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Chapter Three; how deep his eyes were

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Ah, Halloween. Probably my third least favorite holiday, next to Christmas, and my birthday. Notice how everybody else usually loves those holidays?

Especially Kairi. Especially our birthday.

But enough of that.

I have yet to explain what was so special about October 30th.

So anyways, there I was, sitting all on my lonesome in the stairwell. My daily lunch routine consisted of me eating some gross slop from the cafeteria, and doodling in my notepad. Those two things managed to fill up a whole hour and a half of my day. I always thought that the lunch period was too long, but people with friends-- People like Kairi, could strongly disagree. Even Xion loved our seemingly endless lunch period; And Xion didn't 'love' a lot of things.

Kairi was not the only sibling of mine to pass through the stairwell that day. Even the dark haired, pale skinned Xion strolled on through with her tall, rather lanky friend Axel. I wondered if the two of them had a 'thing' together, but knew not to ask those questions. Not unless I wanted to have my throat slit...

The two walked towards the same exit Kairi, Selphie and Sora had left through. Was she interested in this 'new kid' too? Probably not, Xion wasn't really like that.

"Hey." She said, waving slightly to me as she passed. This wasn't unusual; Xion was actually somewhat decent to me. We didn't exactly get along, but we certainly didn't argue constantly. At that point in my life, our relationship was more of a mutual understanding. We both knew what it felt like to be tortured by Kairi.

"Hi." I replied, smiling weakly. Xion's friend made me a little nervous.

"You coming to see this new guy everyone's raving about?" She inquired, and I shook my head.

"Naw... I don't think it really concerns me." I answered.

"Good answer." Axel laughed. My face flushed when his green eyes fell upon me, since I was so not used to people talking to me-- Especially guys.

"Well, I wanna see how much of a fag this guy really is." Xion snorted. "He's probably like Kairi's friends."

"That's what I thought too." I laughed.

"Alright, come on Ax, lets bolt." She shoved her redheaded friend toward the doors. He waved a little to me, and I meekly returned it. I always felt weird when people talked to me, it was such a bad trait.

I sat there doodling, probably for about forty-five minutes before another person decided to pass through my stairwell. Yes, my stairwell... Its not like anybody else sat there, and my uncle was the principle of the school so... I claimed it. Mine, mine, mine. It was one of the few things I felt I really owned, but of course I still had to share it...

This time, the person coming through came from outside the building. I couldn't see his face, only spiky blond hair. From behind, he looked a little like Sora. It then occurred to me; The new kid? Probably. He looked kinda preppy...

But when he turned around, well needless to say I was thoroughly shocked. It must have been the hair, or maybe those big, pale blue eyes... Everything about him looked so familiar, but at the same time it comforted me. And why did it feel that way? Well, as I examined his face I realized it almost instantly. Is that...!?

But before I had the chance to even think over asking him, he was gone. And as he passed, I barely even noticed how badly I was staring at him, wide thankfully, he didn't notice either. He just went on his merry way, passing through the stairwell, not uttering a peep to me. I sighed. Just like everyone else.

I sat there, now completely baffled. Was that really him? The boy who'd saved me, only months before. His face was still fresh in my mind. It had never left my memory; Not once since I last met him. There were often times where I wondered about him; Who he was, if I'd ever see him again... And now, right in my own school, lied my opportunity. A small smile passed my lips. If he was the boy who'd saved me, then he would certainly remember me... Right?

And maybe he wasn't just like everyone else. I mean-- He saved me. I didn't know what those men could have done. They might have killed me, or maybe just done some of those horrible things I sometimes read about in the newspaper. Either way, I at least owed him my thanks. He deserved that much. He didn't have to save me that night. He very well could have just left me there, even after the men had gone. I believe it was his choice to watch me, and take me home when I finally awoke. No... Not just anyone would do that.

So I decided; Made a plan. I would talk to him, even if it meant complete and total embarrassment.

* * *

After school rolled around (my favorite part of the day) and I left the school in a hurry. I used my expert eavesdropping skills to listen in on some gossip that the new kid would be playing basketball again outside after school. I wondered if he was trying out for the team, or maybe he just enjoyed the sport. I still didn't know his name...

So I went to the basket ball courts, which were a little near my stairwell. And sure enough, I saw a crowd of people I knew at the 'cool clique', consisting of Kairi (dur), Selphie, Sora, Riku, and Tidus. I noticed that my hero-- I mean, the new guy was playing one-on-one basket ball with another kid, Hayner. Hayner's two friends I knew as Pence and Olette cheered the two on from the sidelines.

I grew nervous; This would be much easier without a crowd. But I remembered the promise I'd made to myself at lunch-- I would talk to him, even if it meant complete and total embarrassment.

So I did.

I marched right up to the court, and well... I patiently waited for the game to be over. Him and Hayner finally stopped their sparring, and he grabbed a water bottle from beside his backpack. He really got into the sport; I could tell by his sweatiness and flushed cheeks. Somehow, even in a state like that, he managed to look really cute. I think he was possibly the first boy I was ever attracted to, even in the least. I never payed attention to things like looks, because I never understood relationships and boyfriends. I had no sexual nature, obviously.

"See you guys later." He said, waving to his new friends. I rolled my eyes as Kairi and Selphie swooned at his simple goodbye.

Typical.

All of the others that were spectating him then dispersed, leaving me alone on the premises. I gulped. This is going to be tough...

After many moments of anticipation, I realized that he was going to leave. The only reason he still dwelled was because he was packing his stuff into his bag. So, I swallowed my anxiety and walked right up to him. He stood up straight after bending over to close his pack. When his eyes met mine, I was suddenly at a loss for words. He stared at me oddly. After a moment of me just staring right into his hypnotic eyes, he broke the silence.

"Hello..." He said, his voice as smooth and wonderful as I remembered it. I knew this was him... It had to be.

"H-Hi." I stammered quietly.

"Can I uh, help you?" He queried, uncertainty lacing his voice.

"I know you." I suddenly sputtered, taking him completely off guard. He raised an eyebrow.

"You do?"

I nodded. "Yes. I do."

"I'm sorry..." He laughed. "But I don't know you."

A sudden rush of sorrow washed over me. He doesn't remember? I opened my mouth to speak but no words came, like a lump was forming in my throat. I quickly swallowed it, before he thought I was too weird.

"Y-You don't remember?"

He shook his head. "No."

"My name is Naminé." I saw a slight change in his expression, but it wasn't all that noticeable. I just can sometimes overanalyze things... "I was out for a walk, two or so months ago... Just before school started. I got lost, you helped me..."

His face fell. "I don't know you." He insisted, his velvety voice suddenly unnecessarily brash.

"B-But... I know it was you." I expressed. "I remember! I just wanted to say thank--"

"Don't." He cut me off. His face now read the utmost seriousness. It almost frightened me... But I couldn't see him that way. He wasn't a bad person; I could tell by how deep his eyes were. "Look... I don't know who you are." He looked around and lowered his voice, careful that no one nearby would overhear our conversation. He bit his lip slightly, before looking straight into my glassy eyes. "Now quit being a freak and leave me alone."

My eyes widened. Almost immediately my chest pained at his harsh words. I'd been called a freak before, but I had put faith into this boy. Though it was true I did not know that, at the time I was so young and naive. I felt like I already knew him, just because he saved my life. But no, that was not the case. If only I'd been more careful...

He turned to walk away, but without thinking I stopped him. I lightly tapped his bare arm, which felt cool to the touch. He shuddered a little.

"Don't walk away." I pleaded. "Who are you?."

He turned to face me, his eyes showing a glimmer of sadness which somehow broke my heart. His eyes had that power over me, it was something I could not control. "Nobody important." He replied, his words bringing back a faint memory.

"See!" I exclaimed. "There! Its you, I know its you." And yet again, he raised an eyebrow. Before he could criticize me further, I continued. "I asked you who you were, and you replied nobody important. I remember you saving me, you walked me home and everything, and you mentioned those bad guys, Organization Thirteen, was it?"

Suddenly, he tightly clasped his hand over my mouth. My eyes widened, wondering what he was doing. But it all happened so fast, I didn't know what to say. Not that I could speak anyways, what with his hand clasped so tightly over my mouth. I felt my cheeks redden considerably from the sudden contact. Not only was I not used to talking to men, I was certainly not used to being touched by them. In any way.

"Don't talk about them." He growled. "Do you have any idea how dangerous that is? If they find out you know about them, you're dead. I'm serious."

And he very well was serious. The look in his eyes showed to lies at all, not even in the least. I quickly grew frightened. Once he read my shocked expression, I think that he knew I got the message. Very slowly, dramatically, he removed his hand.

"Come on." He said through a sigh. "Lets go for coffee. I owe you an explanation..."

Author's note: Hey everyone! Thanks for the reviews, I really appreciate it! :D. A reviewer pointed out that I put in October 29th in the last chapter. I meant October 30th aha :P.

*Edit* I changed the summery displayed for the story.

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