I know it's been a while since I have posted a chapter. I had a death and a birth in the family. With all the layoff at my job it's been very busy for me to write. And my boyfriend has taken more hours to work at home. I will try to post another chapter as soon as I can. I hope you like this one. On to the story.

BPOV

"Being with you has been great and I don't want it to end. I want to be with you. I know. I know you have Jared but I love you and I know you love me. And I know I hurt you in the past but you have always been my future. And I want us to grow together."

Edward pulled me closer to him.

"Please tell me you feel the same. Please tell me you love me too."

"I..."

My cell phone starts to ring and I huff. I reach into my pocket to pull it out but Edward stops me.

"Don't get it."

I look up into his pleading eyes and my heart broke. I lifted my hand and ran my fingers through his bronze hair. He closed his eyes and leaned into my hand when I touched his cheek. Edward blew out his breath he was holding and walked closer to me. He opened his green eyes and stared into my brown ones. The shock that ran through my body made me shiver.

"Are you cold?" He said and I just stared into his intense hungry eyes.

Edward puts his hand on my arms and moves them up and down to warm me up. He drops his forehead against mine and whispers into the cool air.

"I missed you. I missed you so much."

His words broke me out of his trance. I stiffen and back up.

"I want to go home."

I wrapped my arms around me to hold myself in place. Edward searched my eyes for why I pulled away and I dropped my gaze to look at my black converse sneakers.

"Take me home I want to go home."

Edward stares at me for a moment and turns to walks to his bike. My eyes start to tear. I am hurting him. I don't want to hurt him. I do love Edward. I've always loved him but I can't. I couldn't again. It hurt too much. I rolled my shoulders and followed him to the bike.

I sigh as I open the door to my condo apartment. Edward walks in and I can tell he is still angry. His jaw is clenched so tight I am surprised he hasn't broken any teeth. I chuckle at the thought and drop my key by the answer machine and notice it is blinking. I press the button.

"You have 1 new message." The robotic voice said then a beep.

"Bella. Where are you? You texted this morning saying you were coming after your thing."

Rosalie sounds very angry. I close my eyes and threw my head back. I can hear the kids in the back ground messing with Emmett and him yelling.

"You were going to come get these kids out of my hair. I know my little wedding isn't important as your glamorous career but I would have thought that my sister would have been there to help. Call me when you get this message."

"Shit." I said and pressed the erase button so hard that it hurt me.

That is what else I need right now, Rosalie to be angry with me. I feel drained. I drop my shoulders and walked out toy balcony. I open the door and walk over to the ledge. I looked out at the busy streets of Seattle as the sun is setting and the big moon glaring out of the orange sky. How beautiful it looks outside. I sigh as I let the stress just fall off my shoulder.

I hear Edward walk behind me. He pulls my hair to the side and kisses the spot behind my neck. He knew what this does to me. He brushes his lips to the side of my neck and I tilt my head so he can have better access. My skin starts to tingle as his hands trails up to the side of my breasts. My breath comes in quick.

"Do you want me to stop? " He says breathlessly.

I shake my head. He brings his lips back to my neck and I push my back against him. He starts to slowly unbutton my shirt. I didn't care at that moment if anybody is watching us. I want him to touch every part of me. I wanted to feel his skin against mine. He opens my shirt and I gasp as he touches my top of my breasts. I turn to face him and he crashes his lips against mine.

He lifts me in his arms and carries me to the bedroom. He slowly puts me on the bed. Once there he removes my clothes slowly kissing each part of my body. He lingers a long time on my breasts sucking and licking till they were hard. He wraps his hands around them squeezing and I moaned. He looked into my eyes and gave me his famous crooked smile.

"I want to taste you." He said huskily.

His tongue took a journey between my breasts to my navel and he stopped above my gray hipsters.

"I love these on you but can I take them off." I nodded my head and threw my head back at the thought of him kissing me there.

He removed my hipsters and threw my leg on his shoulder.

"God you smell good."

The minute I felt his tongue flick my nerve I bucked. I thought I was going to lose my mind. He started to gently suck, lick and massage me. I felt my stomach start to tighten. He slipped his finger inside me and my toes started to tingle. The tingling started to grow bigger and bigger. My body starts to shake because I knew I was going to explode. Edward chuckled and started to speed up his thrusting. And I didn't disappoint.

Edward got off the bed and undressed. He was absolutely beautiful with his broad shoulders and his flat abs. He sure grew up from a 17 year old. I was shocked when he removed his boxer. Between my legs started to throb. I need him now. I wanted him inside me now.

"Edward please." I begged.

He climbed over me and kissed me again.

"I couldn't do this to you while you were drunk. I want you to open your eyes and look at me."

I did what he said and he pushed himself inside me. I threw my head back and moaned. I shuddered and came again as he was fully inside. What was going on? This never happened to me before. The feel of him moving inside me in slow, measured strokes is mind blowing. I started to chant his name over and over.

"I'm here. I'm here with you." He said breathless against my neck.

He suddenly cups my bottom in his hands, lifts my hips and ground against me. I gasp. Then he thrust deep in me as his mouth found my spot on my shoulder. I shudder with delight and break into million of pieces as my body is flooded with waves of pleasure over and over again. I wrap my legs around him and my walls tighten around him.

"Together. Let's go over together." He said against my damp hair.

His thrust became faster and faster and I followed him over the edge. He pulled me into his arms as we try to breathing heavily.

"Are you alright?" He said and kissed my forehead.

"I'm fine."

He pulls me closer to him and starts to run his fingers through my hair. I close my eyes to take in the comfort he is giving me. I love being in his arms as he is stroking my hair. I drift off to sleep and dream about what we just shared together.

I wake by the sound of somebody banging on my door. I look over and Edward is still sleeping. I get off the bed and put on my robe on. I walk thru the condo and that's when it hits me. It's is completely dark. I walk to the door and the banging is getting louder.

I open the door and roll my eyes.

"You know. Rose is always right about things. And she never hesitates to throw it in my face. But now I want to thank you Bella. For giving me the opportunity to say that I am right."

Jasper chuckles and Emmett pushes by me to get inside the apartment. I stumble and try to hit him but I missed. I stepped to the side to let Jasper in.

"Where are you little brother?" Emmett said while searching my house. Edward steps out fully dressed trying to button his shirt.

"Oh no don't try to hide it now." Emmett said and tried to wrestle with his brother. I shake my head and went into my room to get dressed.

~~x~~

The drive to Rosalie's house was killing me. The drive gave me a lot of time to think about what I've done tonight. I can't believe what I did. What I shared with Edward was very special but Jared didn't deserve what I've done. I couldn't stop myself. I needed Edward and he delivered. We both moved on with other people, even though his marriage is a sham. What can I do? He wants me and now I learn he is moving back home permantly. That doesn't make a difference I still am with Jared. I care for Jared and he cares for me.

As I pull up o Rose's house it is completely dark. The pang of guilt hits m again. I step out of the car and take a couple of deep breaths to calm my nerves. As I walk inside the only sound I hear is the tv on. I walk into the living room and I see Rosalie wrapped in a comforter sipping on some wine watching The Back-up Plan.

I smile as I watch Zoe driving into a tree from watching the sexy Stan driving his tractor. I giggle and look at Rose who sighs and take a sip from her white wine. I got up to get my own glass. As I walked into the kitchen I could hear her mumbling under her breath. I ignored her and got my glass and sat down on the couch. I looked at her to see if she would say something or even yell at me but nothing. I reached for the bottle and poured the beverage in the wine glass. I decided to break the silence.

"I know you are angry with me Rose but I can explain what happened"

She turned her head to look at me and her eyes showed what she wanted to do to me. I cringed.

"That's all you can say to me. I needed you today."

"I know I am sorry."

"That doesn't cut it Bella. What was so important today that kept my baby sister away today?"

I couldn't say anything. I took a sip of the wine. The sweet wine felt so warm going down.

"You can't speak. That's perfect. What were doing?"

I dropped my shoulders in defeat.

"Something I shouldn't have done. I should have left and just come here instead of going home."

Rosalie looked at me trying to understand what I was rambling about.

"I made a mistake today. I did something so bad."

The tears started to sting my eyes. I tried to hold them back. Rosalie took me in her arms to comfort me.

"Its ok you can tell me." She whispered.

"I slept with Edward. How could I?"

"It's ok. It just happened."

I pulled back from her embrace.

"You don't sound surprise."

She started to chuckle.

"I knew it was going to happen eventually. You and Edward always had this strong connection."

"But I am with Jared."

"I know." She said. "But he isn't Edward."

"But I love him."

"I know you do. But do you love him like you are in love with Edward?"

I sat back and thought about that question. I do have feelings for Jared but my feeling for Edward was very strong. Having Edward around me felt like a switch had been flicked on in my brain. But did I really want to turn it off again. I can remember the pain I felt when Edward was not in my life. Am I really prepared to feel that again?

"This isn't something you need to think about now. Give it time. Are you planning to tell Jared what happened?"

I looked at her like she was out of her mind.

"I don't want to hurt him."

"I know you don't but don't you think it will hurt him more if you lie to him?"

She had a point.

"Let me tell you some good news that I received this morning from your mother."

Oh no what happened now?

"She is your mother too."

She chuckled and told me not to remind her.

"Your mother came over today to help with the last minute wedding stuff."

She gave me a look and I blushed.

"And she announces that Phil has been traded to another baseball team."

"That great! That's what he wanted."

"Yeah that is great for him. But then she announces that she has to be there for him. She has to focus all of her attention to him. And that having a baby around isn't a good thing for both of them. And they decided that they wanted to leave PJ with us."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"Wait. She is moving and she is leaving PJ to take care of her man.?"

I could believe this from Renee but from Phil. How could he leave his only child?"

"And when are they leaving?"

"Soon as possible. Since training starts soon."

"Unbelievable. And the winner for best mom is..."

"Tell me about it."

"Where is he now?'

"Upstairs with Bugs. I really let her have it. She really pissed me off. I thought she changed. I thought Phil changed but he is just like her. He doesn't care who he hurts. What am I going to do Bells? How can I handle two kids?"

I hugged her.

"We will handle it together. Don't worry."

There was a knock on the door. And I looked at her to see if she was expecting anybody. She just shrugged and the knocking started again. I got up to answer the door. Before I could say anything I was swept off the ground in a strong hug. I was put down and I just stood there shaking my head.

"What are you doing here?"

I hope you guys like this chapter. It took me a loooonnnnggggg time to get this out. Again I am sorry about that. Please read my other stories: The one I yearn, The next door neighbor and One afternoon alone. Please comment and add. Thanks Till next time.