A/N; So I got sent an anonymous message asking how I know so much about babies and birth doctor stuff. Well the answer is I watch too much television! I get information from 16 and Pregnant, One Born EveryMinute, Grey's Anatomy, and Private Practice, I google anything else I need information on like the Placenta Pervia condition I found out about that on One Born Every Minute and I googled extra information to get more facts. True answer I have too much time on my hands and I'm a geek ;)
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Sorry for mumbling on for a bit but you know, feel free to ask me questions I will answer them! Enjoy Chapter 8
Disclaimer; I do not own Austin and Ally.
Chapter 8 – She's Beautiful
-{Austin}-
I pull on set of blue scrubs. I get forced into a plastic hat similar to a shower cap encasing my blonde mop of hair. I have to put on these weird plastic shoes over my shoes a smaller version than the one on my head. I look up in the mirror of the hospital changing room and see my pale face; there is no hiding the fear in my hazel eyes. I slap my cheeks bringing colour to my face I can't let Ally see how afraid I am I need to be strong for her.
I'm given a quick smile of support from my mother and father and a reassuring pat on the back from Lester, Ally's father as I am escorted into the operating room by a nurse wearing a matching outfit as me. Ally looks so small and frightened laying on the operating table a shower cap disguising her beautiful long brown hair.
"Austin" Ally breathed her eyes brightened as they met mine.
I rushed to Ally's side grabbing hold of her hand.
"I'm sorry I wasn't here immediately, but I'm here now." I kissed her forehead.
"Have they started yet? I can't feel a thing" Ally whispered.
"No they haven't just yet. Don't worry everything is going to be fine" I flashed a reassuring smile trying to look as convincing as possible.
I had no idea if everything was going to be ok. My heart raced faster than a cheetah in the wild. Ally gripping my hand was just as much a comfort to me as it is for her. The whole atmosphere was terrifying. The risks for the baby and for Ally circled my brain refusing to be pushed out though my ears taunting me. Mocking me, reminding me that there is nothing I can do. I feel so helpless, everything is out of my control, and it makes me angry this is my baby I need to make sure she's safe but I can't.
I breathe I can't let my emotions leak from my brain to my face. I can't crack and let Ally know how afraid I am, she needs me. My heart aches as Ally bites her lower lip, her right hand desperately searching for her missing necklace. She looks so innocent, too young to be tossed into this whirlwind situation, she doesn't belong here. Ally constantly glances at me squeezing my hand. I force a smile and whisper sweet nothings to keep her strong to keep her from being scared, to get her though this.
I get a minor heart attack, I stop myself from jumping with fear as a doctor slices open Ally's stomach a line of blood chases the scalpel in his gloved hand. The doctor made me feel calm I knew Ally was in safe hands. The doctor was an elder African American man he was bald with a short stubbley beard with flickers of grey sprinkled across his face. He had deep brown eyes and crinkles at the corners of his eyes displaying his wisdom. He was so focused carefully opening up Ally's stomach his movements were all precise and calculated to perfection, I could tell he had done this a million times before. His voice was strong dripping with authority that demanded respect as he order tools from the short brunette nurse. Although I knew he was doing everything right and he was a fantastic surgeon, my heart still skipped beats as I squeezed Ally's small hand in mine.
"They've started" I whispered to Ally kissing her forehead "Everything's going to be fine"
-{Ally}-
It felt so weird. I was wide awake but half my body was completely asleep. I trusted the doctors whole heartedly, there is something about Doctor Avery his dark charming eyes shining in on his dark face and his short beard flickered with grey that made me feel like everything was going to be ok. But I was still afraid, I gave up trying to be strong hours ago it was far to tiring I gave into my emotion.
I couldn't feel it but I knew I was being sliced open. It felt like when you make your arm go numb and you run a finger up your arm, I can fell no pain. I was so nervous. I groped my neck searching for my treble clef necklace I panicked when I realised it wasn't there, I breathed a sigh of relief when I realised that I had to put it away before surgery but I still felt lost without it.
I glanced up at Austin. He was gorgeous even in hideous blue hospital scrubs. A plastic cap pulled hid Austin's golden hair; he looks so strange with no hair on his face he looked a bit like a drowned puppy with his large hazel eyes. It was Austin and Austin alone that was helping me though this. He's so strong. He smiled at me each time I caught his glance, I wanted to smile back but I couldn't fear had taken control of my body but he made he feel so much better. Relief shot though me each time he whispered words of encouragement words of support and love that made me believe I could get through this but there was no way I could have done it without him.
My eyes scanned the operating room memories of the last time I came to this hospital threatened to invade my brain. Ghosts of my past, floating around the operating table. Memories of pain and loss made their way to the surface. My eyes threatened to explode with tears. I closed my eyes tight in order to swallow my tears forcing the memories from my brain. Austin noticed my pain he stoked my face squeezing my hand tight kissing my forehead softly.
"It's ok, Ally, it's ok, I'm here I always will be" Austin whispered. His voice was poetic and beautiful evacuating the ghosts of my past from my head.
My eyes dried and heart rate slowed. I focused on Austin, the baby and the future I refused to ponder on the past or accept the present. I kept hold of Austin's eyes with my own. Looking into his eyes was an escape. I wasn't on an operating table with a thousand people fussing with my exposed body; my past never happened everything was perfect it was just me and Austin. Austin's eyes are a world full of music and intense love where nothing bad ever happens.
"Look Als, the babies here" Austin whispered looking at the baby breaking my glance tearing me from my perfect world.
"Really?" I asked softly. A cry filled my ears. My uterus felt empty. Dr Avery pulled a tiny baby of a doll from my insides; she was screaming bright pink and covered with blood.
"She's beautiful" I whispered. Everything went black.
-{Austin}-
"She's beautiful" Ally whispered.
I was mesmerised by my daughter so tiny, so perfect. My eyes couldn't leave her. A loud disturbing beeping filled my ears sending shock though my body.
"Ally? ALLY?" I asked panic rising. Ally wasn't responding. Her eyes were firmly closed her arms flimsy one resting on her chest the other hanging loosely off the side of the operating table.
My heart ached. I stepped back watching the chaos arising in the operating room. A crowd of nurses surrounded my daughter they placed a wool hat on her tiny head attaching pipes and tubes into her tiny body. It broke my heart seeing the baby being rushed into an incubator attached to so many machines; it was like she wasn't even human.
Doctors hovered around Ally and her open stomach blood everywhere. Tears welled looking at Ally's lifeless face on the operating table. The beeping won't stop. I don't know what's going on. I feel powerless. This is wrong, I'm the dad, I'm supposed to be the one who makes everything better, and I'm not supposed to be standing here. A nurse attaches a tube to Ally's mouth. Can she not breathe? Fear possessed me. What if I lose her? What if I lose both of them? Tears began to steam from my eyes, I know it's not manly but I don't care.
"Austin, do you mind stepping out of the operating room? We will come and get you when everything is over?" A kindly short brunette asked.
"Wait, what's going on?" I asked her desperately.
"I'll explain later" She replied "Please you have to leave"
"Is she going to be ok? Is Ally going to be ok? Is the baby going to be ok?" I asked in desperation walking from the room in agony.
"It's too soon to tell" With that the nurse shut the door to the operating room. I fell to the floor of the hallway tears freely streaming from my eyes my hands cradling my face.
A/N; I'm sorry to leave it here but I have you keep you coming right? And it's quite short but I will update soon!
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