp the rest of the beer and put it on a table.

"A very big problem." I repeated while nodding my head.

"It won't be if you let it."

I turn to look at Angela.

"I think she feels the same for you too."

I turn to look at Bella and she is looking at me as she sings.

"Just tell her."

"I can't tell her."

Angela turns to face me.

"You see right there. That is your problem. You don't just come out and just tell her how you feel. Instead you just run away. Stop running and get your woman. She might not admit it but that girl has never stopped loving you. That's why her relationships never work out. They aren't you."

She hits my shoulder.

"And do it soon before it's too late."

She picks up her bag and walks back to the table. I sit and watch Bella sing song after song. As she finishes going through her set list I go outside to smoke a cigarette.

"Do you have an extra one?"

I turn to see Bella behind me. I reach in pocket and hand her one.

"Did you like the songs I picked to sing for the tour?"

"Yeah I thought it was great."

"I've always wanted to sing a song from The fray. And I heard say when and I just fell in love with it."

"Yeah it's one of my favorites too."

Bella narrow her eyes and looks at me.

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine."

"I don't believe you."

"Being with you has been great and I don't want it to end. I want to be with you. I know. I know you have Jared but I love you and I know you love me. And I know I hurt you in the past but you have always been my future. And I want us to grow together."

I pulled her closer to me.

"Please tell me you feel the same. Please tell me you love me too."

Bella looks into my eyes and I silently pray that she wants this too.

"I.." Bella says and sighs.

A/N: Oh No she didn't. I left you guys with a cliffy. Don't be mad. I hope you like it. You know what to do. Comment and add. I love seeing them. Till next time.