Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran High School Host Club nor this unnamed charater witch I think turned into a big Mary-sue dispite my attempts to make her NOT be one. I do not own Razorblades by Story of the Year nor do I make profit from them.

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Razorblades

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This wasted so many nights and again

Yuri came back into the room to see that Hikaru was gone and Haruhi was gone too. Yet when she came back, she also saw Kaoru crying silently through closed eyes. She felt her heart break. She hated seeing someone down, but then again...that was life.

"You shouldn't be here," Kaoru said hoarsely.

"No?" Yuri asked lightly as she walked over to his bedside and sat down next to him. Her bangs hid her eyes and her hair hid her face, her head was bowed down, staring at the white bedspread that the hospitals supplied.

Kaoru didn't argue with her when she sat down. She wasn't going to listen to him, and he didn't feel like hurting someone else. When he saw Hikaru run away, it tore at him, but he knew it had to be done. "I told him to go and leave me behind."

Yuri didn't make a sound, nor did she perk up at the words. "You gave up on him?" She asked softly.

"Not gave up, I gave in." Kaoru corrected.

Yuri looked up at him her brown eyes were clouded by confusion and the line in her lips were sucked in as if she was thinking. Yet, she didn't bother asking him at the moment.

Kaoru realized that he didn't like that look in her eyes. It made her look defeated. Then again, that was the same look she had gave them when she was thinking who was who. The first person to play their game and lost, and the first person that wasn't Haruhi to sit down next to him, the first girl to sit down in Hikaru's and Haruhi's usual seat.

He kinda liked the feeling of someone that wasn't new. But he also felt a little bit scared at the same time. It made everything feel final. Like it was written in stone, and couldn't be erased.

"Gave in?" Yuri asked finally after the silence was building tension. "What do you mean?"

"I mean is that, I told him to stop worrying about me, and start worrying about Haruhi. She's his girl now. She's his other half. Not me. Not anymore." Kaoru said to her.

Yuri nodded silently. "I see." Yet, she was only more confused. Kaoru would do anything for his brother right? So then, why did he let him go? Did the other twin just felt like it was too much? Yuri had no idea, but it wasn't her territory to tread.

Kaoru bit his lip as he sighed.

I've wasted so much time on a friend

"Visiting hours is almost up." Yuri said trying to start a conversation with him. "Do you want me to leave early? I mean you nearly kicked me out a couple of minuets ago."

"No, stay." Kaoru told her. "I need the company."

"Your not used to being alone," Yuri said to him. As an only child she got used to being alone, yet being alone did have dire costs. It meant that no one was going to stick up for you and that you had no one to stick up for that wasn't your blood. It was harsh, especially if you were the rich type. When you were alone, everyone around thought you made it easy.

Kaoru frowned at the words spoken. Being alone, was scary. He didn't know what paths to take, what paths to turn, witch was the bad types to tread on and witch were sturdy. He didn't even know witch path to take again and witch one not to. Hikaru usually picked the pathways. Not Kaoru. Never Kaoru. He only followed his brother faithfully, holding his hand. Yet this fork in the road, he went down with Haurhi.

"No, not really." Kaoru lied to save a little bit of his pride that he had.

"Its okay," Yuri sensed the lie, but not completely. "its hard sometimes, but sometimes its a good thing."

"A good thing of being alone? Really? I doubt it." Kaoru hissed.

Yuri glared at him, knowing all to well that he was the time to be a little bit of a prick without his brother around. And they always said that when they were apart it was easier to tell them apart. At the moment? She was confused as hell. This twin was acting like the other twin. "It is. It means your not independent on others anymore...even though I can't say much since I'm usually always going to mother for advice."

To young to proud to understand

"Advice?"

"If you live in the world by yourself, your going to get lost. Its okay to ask for help. Its okay to make your own choices. There's freedom and consequences, but all well worth it if you know what you want to do with yourself. The worlds brutal. From my experiences and other peoples, they can tell you its a harsh world. School...won't protect you for long. Brothers and sisters go different ways, but always cross paths once in the while." Yuri explained, "The only children in the world, have to grow up faster, and a lot more harder. They can go to their parents for advice, but they don't have anyone to cross paths with besides close relatives and friends. They don't have a brother and sister waiting for them. You are the lucky type."

"Lucky?" Kaoru scoffed at the word and at her explanation. He didn't ask for an hour long lecture.

Yuri frowned at his word, "Yes. Lucky."

"Why the hell would I be lucky?" Kaoru asked her angerily. "I lost my brother, I lost my friend, I lost my pride..."

"You lost your pride?" Now it was Yuri's turn to scoff at this. "That's funny. From the last I heard, your still saving some. And now you say you lost it? Boo-hoo pity me." She mocked at younger twin. "Don't you think its time to give up your damned act and admit defeat? Yeah its bitter medicine to swallow. But at least you have something that can make you cross the bridge anytime. When you do and the gate's gone, then maybe just maybe you can understand a little bit more what pride really is."

"So you think you know everything Yuri? Is that it? You just know this information while looking at it?" Kaoru growled at her.

Yuri fell silent. "Your right I don't know what I'm talking about. But..."

"Don't even start." Kaoru warned her.

Yuri did a heated glance over at the clock before standing up, "Visiting hours are up. I think I should go talk to your brother. And maybe you should swallow more of your self-pity. Its bitter, but maybe you think it tastes good. I don't know. I never pitied myself before. Maybe its time you should start looking to see how much..."

"Go damn it." Kaoru growled.

"how much you changed." Yuri finished as if nothing even happened. She turned on her heel so fast, Kaoru swore she just left a burnt mark into the flooring. As she walked away and the door slamming against the frame. Kaoru sighed. Self-pity? What the hell was the girl talking about?

So this is the end