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Chapter 4: Alone With the Stars
Down at the fire Kotoko and Sai sat in silence watching the crackling fire. Kotoko poked the fire with a stick, just as Naruto
had done earlier. Kotoko looked back at the blonde boy, who was now mumbling Sakura's name in his sleep. Sai withdrew his sketchbook and pastels then started to sketch the flames. Kotoko looked over at the boy's picture curiously.
"So are you an artist?" Kotoko asked, surprised. "Not really. I just like to spend my time drawing." He responded, switching to a different color pastel. "Who knew you could be so...emotional." The girl commented. Sai stopped sketching and glanced up at her. "I'm not." He said, his eyes also betraying no emotion when he said it.
" But, usually when you draw something you're putting the emotion you had at the time into it." She said confused. "I don't put emotions into my drawings. I can't." He said, getting back to his work. Kotoko looked at him curiously, but didn't anything more about it.
Kotoko found her eyes wandering from his drawing up to his handsome pale face. Then they slowly moved down his body. For some reason she found Sai's strange behavior and his personality attractive, but she found his body even more attractive. Sai did annoy her, quite a bit actually, but she couldn't help but find it all a bit humorous. Kotoko's eyes traveled back up to Sai's face, studying every detail. The kunoichi soon found herself blushing.
Sai had felt her gaze on him, but ignored it. Then he felt her gaze linger on him for a long time. He couldn't take it anymore. "Why is it you keep staring at me?" Sai asked, looking up at her. Kotoko snapped out of her daze and blushed even more. It took her a moment to register what he asked. "Um...well." Kotoko mumbled, starting to sweat.
Sai continued to stare at her. "I think I might've read about this emotion before." He said, putting down his sketch book and pastels. He then got up and walked over to the other side of the fire were Kotoko was sitting. Kneeling down , he got really close to her. Kotoko inched backwards a bit in shock.
Sai put his arms on both sides of her, pinning her to the tree that stood behind her. "Well, well, this is my first time seeing this emotion for myself." He breathed in Kotoko's ear, he trailed his breathes down her neck and then back up to her ear. Sai used one of his hands to gently brush his finger tips down her arm, causing the girl to shiver. 'What's gotten into him?' Kotoko thought.
Kotoko didn't mind Sai's actions, but it was really strange for Sai to act like he was. "What are you doing?" Kotoko whispered. Sai smirked, he was enjoying making Kotoko squirm underneath him. Sai leaned in closer and closer, seeming like he was about to kiss the girl. Kotoko's heart started racing and she closed her eyes as she braced herself for the kiss, but nothing came. She felt a breeze as Sai, lifted away from her. She opened her eyes and looked at him questioningly.
Sai smirked, trying his best not to laugh. "But unfortunately, I'm not experienced with this emotion whatsoever." He said, going back over to his original sitting spot. "What was that for?!" Kotoko asked, her face red with fury and embarrassment. "Don't loose your cool. I just wanted to see your reaction." Sai said, innocently. He honestly didn't realize the extent of his actions. He only knew that being close to someone who liked you would cause them to become flustered, but he did not know all the fine workings and actions of making it happen.
"You...You jackass!" Kotoko growled. "Lower your voice or you'll wake everyone." The dark haired boy said, glancing over at Kakashi.
Kotoko sighed. "Hey. What do you mean you 'read about emotions before'?" She asked curiously. Sai looked down into the blazing fire. "Well you see.." He started.
"I don't have any emotions. The little that I do know about emotions, I've learned from reading and a few other sources." Sai said casually. Kotoko stared at him for a moment then finally spoke. "What do you mean 'you don't have emotions' everyone has emotions even if they don't want them." She stated.
"But, I don't." He disagreed. "I've been trained not to have emotions. Even if I somehow had them I wouldn't know what I was feeling." Kotoko had her mouth slightly open in shock. "Oh..." She said, looking at the ground with a sad look in her golden eyes. "What's with you?" The dark haired boy asked, looking up at her. "I'm sorry..." The ebony haired girl whispered, almost regrettably.
Sai didn't respond he just stared at the ground. He looked up when he saw a shadow hover above him. Kotoko kneeled down and wrapped her arms around his shoulders, pulling him into an embrace. "What the hell are you doing?" Sai asked, attempting to pull away. "I thought you needed a hug." The girl said pulling away from him.
"I don't need anything." Sai said, looking away. "You say you don't have emotions, but there must have been a time where you've had to feel something." Kotoko said, looking up at the boy. "No not at all." Was the boy's response.
"Have you not have someone you knew die?!" Kotoko asked, getting frustrated. "Actually, I have." Sai said, his voice keeping its normal tone. "My brother died, but when he died, I wasn't sure what I was supposed to feel."
Kotoko looked at him with confusion in her eyes. "I told you I don't have emotions." Sai said. Kotoko didn't understand. Everyone had to have emotions or else they weren't human, right? "As for you, I don't see what could possess you to feel something such as that." The dark haired shinobi glanced at her.
"So I guess I can conclude you've never felt this way before?" The kunoichi asked. "No, but I do like seeing you act this way because I can tease you about it." Sai said, a smirk forming on his face. Kotoko's face turned red in anger. "You jerk!" She nearly yelled, slapping him across the face. She got up and stomped back to her original sitting spot.
"So emotional..." Sai muttered to himself. He got his sketchbook and started working on another drawing, but this time it was an abstract. While Sai was drawing, everything was silent. Sai thought that was strange and looked over at Kotoko. Her arms were wrapped around her legs which were drawn up to her chest and her head was resting in her lap. She was fast asleep. Sai stared at her for a moment then got back to his drawing. If he had emotions he would probably be feeling bad about himself, but he didn't have emotions so what he was currently feeling was what he always felt and that was nothing at all.