"Get up bro!"
I was awakened by the sound of banging on the door. It took me a minute where I was when I opened my eyes. And it hit me; I was in Bella's room. I groaned and buried my face deeper into her pillow. I breathed her in. I rose from the bed and limped to the door. I opened it up and gave Emmett a dirty look.
"You look crazy." He said and giggled.
He rumpled my mess hair and I pulled back.
"Esme called me and we have to get ready."
I didn't answer I just closed the door in his face and walked back into Bella's bed. I can still hear her moaning in my ears.
"This feels so good in your arms."
It did feel good to have her in my arms last night. I've waited so long to have her. I missed her so much. The woman I love.
I know I have hurt her but she's the only one that really mattered to me. I smiled as I remembered kissing her swollen lips.
"I love you Bella." I said as I stared into her chocolate eyes. She smiled and kissed me with passion.
My thought was interrupted by more annoying banging. If I don't get up now I am going to kill him. Seriously kill him.
As we pulled up to the church, it was crowded with paparazzi and on lookers to get a glimpse of the superstars siblings who are tying the knot. I smiled as flashes were going on in my face.
"Edward over here. Can we get a picture? Look this way Edward"
I pulled Emmett and Jasper close to me and we posed for them to take our picture. I smiled at the thought of the headlines this would make. A white stretch limo pulled up. The driver got out to open the door. I started to smile until I saw Jared step out and pulled Bella into his arms while the paparazzi left us and started shouting and taking their picture.
"Kiss her Jared!"
They all started shouting and he lifted her face and kissed her. After he pulled back she was smiling. How could she be smiling after what we shared last night? Did it mean nothing to her? I clenched my jaw and walked inside the church.
BPOV
When I pulled out of Jared's kiss I turned to see Edward's face and I blushed. How could I do that to either of them? Jared doesn't deserve to be hurt by my indiscretions and Edward doesn't deserve for me to lead him on. I love Edward but do I want to go down that road with him again? Do I want to leave Jared? He loves me but so does Edward. What I did know is that I have to tell Jared. He has the right to know. He pulled me into the church. And I sighed.
"Are you ok?"
"Hmm? Yeah I am fine."
"Sorry if it bothered you I did that."
I smiled. Jared is very thoughtful. I made a mental note of that.
"No that's fine. I am just tired. It's going to be a long day."
We reached the room where we are supposed to get ready. I opened the door and called out to my sister.
"Thank God you are here! I need you."
Rosalie stepped out in a white corset and silk white shorts. Her hair is in a tight bun and her make up is flawless.
"It's about time you made it. You were supposed to be here 30 minutes ago."
Just then buggy ran out of the room with my baby brother behind her. I smile when I see how cute they look in there outfits.
"You see what I am dealing with right now." She yelled and I looked at her.
"Alright settle down and let's get going. It's almost time. Bugs go with mommy and finish getting ready. I will take care of this cute guy."
I groaned as I picked up PJ.
"Man you are heavy. What are we feeding you?"
I ticked him and he was wriggling in my arms to get away from the attack.
After we were ready I put PJ on top of the little table in the dressing room to inspect his clothes. The radio was playing in the background when rihanna's song Complicated came on. I started to sing along with the song while I was fixing his cute little tie. He started dancing. He looks so cute dancing. I grabbed his little hands and started dancing with him. He started to jump up and down. I picked him up and started twirling around and dancing. As I turned for the last time, I saw Edward standing by the door watching us. I stopped and put my baby brother down. Edward looks so handsome in his tux. For the first time his untamed hair was combed back showing his beautiful face.
"Again. Again". Pj said over and over while reaching his arms up for me to pick him up.
I touched his cheek and told him to go to Rose. His face fell when he knew our game was over.
"Hey". I said and shifted my weight to one of my leg.
"You look beautiful." He said while looking me up and down to get a better look.
I started to run my hand up and down my brown silk dress.
"Thanks.". I said nervously.
Just then the door opened.
"Bella can you help me with this? I hate these damn things."
I turned my head to see Jared fiddling with his tie. He looked up and saw Edward.
"Hey." Jared said and walked to Edward and extended his hand to shake.
Edward took it and smiled but I can see the frustration in his eyes.
"I was sent here to see if everybody is ready. They are calling us to start."
"We are ready." I said before Jared could answer.
"See you out there." He said and left.
I look at Jared and smile. He looked into my eyes and I prayed that they didn't give me away. I walked closer to him to fix his tie.
"This is it sis. In a few minutes you are going to be Mrs. Emmett Cullen. Are you ready?"
"As ready as I will ever be." she said.
I checked her beautiful dress and of course my sister looks perfect. I pushed open the door and told buggy and Pj to walk. I looked behind me to my older sister and stuck my tongue at her to make her smile and I walked down the isle. As I am walking I can feel Edward's eyes on me. And a heat came over me. I took a couple of breaths to calm myself down. I turned to see Jared's eyes and I can see the love in them and I started to feel very guilty for what I've done. I reached up opposite of Edward and Emmett and I watched as my sister walked down the aisle to her love.
EPOV
The ceremony was beautiful. During the wedding, I couldn't keep my eyes off Bella. Every so often her eyes would meet mine and she would blush. I love when she blushes. Her rosy cheeks do something to me. My eyes travel to her full lips that were very shiny. I wanted to taste those lips. Emmett had to nudge me when they asked for the ring. I gave him my cocky grin and reached into my pocket and pulled the little box out. I couldn't help imagining slipping a ring on Bella's finger making her mine for all eternity. I looked at her and she was blushing like she just read my thoughts. I put my hands in my pocket to stop myself from reaching out to her to grab her in my arms to kiss her sweet mouth.
As we reached the reception which was held in this beautiful hall, I had to admit that Rosalie and Bella put there all in the decoration. The room was dimly lit with candles. White rose petals were on the table with their own individual little candles lit on the table. The walls are draped with large white clothes. I was very impressed with the décor. I walked to the bartender and asked for shot of vodka. I gulped it down and told him to give me another one before I put the little shot glass on the table. He filled it up with a smile. I gulped the second on just as fast. I know I should eat before I start this drinking but it is drinking time.
After I put the shot glass down I asked him for a rum and coke. As I sipped the alcoholic beverage I nodded because it tasted very good. I walked to the wall and leaned against it. I put the straw to my lips and took another sip.
"I think they are calling for you." I turned to see Bella's friend Victoria behind me. I lifted my glass to her and I walked away to find my family so they announce us as we walk in the newly married couple.
4 shots 2 rum cokes later I was feeling the affects of the drinks. I walked to the bartender and asked him for a vodka tonic.
"Slow down buddy." I turned in anger to see who had stopped me from my fun.
"I think you need to slow down on the drinking." My father had said to me. I can see the concern on his face.
"Are you ok?"
"Just peachy." And smiled
"Your mother sent me here to tell you that they are serving food right now. I think you need something in your belly. You are going to get sick."
I looked at the table we were sitting at and I noticed Jared leaning over Bella whispering something in her ear. She giggles at the little joke they are sharing amongst each other. As they are talking I see Jared start to rub Bella's arm. My jaw clenched.
"Yeah I will do that." I walked away from my father. I know he doesn't deserve that but I needed some air. I had to get out of there. I want to walk over there and rip his arm off of my Bella. My Bella? She wasn't mine. Yes we made love last night and it was incredible but she really wasn't mine. She had Jared and I was married.
I pushed open the door and let the cool air wash over me. I tried to control my breathing to calm myself down but it wasn't working.
"Edward?"
I stood up straight at the sound of that beautiful voice. I turned around to see Bella stand behind me.
"Edward I am so sorry. I didn't know that he was going to be here. He surprised me."
I can see in her eyes that she was telling me the truth. I sighed and dropped my shoulders in defeat. I reached out and tucked the loose hair that was blowing by the breeze behind her ear. As my finger touched the tip of her ear I feel her heat on my finger. I look at her and I can see she felt it too. I stepped closer to her.
"Bella." I whisper her name.
"I love you." I continued.
She moved my hand that now traveled to her cheek.
"I love you too but we can't do this. I can't hurt Jared like this."
"But you don't love him." I said angrily.
I stepped closer to her and crashed my lips on hers. I grazed my tongue on her lower lip begging for access and she granted me the pleasure. I moaned as out tongues touch. I put my hand on her lower back to pull her closer to me so I can feel her against me.
"No. No I can't do this." She said pushing me back.
"But we.."
"I know what we did. And we shouldn't have. I am so sorry. I can't do this to you or to Jared. Oh god." She said and pinches the bridge of her nose.
"We need to talk about this." I said and grabbed her arms.
"Is everything ok out here?" I turned in annoyance to see Jared by the door. I let her go and he walks closer to us.
"Are you ok Bella?" He asked but kept his eyes on me.
"I'm fine." She said. "I have to get back inside." She pushed passed us and walked inside. Jared gave me a look and followed her.
What am I doing? I pulled a cigarette out of my pocket and smoked it. When I was done I walked inside the hall and I can hear Bella on the loud speaker. I opened the heavy door and I can see heron the stage.
"I am so thrilled to be here to witness two special people I love dearly join in holy matrimony. I speak for myself and my other family the Cullens when say thank you for coming to this special day."
I leaned against the wall.
"My sister is amazing; she has always spent time with me and taken care of me. She has been my everything. But now its time for her to be Emmett's everything. Today she vowed to care for him in all the ways a person can care for someone. Rosalie will be a good wife because she knows how to be honest and loyal, but most of all because she knows how to love. I have been blessed to have her as a sister because she's also my best friend, and today I know is the happiest day of her life. Please lift your glass to toast them in their happy future. To Emmett and Rosalie."
Bella lifted her glass to the happy couple and they took a sip of their drink. I just lifted my hand to them.
"Whoo. That's over with." Bella said and she got a couple of chuckles.
"Now I have something very special for my beautiful sister. If anybody knows her she is a very difficult person to get a gift for."
While Bella was talking she pressed a button and a projector screen came down behind her.
"And I found the perfect thing to give her. Emmett get the tissue ready." Bella chuckled and pressed another button on the remote and turned to fast the screen.
The picture came up and it was trying to focus. Two brown haired girls came on about the ages of 8 and the other one looked about 6. I had to guess this was Bella and Rosalie on the screen. There was a lot of ohhs and ahhs on the screen.
"Hi my name is Rosalie and this is my baby sister Isabella." The oldest one said.
"No my name is Bella." The second said with a little attitude.
People started to giggle. I couldn't help but put a smile on my face.
The screen next cut and there was a man sitting on the piano and started to play it. The song that he was playing sounded very beautiful. I looked over at the table where my family is sitting and I notice Rosalie has her hand over her mouth. I look back at the screen.
The two little girls went to sit next to their father while he is playing and little Rosalie laid her head on her father's shoulder. He planted a kiss on the top of her head and he started to sing. His voice sounded amazing. Next little Bella started to sing along with her father. And it was the most beautiful thing I have ever witnessed. The love and the proud look their father had given them while he was singing his song.
The screen cut again and the next scene was the two little girls are dancing to a song that was being played. They looked so cute as they were dancing and their father was looking on lovingly. He walked over to them and grabbed little Rosalie by the hand and started to dance with her.
I looked over and I can see the Rosalie is crying now. I can only imagine how she must be feeling to watch her father on the screen. I looked at Bella and she was standing on the stage crying as well.
Charlie stopped dancing with Rosalie and picked Bella up in his arms and started to dance with her. Rosalie walked over to them and held on to his leg and the three of them were dancing. It was a special love they shared together.
The screen cut and the next scene were all three of them in front of the camera.
"These are my two beautiful girls. I love them with all of my heart."
"We love you too daddy." Little Bella said while looking at her father.
"You guys mean the world to me."
Charlie put his lips to Rosalie's cheeks and gave her a raspberry. She protested and started to rub her cheeks. He did the same action to Bella and she too rubbed her cheeks.
"Eww daddy." Little Bella said.
And they both did the same to him. And he looked like he was in heaven.
The screen cut out and then Bella pressed the button and the projector screen went up. She turned to face the crowd and I can see the tears on her face. Rosalie got up from her seat and walked over to the stage to Bella and they held each other crying.
I waited outside of the restroom waiting for Bella to come out. I have to talk to her. We have to talk about us and what we are going to do now. I love her. I want to be with her. I have to have her. I needed her. The door opened and I can see Bella fixing her makeup in the mirror. She looks perfect to me. The door closed and I wished I could open it. The door opened again and I was face to face with Bella.
"Edward." She said putting her hand on her chest. I grab her hand and made her follow me.
"Where are we going?" She said sounded confused.
I didn't answer her. I walk to a door and opened it. It was a closet. Perfect. I pull her into it.
"What's going on?"
I stare into her eyes and I crash my lips to her. The kiss is explosive. I can feel it from my feet to the top of my head. Her hands reach up and went into my hair. Our lips fit perfectly. I pulled her closer and she let out a moan. I trailed my nose on her jaw line and move down to her shoulder. I plant soft kisses on her creamy skin.
"Edward." She said breathless.
I push her against the linen rack and lifted her in my arms. Her legs went around my waist and I grind into her. Bella started panting against my lips.
"No please don't" She said.
I put her down and I put my forehead against hers and started to breath heavy.
"Why are you doing this to me Edward? This is too hard for me. I can't do this?"
She pushed pass me and left me in the room alone. I leaned my head against the rack and silently cursed myself.
BPOV
"I am exhausted." I said as we step into the condo. Jared is carrying buggy and I was carrying PJ who were fast asleep in our arms. I decided to take the kids early so Rosalie and Emmett can spend their first night as husband and wife together before leaving for their honeymoon tomorrow.
I threw my keys on the little table by the door and walked to my spare room with Jared behind me. We walk into the room and put the kids on the bed and Jared went back out to get their little bags. I started to undress them to put their PJs on. I look over at Jared while he is helping me and I notice something was wrong.
After the kids were dressed and tucked into bed I kissed both of them and left the room. While groaning and stretching I walk into the living room and Jared is just standing there. I chuckle and start to walk to my bag to get a cigarette.
"I know." He said.
I turn to look at him.
"You know what?" I said smiling and went back to search in my bag for a lighter. Ahh I found it. Damn sucker.
I walk pass him to go to the balcony and he followed me.
"I know you still love Edward." I started to chock when I lit my cigarette.
"Excuse me?" I said while coughing."
"I see how you look at him and how he looks at you. I always knew that I haven't had your whole heart. I know how much he means to you."
"But…" I said and he cut me off.
"It's alright. I understand and I don't want to stand in the way of that. I don't want you to be with me to make me happy. I want you to be happy. I'll understand if it's not with me. I want you to figure out if being with Edward is who you really want to be with. I can see that he really loves you."
"What are you saying?" I said and my eyes started to cloud with my tears.
"I'm saying that I want you to be happy and I want you to figure out where you want to be."
He walks over to me and kissed my forehead.
"I will be here for you if you need me. But I have to go."
I grab his hand to stop him from going. But he was right. I am so confused right now. I want to be with Jared but we never had that chemistry that Edward and I had. I walk closer to him and stood on my toes and kissed him on his lips.
"I'm so sorry." I said. He kissed me again and squeezes my hand that he was holding and said goodbye. I stood in that spot and close my eyes when I heard the door closed.
I've been sitting on my couch for the past 2 hours crying my eyes out. I tried to call Jared for him to come back but it just went to voicemail. I know I have hurt him. And that was the last thing I wanted to do. But I have to sort these feeling I have going on inside me right now. I pick up my phone and went through my contacts. I couldn't call Rosalie right now; I don't want to interrupt her time with Emmett. I went down the list and I saw Edward's name. Should I call him? He wanted to talk to me at the wedding maybe I should hear what he has to say.
As I was about to hit the call button there was soft knock on my door. I looked at the time. It is 1 am who can that be? I opened the door and Edward was standing there. I opened the door wider and let him in.
I was awakened by the bed shaking and low groans. I thought I was dreaming until I felt Edward jerking in the bed. I sat up and turned the bedside lamp on. He is covered in sweat and he was shaking his head back and forth. I touch his arm to wake him but he just jerked away from me.
"No don't." He said and gripped the sheet tight.
"Edward wake up." I grab his face to calm his down.
"Please don't." He said and tried to shake me off.
"Edward wake up." I said while shaking him.
He finally opened his eyes and I can see the fear in them. I moved for him to sit up on the bed.
"You had a nightmare." I said and sat against the headboard.
Edward huffed and ran his hand through his damp hair. He was shaking and trying to slow down his heavy breathing. He opened his mouth to say something but thought against it. He rose off the bed and walked out of the room. I got off the bed and put on my robe to follow him. I walked out into the dark living room looking for him. I noticed the light of the cigarette and I walked out onto the balcony. Edward is sitting on my lounge chair. He looked at me and I can still see the fear in his eyes. I closed the robe tighter against me when the wind blew.
Edward offered me a cigarette and I took it.
"Are you ok?" I asked as he brought the flame to light the cigarette.
"I still get the dreams every now and then. I am not fine right now."
"You know you can talk to me."
He smiled and pulled me to sit between his legs. He huffed.
"When I was younger I was a very bad boy. I use to steal food and rob people."
I turned to look at him.
"It was before I was taken in by my parents."
I turned back around to rest against his chest again.
"That was the only way I would eat. My mother. My biological mother is a junkie and an alcoholic. She had three personalities. When she was high on cocaine, which was her drug of choice. When she was on that she remembered to feed me. When my mom was drunk she turned into a weepy woman. When she was on both she loved using her fist. My mother used to cause a lot of problems that caused us to move around a lot. So finally we move to Seattle. The bad part of Seattle. My mother turned to turning tricks to support her habit. She used to meet these men in bars or wherever and bring them back to our very shitty apartment. But some of these men she brought home also had a taste for little boys."
I stiffen in his arms.
"Some night when they were done with her she would fall asleep and they would come in my room and I would fight them off. I told her what was going on but instead of protecting me she realized she had a gold mine. Me."
Edward stopped talking and I felt his shiver.
"One night I was sleeping in my bed and I woke up to my mother laughing and she said to me I owe her and she held me down. That's when I noticed two men in the room…"
I cut him off.
"You don't need to say anything." My voice cracked.
"I want you to know." He gulped and continued, "She held me down while they both raped me. When they were done she gave me two dollars and told me that I did good. I took the money and went into the bathroom and threw up. I hated her. I hated her so much. I burned the money and I swore that she will pay for this."
I pushed off of him and turned around to face him and I noticed tears streaming down his face. His hand trembled while he brushed his thumb under my eyes. That's when I noticed I was crying too.
"That happened two day before my eight birthday. When it happened again I fought back and she really beat me up for it. And it turned her john away. That's when she learned that men didn't like damaged goods. So she got pretty good in beating me without leaving to bad of a mark. It seemed like every night she brought men to the apartment. I learned quickly it was useless to fight them off. So I learned to leave my body while these things where happening to me. No matter how much I screamed and begged it didn't help."
"When did it stop?" I said in a whisper.
"It lasted one year 4 months and 15 days. One night after her john was done with both with us, she was so high that she got into a fight with him and she ended stabbing him. She robbed him and left me in the apartment. Our neighbor called the cops and they found me hovering in the corner in the room with this dead body. They took me and placed me in a foster home. And that place was hell on earth. One day I saw my parents and they took me. I wasn't an easy child but they did their best. And I love them for it."
I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him hard. I started to stroke his hair and whispered in ears that everything is ok.
"I've never told anybody about this beside my therapist. I never wanted to taint you with this craziness. But I want to be open and honest with you. I want you to know me. What I've experience in my past. I am ready for you to know. I wasn't ready to tell you when we were younger. I think I was afraid that it would turn you away from me."
I pulled back to look at his face.
"I would never pull away from you because of that. I would have understood it back then. You know what my mother put me through. You even saved me."
I removed some hair that had fallen on his forehead.
"I've would have been there holding your hand through all of your fears and comforted you through your nightmare. I never want you to feel that I would pull away from you because I never will."
I knew at that moment that I spoke the truth.
"I love you." I said and stroked his cheek.
I look into his eyes and I see tears started to full up his green eyes.
"I love you too Bella."
"What are we going to do now?" I said breathless and leaned back in his arms.
"Right now. I am going to hold the most beautiful woman in the world and tell her how much I love her. And tomorrow we will figure out the rest."
"That's perfect." I said and he held me closer to his chest. He turned his cheek on top of my head and we both closed our eyes wishing this moment would never end.
I hope you guys like this chapter. Sorry it has taken me a while to update a new chapter. But you know life happened. Please read my other stories. The one I yearn, Next door neighbor and One afternoon alone. Please leave me a review. Till next time.