EPOV

I wake to the sound of soft sad music playing. I roll over and find the spot where Bella was sleeping cold. I get up and sit at the edge of the bed. I feel a headache coming on so I rub my forehead to relieve the pressure. It wasn't working. I get out the bed and open the door. I step into the living room and see Bella sitting at her white grand piano and she's singing. The song she's singing talks about broken hearts and I don't recognize the song. I watch her and I can see that's she's hurting. I know this isn't easy for her. I have hurt her and now she's hurting her boyfriend. Her ex-boyfriend. I smile at that thought.

I watch her as her fingers glide over the keys and her eyes closed as she is singing her song. I have to admit, I've been with a lot of women in Paris. But I've never felt home till this moment. I lean on the wall and fold my arms as I watch her. She always looked so pure to me. I just want to wrap my arms around her and just tell her how I love her. Why couldn't I do that before I left? Or why I couldn't do that while I was gone? Why did I have to push her away?

I just felt like I wasn't good enough for her. I was a troubled soul who had a dirty life. And I never wanted to be with her until I got my shit together. Now I feel like I got it together and I am worthy of her love. But have I damaged her love for me? That couldn't be because I can see the love in her eyes when she looks at me. I see it when she's angry with me or embarrassed. I know that she was in a relationship with Mr. Supernatural. But Bella Swan is mine. I am going to prove to her that being with me is where she belongs.

"Uncle Edward." My thoughts are broken as I see Jas run into me.

"Urfff."

She is hugging my legs so tight. Pj runs to my other legs. And I pick him up.

"Come on now. Let him breaths guys." I look up at Bella as she pulls Jas off my legs.

"Good morning." I put Pj down

"Good morning Edward."

She looks at me and walks into the kitchen

"I have Advil in the cabinet. Do you want coffee?'

"Please." I follow her into the kitchen as the kids run to the living room to watch their cartoons.

"Need any help?"

"Thanks but I have it."

I can hear in her voice that she's a little cold. How can she be cold after the night we just had? I roll my shoulders and I can feel the pain in my body. I am always sore the next day after a nightmare. I open the cabinet and reach for the bottle of Advil. When I put it back I see that Bella put a cup of water for me. I swallow the pills and sit at the table. I just sit there and watch Bella. Why isn't she looking at me? I notice her phone on the table. I pick it up and the screen comes to life.

"I miss you Bella."

It is a text from Jared. I put the phone down and my jaw starts to clench. Why is he texting her? Didn't he break up with her? Didn't he tell her to see if she still has feelings for me? I couldn't bring myself to check to see if there were anymore texts from him. I stand up and walking into the kitchen. Bella is starting a batch of blueberry pancakes. As she pours the batter on the pancake pan, I wrap my arms around her.

"Don't" She pushes me away from her.

"Don't do that." Bella turns to the stove. I see her start to shake. I turn her to face me and tears are streaming down her cheeks.

"What's wrong Bells? Why are you crying?"

She slams the spatula on the counter causing me to jump. She turns off the fire and storms past me to the balcony. I check on the kids to see if they are ok and they are just laughing along some cartoon. I follow her and I Bella is pacing while she's smoking.

"Talk to me." I say softy.

"I really don't like to see you like this. I though after last night…"

She cuts me off by putting her hand up.

"This is too hard for me right now."

"But we told each other we loved each other. I thought this is what you wanted."

"I don't know what I want." She blows out in a breath and I am crushed.

"You don't know what you want? Is this about Jared?"

She gives me this look.

"It is."

"I'm sorry Edward. I love you both. I want to make it work with him. But I want to be with you. You hurt me and you left. And I moved on just like you moved on."

"But I told you what the situation was?"

She closes her eyes tight and more tears leaked out.

"What is this about?' I step closer to her.

"When you came to visit, why didn't you look me up? Why when you came to visit you didn't look for me? You expect for me to just open the door and everything will be ok?'

"Then why did you open the door for me?" I shouted

"I opened the door because I was hurt and I saw that you were drunk. I didn't want to leave you out there to get hurt."

She sniffs and takes a pull of her cigarette.

"I can't do this Bella. I opened myself to you. I apologized for hurting you. I don't know what else to say?'

She threw her cigarette over the rail.

'Why did you leave?'

"This again?' I ran my hands through my hair.

"Yes again. Why did you leave me?'

'I was leaving for us."

"Bullshit. Be honest."

"I left because if you came I wouldn't have gotten on that plane."

"Why couldn't you say good bye to my face? It killed me when you left. I loved you. I wanted to make this future with you. I wouldn't have ever thought of leaving you heartbroken."

"Do you think that it was easy for me to leave you?" I grabbed her arms and pulled her closer to me.

"It killed me everyday that I couldn't be next to you. It killed me that I couldn't look at your beautiful face everyday. It killed me that I couldn't hear your voice. It killed me because I would have brought you down in my shit."

It came out. There was the truth. I went to sit on the lounge chair.

"I didn't deserve you Bella. I would have just messed everything up for you. You wouldn't have all of this if I stuck around or if you came with me to Paris. You wouldn't have accomplished your dream. And that would have been a big burden for me to carry."

Bella came to sit in front of me and cupped my face in her hands.

"You felt like you didn't deserve me?"

I nod my head and my eyes started to water.

"When I first went to Paris I didn't expect for me to really take this writing thing seriously. I was in Paris and I was going to party and have a good time. I was really heading down a dangerous path. But one night my professor came to my apartment and really set me straight. Mr. Frederique. He wouldn't give up on me. I really appreciated everything he did for me. I didn't want that for you Bella. The reason why I never looked for you is because I wasn't the man you deserved. I wanted to be a better man for you. Granted I am not there yet but I am man enough that you can be proud of. I am so sorry Bella. I am so sorry that I hurt you. But I really did leave for us. I've loved you since the first time I saw you. I loved you more when I saw what you were going through and you weren't afraid to let ne in."

"Edward." Bella said in a whisper.

"You were always a guy I was proud of. You've done so much in your life. And you wouldn't have brought me down in your shit. I would have been there with you through everything. And maybe today I would have been Mrs. Cullen instead of that French twinkie."

Edward chuckles. I pull him into a hug.

"I would have been there for you. I love you Edward Cullen. I don't want you to ever forget that. Through what ever shit you that comes your way, it would have taken a lot for me to leave you."

I pull back to look at her.

"I love you Edward."

I crash my lips to her and I kiss her.

"I love you too Bella." I say between kisses.

"Auntie."

We both look at Jas and Pj standing by the door.

"We're hungry." Jas looks like she's about the throw a fit. Bella chuckles and wipes her face.

"Come on munchkins." She held both of their heads and leads them inside.

"These pancakes are so good." I say as I put another piece in my mouth.

"Why thank you." She winked at me.

"What is the plan for today?" I say as I wipe the syrup from my lips.

"Well..." She said as she wipes PJ's messy face.

"I have to go to Sonar to meet up the band and Jacob called saying that he has to talk to me."

"Oh."

I wish we had more time to spend today. I really didn't have anything to do today.

"Do you want to come with us?"

I stop as I cut another piece of pancakes as she asked me.

"Sure. I would love to see how the magic happens."

She laughs

"I doubt it's magic. It's probably going to be boring. We are going to go through the song list for the concert and the kids are going to be running around acting crazy."

"It sounds amazing."

She shrugs her shoulders.

"I guess."

I shovel another piece of pancake in mouth.

"You know you love it."

She smiles as she cuts another piece for her little brother. I can't help but picture her doing this for her children. She's so maternal.

"Yeah I kind of do."

I laugh

"I know you do. So when do we have to leave?"

She looks at the clock on the microwave.

"We have to leave in an hour."

I smile and can't wait to see her in her element.

We pull up in front of Sonar and Bella puts the car in drive. She turns her head to look at the kids.

"Alright little monsters. We are here. Please be on your best behavior."

"Ok Auntie. We will behave."

PJ agrees. But then again he is Jas' little shadow.

Bella get out of the car and goes over to Jas side to let her out. And I did the same to let PJ out of his booster seat. We walk to the club and I can hear music playing. Bella is holding PJ and I am holding Jas. I open the door for Bella.

"You're such a gentleman."

"Shhh. Don't tell anybody."

Bella throws her head back and starts to laugh.

"Well look at this. Isn't that a beautiful sight to see?"

The woman Bella introduced to me when I saw her at her show came up to us. I think her name is Terri. I looked around the club and the band was playing.

"Hey Terri."

Terri. I was right. I laugh at the thought. Terri gave Bella a hug.

"It's nice to see you again handsome."

She winks at me. Bella chuckles while I blush. I put Jas down and PJ puts his head on Bella's shoulder.

"Terri!" She looks at me and blush.

"Oh you thought I was talking about him?" She points at me.

"Oh no." She laughs.

"I was talking about that cutie pie in your arms."

Bella slaps her arm.

"It's good to see you again Edward."

"Good to see you too."

She smiles and turns her attention back to Bella.

"Jakes inside and we are ready whenever you are."

"Let's do it."

She hands PJ to me and we walk inside the club. I see a tall guy with rustic skin and short hair. He's on the phone and there is a pretty blonde with glasses with him. I think that's his assistant. She's is going through a blackberry. As we step closer to them I see that she looks really attractive with the square frames. She lifts her eyes from the blackberry and when they land on me I see they look hungry. It's been the story of my life.

I just wish that these women would just look past this pretty face. I never had a problem with getting women but I just wish they would see more of me. Not dark part of me. It's not fun when you are constantly being ogled. I laugh as she turns her eyes to Bella.

"There she is. The queen on my heart."

Bella chuckles and she blushes. I clench my jaw. She's the queen of my heart.

"Hey Jake."

Bella hugs him and I don't like the way his hand on her lower back.

"Jake this Edward. Edward Cullen."

"This is the famous Edward Cullen."

He reaches his hand for a shake.

"I've read your book. I have to say it was very interesting. I helped me out when we were on the road. I look forward to your next work."

"Thank you. It's in the work."

Bella looks at me. I take her hand to give it a squeeze. She turns her attention back to Jacob. Bella looks at the blonde and back at Jacob.

"Jake what happened to Lydia?'

Jacob smile fell.

"Lydia? Well I had to let her go."

"No Jacob you didn't?"

"What?"

Jacob tried to look innocent.

"Tell me you didn't?"

Jacob threw his head back and laughed.

"Ok I didn't."

"It's not funny. I told you not too."

"Sorry Bella. I was weak. And she came on to me. What is a man suppose to do?"

He directed to question to me. Like I am suppose to know what's going on.

"He slept with her. I told him that she had a puppy dog crush on him. And I told him don't do it. But true to Jacob Black fashion he slept with her. He sleeps with anything with legs."

She answered my question like she was a mind reader. But I couldn't help to think if Bella fell in the list of girls he slept with. I looked at Bella and I can't picture her type to do that. They way they act with each other it was clear they were anything more than friends.

"This is Bethany."

"Hey Bethany. If this guy gives you any problems let me know and I will set him straight."

Bethany didn't say anything. She just gave a smile saying she could take care of herself. One word that describes her and that is bitch

"Anyway, well you called and I am here. What's up?"

She takes of her cute hat off and put it on the table with the rest of the stuff. I look over at the kids and see they are at the next table. Bella brought stuff for them to keep them occupied. Terry put some sodas and chips on the table for them.

"Well I have good news and some bad news."

Bella groans.

"Give me the bad news first."

"Well. If you have any plans this evening I suggest your break them."

Bella scrunches her brows. I love how she looks when she does that. It just makes me want to kiss her little v on her forehead.

"I am afraid to ask what the good news is."

The bitch hands Jacob the blackberry she was so focused on. When she handed him the blackberry she turned her eyes to me and they darkened again. This time she dragged her teeth across her blood red lips and smiles. I turned to see if Bella sees her but she doesn't. I look back to Bethany and she leans back and opens her legs to show me she's not wearing any panties.

"Excuse me Bella."

I get up from the table to get away from Bethany. I walk over to the bar where a guy is cleaning up and I ask for a beer.

"Can I have one too?"

She's trying to sound sexy but it just sounds like a woman who has smoked entirely too much. I was just waiting for her to hack up a lung. I chuckle at that thought.

"So you're Edward Cullen."

"Yes I am."

I take a swig of my beer.

"I am so honored to meet you. When I picked up your book I couldn't but it down. I read it in a day"

I turned to look at her and I noticed that she opened two of her buttons of her white shirt. I see she's wearing a purple bra.

"I really enjoyed your book. I have to admit when I read your book I pictured myself as your love interest."

I just sat there and listened to her. The more she was talking I was being put off by how hard she was trying to get my attention. I turned by back to the bar and just watched Bella. She looked at me and smile. I smiled back.

"Jacob and I are in town for a couple of nights. I would really love it if you can meet me in my hotel room for drinks tonight."

"I don't think so."

I sat there drinking my beer watching Bella. She has a big smile as she is talking to Jacob.

"I will make it a night you will never forget."

She starts to touch the collar of my black shirt. I look down at her fingers playing on my shirt and I look up into her grey eyes. She has too much makeup on. I didn't like that. Even with the French tart. Wait did I call her a French tart? Bella is definitely rubbing off of me. I thought she wore to much make up too. Bella didn't need make up. She is all natural. And when she didn't wear make up it was so light you couldn't even tell. She was perfect. Her face is perfect. Her body is perfect too. My member twitched.

I groan and she took that as an invitation to touch my hair. I move my head and I look at her again.

"What do you say? I can order some room service and we can just get lost in each other."

She leans closer and I can smell her perfume and I want to gag. She smelled like she bathed in the stuff.

She tries to touch my cheek and I grab her hand. And her eyes get darker. Uh-oh she is the do me rough type of girl.

"Bethany is it. No thanks. I am good."

"No?"

I start to walk away and I say no again.

"Edward! Guess what?"

Bella runs to me and jumps wrapping her legs around my waist.

"What?" I say and I can't help see Bethany's sneer on her face.

"Jacob booked me a gig for tonight. I love it I can't wait."

"That's great."

"I want you there. Tell me you will be there."

With her smiling like that at me, how can I disappoint her?

"Of course I will be there."

She yelps and starts kissing me all over my face.

The rest of the day went by fast. Bella was singing and making changes of what she wanted on her tour and the songs she is going to sing tonight. My heart swelled when I saw her doing what she loves. I could tell that she's going to blow them away. She also played the sad song she was singing this morning with her band. It was amazing. And while she was singing it I saw a tear slide down her cheeks.

We are driving to the club and Bella isn't a bit nervous. It was just her and I tonight. We left the kids with Angela. She was more than happy to help. I can see us doing this together. I can see me going on tour with her and writing my book while we are on the bus or plane she uses. I can see the kids with us as we travel and they are having fun. Children wouldn't be bad for us. I can see us visiting Emmett and Rosalie when they have more children. Bella would probably take the kids so they can have time alone. We can be happy together. I know we will be.

She takes my hand and squeezes. I look up at the club and it is packed with people. The line is around the club. As she parks in the back she blew out a breath.

"Nervous?'

"No."

She looks at me and I lean and kiss her.

"What's that for?' she says breathless.

"You are going to knock them dead."

She smiles and we get out of the car. She knocks on the big door and a very big bouncer opens the door and lets us in. As soon as we step in everything goes by so fast. People grab her and drag her into the room for hair and makeup. It seems like everybody is running all over the place. Bella looks up at me as they are doing her hair and make up and I wink at her.

Ladies and Gentleman is you ready to have a good time?

The crowd erupts in shouts and clapping.

I can't hear you!

The MC gets the crowd all excited.

That's what I like to hear. This little lady wanted to come and spend some time with you. Please give it up for Bella Swan.

The crowd goes crazy. Bella steps out of the stage and the screams getting louder. I can't see her face good because of the bright lights, I know she is blushing. She steps up to the mic and adjusts it.

"Hello Sonar. How are you tonight?'

The crowd yells back at her.

"I have a couple of songs to sing. We are going to have a good time? Sing along if you know the song."

The drummer starts to hit his sticks together and the band start to play. I know this song. Bella puts her lips to the mic and she starts to sing. I am amazed how many people know her song. They sing along with her. At times in the song she stops singing and the she hears the crowd. I can imagine how much she loves to hear people singing her songs. These songs are her babies. She wrote them and put them together with her band. I smiled as I look out of the small space at the people dancing and singing along with her.

The song ends and she starts singing a slower song. She starts to sing and both hands are holding the mic stand. She closes her eyes and she starts to swell with the song. Her voice is soft and husky. She opens her eyes and looks at me as she sings. The music swirls around her body and out of her voice. She doesn't break eye contact with me through the whole song. I can't hear the words that she's singing but I feel them. It touched my heart as she sings about loving this person. I want to run on stage and wrap her in my arms. I want to kiss her beautiful mouth. The song ends and Bella is breathless. I let go of the breath I didn't know I was holding.

"Are you guys ready to dance?"

The crowd shouts they are and the music is a fast one. She starts swaying her body and starts singing. I am so proud of her.

"Thanks guys. It was an honor to share this with you."

She tells them about her upcoming tour and tells them she hopes to see them there. The crowd cheers for her and she bows. She looks so freaking cute. She kisses both hands at her fans and leaves the stage. She runs to my arms and kisses me. I was shocked at what she did but it didn't stop me to put both hands behind her thick hair and hold her in the kiss.

"That was amazing." She said breathless.

She takes my hand and takes me to the dressing room. She closes the door with her foot and kisses me again. She groans as I slip my tongue in her waiting mouth. She slips hers in mouth and I suck on her sweet tongue. She moans. I pull back and look at her cloudy eyes. I put my forehead against her.

"I want us to try again?" I say breathless.

"I do too. But."

"But what?" I say and pull back to look at her face.

"You need clear things up with your tart."

I chuckle and feel my phone vibrate. I pull back from Bella's embrace and reach for my phone. I laugh at the name.

"Speak of the devil."

I show her the name and she laughs too.

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