Author's Note: Man I just realized that in my first three chapters, I didn't put the disclaimer thing. PLEASE DONT SUE ME PEOPLE!! I'm going to remember to put it now. I think I edited the chapters, so they should show the disclaimers now, but in the event they dont... I DO NOT OWN INUYASHA.

I'm giving you another disclaimer anyway.

Disclaimer: Still don't own Inuyasha.

Summary: Inuyasha is presented with a one-time opportunity – to become a full demon. With his childhood years, not to mention the first ever reason for hunting down the Shikon Jewel in mind, his choice seems apparent – a no-brainer. But there's a catch. Becoming a demon will mean giving up the life he knows now. In fact, only he will remember his life as a hanyou, while others will now only know him as Inuyasha the youkai. Is he willing to give everything and everyone up?

Chapter Four

Kagome lay on her bed, huddled behind the sheets, wishing she could disappear. She hugged the damp pillow closer to her, wondering if her tears would ever cease. She hadn't expect it to hurt this bad. And yet…

After she left Inuyasha dumbfounded in the forest, she tried to find her way back to the village. Her trek was shorter than she thought it would be – convinced that she and Inuyasha had travelled very far into the wood – but then again, the shorter the better. Unfortunately, by the time she had reached the hut, her tears were passed the 'tears' stage. Now water was simply flooding from her eyes.

Naturally everyone seemed extremely concerned: a series of "what happened?", "are you alright?" and "where's Inuyasha?" were shot her way in rapid succession. But what was she supposed to say to them? That he was erasing their lives as they knew it? That she had told him that she loved him and all he could do was blink? She couldn't trust herself to speak coherently, nothing expect the words: "I'm never coming back here again!"

Or was it: "I hate Inuyasha! I just hate him!"

…Maybe it was both.

"It doesn't matter now." She told herself out loud. Her voice sounded raspy from all the crying. "By tomorrow this will all go away."

Tomorrow. She had never been so afraid for a new day like this. It was a feeling of dread. Tomorrow she'd wake up, put on her school uniform, proceed with morning activities like brushing teeth and combing hair. She'd probably sit down with her family and eat breakfast for once, then rush out the door to catch up with her friends – Yuka, Eri and Ayumi. They'd probably all fall into conversation on a topic they had been discussing the day before – one that was foreign to Kagome now, but would probably seem quite familiar to her tomorrow – as they head to school. School would provide no surprises, no hidden demons with shards, no real excitement. Hell, she'd probably be gushing over Hojo still. She might practically be in love with him – as strange as it seemed now.

All because Inuyasha just wanted to be a demon.

Because he was selfish, sorry bastard who didn't care about anyone else but himself.

Because he'd rather be a lonely youkai, than a hanyou with friends.

Because…

Because…

Who am I kidding, Kagome thought. I'm just as selfish as he is. Wasn't it just a bit selfish of her to want Inuyasha to stay a half-demon just so she could be with him? Especially since they weren't even really together. Hadn't she just professed love and adoration for him less than two hours ago? How did he respond to that? All he could do was stare, murmur incoherently, then watch her run off. It was obvious his feelings for her didn't run as deep as her feelings for him. Besides, before this all came up, she was competing for his affection with some dead priestess.

All she really wanted was Inuyasha to be happy. Just like, when she thought he would be happier with Kikyo, she was willing to take the backseat to the girl. So if Inuyasha wanted to be a demon, and that made him happy, she should be happy for him as well.

At least, that's what she'd keep telling herself before she fell asleep. Especially since the bigger part of her wanted him to be happy with her, just the way he was now.

Just then, there was a tap on her window. She looked at the glass to see a dark shadow moving about on the outside. She felt herself about to scream, but when she noticed the shadow had dog ears on top its head, her fear disappeared instantly.

"You scared me." She hissed as Inuyasha climbed into her bed room.

"Sorry." He said. Then he looked at her, his amber eyes boring holes into her face. "I am so sorry Kagome."

Kagome suddenly felt weakened by his presence, as her fear was now being replaced with the same hurt and discomfort she had been feeling before his arrival.

"What are you doing here?" she asked meekly.

"I came to see you." He replied honestly.

She looked away from. "I see you're still a half demon. Have you decided not to go through with it?"

"No." he said. She glanced at him and he gestured to a glass vile in his hand. "I'm supposed to drink this. It puts me to sleep and then I wake up–"

"I know what you wake up as." Kagome said. "But do you have any idea where I'm going to be in the morning?"
"No, and that's why I came to see you."

He walked over to her and sat on the edge of her bed. Being able to see his face up close, she could see all the torment etched in his features. He obviously wasn't taking this in stride. He was hurting just as much as she was.

"Inuyasha." She said soothingly.

"Kagome…I…" he sighed. "Listen, I spoke with Kikyo tonight."

Kagome felt her heart drop into her stomach. "Oh."

"She told me, that when I become a demon, the jewel will be one again. And that it will need a priestess to preside over it."

Kagome looked at him curiously. "Are you asking me to do it?"

"That's the thing. I don't know who it will be. But whoever it isn't–" his voice broke "–vanishes forever."

"And it's either…me or Kikyo isn't it."

"Yeah…"

Well this didn't take rocket science. She was about to start a new life tomorrow, she was about to vanish from existence! Rage surged in her momentarily, but before she could release it, a pair of strong arms wrapped around her.

"Kagome…" Inuyasha said breathlessly into her hair. "I care about you so much. I just want you to know that."

Kagome felt limp in his embrace. "Inuyasha."

"No matter what happens Kagome, I just want you to know that I'll never forget you." His voice was so full of emotion that it brought fresh tears to her eyes. "I could never forget you." He squeezed her tighter. "Never."

Kagome let her hands creep around his waist, as she nuzzled her face further into his chest. "Oh Inuyasha." She murmured.

They held each other for a while, saying nothing. Kagome enjoyed the silence. Enjoyed the feeling of his arms wrapped around her, his soft stroking of her hair. It was almost surreal to be standing here with him, during her last moments of knowing who he was. Probably her last few moments of existing on a whole. But she wouldn't want to spend them any other way, or with any other person.

"Oh Inuyasha." She repeated, her tone breathless.

"Kagome." He said in the same way.

They squeezed each other tighter, before he pulled away from her. He gazed adoringly at her some more, until she blushed. He gave her a sneaky smile.

"I'll be right back."

He sprung off the bed and jumped through the open window. Immediately Kagome jumped out of bed to see what this crazy hanyou – who clearly thought it was okay to throw himself out of two-story windows – was doing. But before she could get to the window and peer out, Inuyasha was reappearing, holding a delicate pink flower in his hand.

"This is for you." He said. "I want you to do me a favour Kagome. No matter where you wake up tomorrow, I want you to think on this flower, and think on me."

She took the flower from his hand, fingering it carefully, and found herself smiling at it. She knew exactly where this came from. Her mother loved lilies, and longed for a pink one. But bad enough it was nearly impossible to grow lilies in town, they were only sold in white and red. A little bit of cross pollination and determination and viola: her mother had the flower of her dreams.

Kagome could imagine how mad her mother would be tomorrow morning to wake up and find her one pink lily, plucked and sitting on Kagome's desk, guaranteed to die within the next two days. Then again, Kagome wasn't even sure she was going to be here tomorrow to witness her mother freak.

While Kagome got lost in her thoughts, Inuyasha continued: "I don't really care what this crazy miko says. I won't let you just forget me. Please try not to. This flower will be our flower. Please don't forget."

Kagome looked up into his beautiful eyes again. "I promise to try Inuyasha. I promise."

He kissed her forehead, then said: "This isn't goodbye Kagome. Just goodnight."

Then without another word, he opened the vile and downed its contents in one gulp. Kagome could only watch as he stood stable on his feet at first, then begun to stagger left and right, his eyes drooping sleepily. Not wanting him to land on the floor, she guided him to her bed. As soon as she managed to push him on it, he was knocked out cold.

A single tear snaked down her face. "Goodnight my Inuyasha." She whispered.

Then she climbed into bed next to him, and lay close to his side, keeping their flower between them.

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Inuyasha blinked once, then rapidly. He felt a yawn climbing up his throat, giving it its necessary release as he threw his arms in the air for a complimentary stretch. He was full adjusted to being awake yet, but one thing was for certain. He was alone. Where did Kagome go? He was almost certain he fell asleep in her bedroom, so then….

Suddenly, Inuyasha's eyes grew wide. It was the next day. He had taken the potion last night, and now it was tomorrow. Looking around, he realized he was positioned in a tree, sitting on one of the many sturdy branches. He jumped out, and landed skilfully on his feet. He could feel the difference in his landing from when he was a hanyou to now. Had this potion thing really worked?

He could hear the sounds of a stream near by. There was one way to find out.

He ran towards the noise, noticing the large increase in his speed. He almost felt like whooping for joy, but he'd hold into until he knew for sure.

Reaching the small body of water, he slowed until he came to a complete stop. Wow, even his control had improved. Now he would find out if this transformation did anything to him physically.

He looked into the clear water, ready to burst…

…But found himself looking back at the same hanyou Inuyasha.

He frowned. "What gives?" he said quietly to himself. "No horns, no symbols. I still look like me."

"Yo Yash!"

The voice seemed familiar to him, not to mention the nickname. Looking around he found three demons sitting on a pile of rocks near by.

Two of them were like him – appearing to be human on the outside, but actual youkai – but the final seemed to be cross between a person and a lizard, the lizard side of him winning the battle. The other two appeared to be brothers, both tall and extremely thin, with long claws and talons at their feet. Their only difference was one had fire red hair, and the other had a calm blue color.

Surprisingly, Inuyasha knew exactly who these people were. "Hey Hirudo. Dojin. Yaruda."

The one with the red hair spoke: "Why you staring at yourself like that man? You think you're pretty or something?"

"Shove it Hirudo." Inuyasha said as he headed towards them.

"You sure as hell took a long time to wake up." Yaruda, the half-lizard, said. "We've been waiting here for ages."

"You're still on for today right?" Hirudo wanted to know.

"On?"

"You remember Yash," Dojin, the final demon left, said. "We said we were going to raid that village across the larger section of the stream. Heard they've got some good stuff over there to make off with."

"Besides the women of course." Yaruda said lecherously.

Inuyasha chuckled to himself at how much Yaruda reminded him of Miroku. Always thinking about women and how quickly he could get them into bed. He remember how Kagome always told him that it bothered Sango to no end. Inuyasha couldn't quite catch her flow, but Kagome…

Kagome…

"Hang on guys, are you talking about the village that has the priestess living there?" Inuyasha wanted to know.

"One and the same." Hirudo affirmed.

"Heard she's a bit of a cutie too." Yaruda said with a grin.

"Doubt it if a priestess was going to get it on with a demon, it would be a lizard Yaruda."

"Lizards are the best lovers thank you very much."

"You keep telling yourself that." Dojin said with a grin.

"When are we going?" Inuyasha asked, hoping he didn't sound too eager.

"We would have been gone had you decided to get up on time." Hirudo chided.

"It means we can leave now, right?"

"Sure, if you want." Hirudo replied with a shrug.

Inyasha definitely wanted to.

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The village looked the same like it had before. Little house set up methodically not far from the stream. As he and his friends got closer, he could see Kaede's hut, still in the small position he remembered it. Nearby it, however, was a small building he didn't recognize. He concluded this to be the shrine house where they were holding the Sacred Jewel.

"Whenever you're into it Yash." Hirudo said. "You better transform. You aren't going to scare anybody like that."

"How quickly you forget Hirudo," Dojin said calmly. "Yash doesn't just transform like we do. He feeds off of other people's emotions. Get's his kicks that way."

"Sorry Yash. I forgot." Hirudo said. "You want us to go ahead, get the place nice and chaotic for you?"

Inuyasha grinned. "You guys sure are good to me."

And then, right before his eyes, Hirudo and Dojin began to shape-shift. Their hair grew to increasingly long length, and their faces took on wolf like demeanours, what with the long snouts and sharp teeth.

"Alright then." Hirudo said in a growl. "Let's really fuck with this place."

The three of them went out ahead, while Inuyasha kept close behind. As his friends went around terrorizing people and trashing the village huts, Inuyasha felt himself smiling. He loved this. The smell of fear, chaos, blood. How he desired it. How he craved to cause his own ruckus.

"Iron Reaver, Soul Stealer!"

More screams. More panic. The smell of blood. He loved it. He could feel himself changing, loses control of his senses. All that he could think about was the smell of blood. This was definitely a new feeling. One he could get used to.

"That's enough!"

The voice was loud, sonorous and commanding. Inuyasha paid no heed to it, ready to attack another batch of helpless humans. But just as he was about to lunge into action, the cry was heard again.

"I said that's enough!"

Inuyasha spun to face the loud-mouth – his eyes blood red – ready to slice the person in two. "Who the fuck–" he started in a growl, but when he was face to face with the person, his words died in his throat.

The village priestess. She was clad in her standard chihaya which consisted of the red pleated pants and white kimono shirt with the long, bell sleeves. She held a bow and arrow, drawn and ready to fire, her dark hair pulled into a ponytail and whipping behind hair.

Inuyasha could only stare at her in shock. The reality of what was going on hit him hard, taken him out of his bloodlust stupor.

The priestess narrowed her eyes. "You leave my village alone." She said, just before releasing her arrow.

It pierced Inuyasha in the shoulder. He groaned, surprised at how much the injury hurt on contact. Then again, this was a miko, sworn to protect the helpless from demons. She had to posses some form of supernatural power.

But more importantly, she possessed a pink lily flower, fixated in her hair.

The priestess was Kagome.

A.N. - alrighty, there's your fourth chapter. You know what happens now...you review, I write some more. And you review again. Dont you just love this? Also, just thought I should let you know, just in case you guys didnt get it...

Inuyasha is kinda like Sesshomaru. You know, how he always looks cool and collected, but when he gets mad, he changes? Well Inuyasha still looks like his hanyou form until he...how do I word this...allows his emotions to control him. So he feeds off of emotions: sadness, fear, happiness, etc. He's also triggered by blood, hence the bloodlust stuff. I hope you get it, and I'm really sorry if you dont. I tried.

See you in Chapter Five!!

Love 3

PS - i actually think the "Love 3" thing looks cute. Means absolutely nothing though, so dont bother your little brains about it. lol!!