Chad POV

Sonny's diary

"I'm tired of crying,

I'm tired of yelling,

I'm tired of pretending,

I'm tired of being alone,

I'm tired of being angry,

I'm tired feeling stuck,

I'm tired of feeling crazy,

I'm tired of needing help,

I'm tired of missing friends,

I'm tired of remembering,

I'm tired of feeling worthless,

I'm tired of feeling empty inside,

I'm tired of not being able to let go,

I'm tired of wishing I could start over,

I'm tired of dreaming of a life I would never have,

But most of all I'm tired of being tired."

On the other page it said.

"It's my wrist not yours, my scars not yours, my way of handling pain. Don't judge me unless you've been through what I have been through. I cut and cut the interal pain will never go away, mentally I feel sane but only for a few. The scars and the cuts will heal, but the pain inside me never will. I can cover what I feel inside with a smile. But they will

Never know the pain burning inside me how many nights I cry myself to sleep, how many cuts and scars are all over my body. How many times I've thrown up, how long I've not eaten for. What makes everything worse is going back to it all , the same people who made me feel the way I feel now, wanting to die, starving myself, everything. Those people are smiling in my face now trying to be my friend now. Like nothing happened between us, like they never pushed me around. Threw my books away stole my stuff and trash it, not like they didn't make my life hell."

I left the book there and went downstairs to tell Sonny that I had to go. I wiped my tears away and tried to make myself look presentable. I don't deserve her, I took part in making her feel worthless. I Really fucked up.

I walked into the kitchen to see sonny and her mom talking.

"Um, hey sonny?" they both turn to look at me.

Her mother gives a concern smile.

"Yeah?" she says

"I..I'm gonna go." I say scratching my head.

"Wait, I have to tell you something else." she tells me

"hold on a second."

"Ok...?" I walk back upstairs to her room.

After a couple of minutes she walks in.

"Chad, I don't want you to feel responsible. I'm sorry if you feel like I put all the blame on you. We were both young, I don't know what I would have done If the tables were turned. Your parents were going through a divorce, I want to forgive you, but I don't want you to think that you can just drop me like that, like I'm nothing. I don't trust you 100 percent yet. I want to make sure you will be here even when things get bad."

She tells me.

"I understand and I want you to trust me I want to be there for you. I am going to be here, things aren't always gonna be great, but I will be there through the good and bad, I want to start over, I want to be best friends again."

I hug her and give her a reassuring smile.

"Yes, best friends." she laughs.

"Well, I really do have to go or my mom would kill me."

I tell her and she laughs.

"Yes, I remember how your mom is." She smiles and walks me out the door.

"See you tomorrow?" I ask.

"See you." She smiles then walks out

I say and exit. How Can I get her to trust me again?

Sonny Pov

After practically having a mental breakdown with Chad my mother calls me down to see what I want for dinner. I guess she can tell that I am upset because she asks me what's wrong. When I told her she told me that I cant put all the blame on him, making him feel that much pressure.

Then Chad comes down and tells me he has to go. I Have to tell him that its not all his fault. I finish my conversation with my mom and head up to my room. After we talk he then leaves.

I plop down on my bed to text Penelope.

Sonny: Penelope!

Pen: Yes?

Sonny: Hi (:

Pen: Hey how was your day?

Sonny: Pretty Good, So Whatcha doin?

Pen: Laying down,You?

Sonny: Same, do you wanna have a sleepover tomorrow!

Pen: Sure =D

Sonny: Yay! Hey I have to go my mom is calling me for dinner.

Food :3

Pen: lol, ok bye

Sonny; Byeeeee(:

I turn over to go downstairs, then I see something.

Did that asshole read my diary?