Chapter six

Kurt looked around everyone's eyes on him. He felt like they were looking through his soul. But I knew they were looking for an answer. Kurt looked over to Thad, with a pleading look in his eyes. Thad leaned forward and looked in Kurt's eyes and spoke in a hushed tone 'I think I will start this, I know how much this is going to hurt you'. Kurt nodded mutely eyes welling up with tears threatening to fall.

'Well guys, me ad Kurt met in kindergarten. We were best friends; we are best friends' Thad spoke as he looked over to Kurt expectedly. Kurt broke the silence 'we used to share everything together; Secrets, Memories and even we got to the point where we used to share girlfriends' Kurt said with a laugh as he and Thad share an inside joke.

'Wait... Hold up you used to share girlfriends?' Wes asked with a laugh.

'Yep, It was Eventful to put per say' Thad laughed out.

Kurt didn't speak a word throughout their small talk, His head was full of thoughts memories he couldn't do this he knew what was coming next.

Blaine spoke to Kurt 'Hey, You ok'?

He gently put a hand on Kurt's hand and squeezed. Kurt looked up he rubbed vigorously at his eyes making his face red raw. 'Yeah yeah am fine dude no worries just a lot to say you know?' Kurt rushed out looking around in panic till his eyes landed on Thad. Thad seen the worry in his eyes, as he pulled Kurt into a hug.

'You don't have to do this Blue eyes. Thad cupped Kurt's face.

'NO. We need to do this Thad and if it means me breaking down then so be it' Kurt said in a determent tone.

'It was Kurt's 10th Birthday. I and Kurt was an odd pair off friends. We never did play with other kids. It was always just me and him'. Thad looked at Kurt; He was avoiding Thad's eyes at all costs. Thad carried on he took a deep shaky breathe and continued.

'Kurt was different from other boys, He would sing, Dance and do girls hair in preschool. He used to stroke my hair at night and softly sing to me. I knew he was different but that didn't bother me it never did. He was special and unique he still is he kept me safe from the bullies when they used to tease me' Kurt was looking at Thad tears streaming down his face. Kurt nodded mutely and looked away.

'So it was Kurt's birthday party, No one turned up, but we didn't care Kurt was hurt but me and his family tried are best to make it the best. 'Thad grabbed Kurt's hand.

'My mum died that day, she was sick, she had cancer' Kurt spoke dully.

There were gasps around the room, they were all shocked.

'That's why Kurt doesn't celebrate his birthday' Thad exposed.

'If that was not enough, Three years later I found out i was gay. Well I always did no, But i just... It was hard scratch that it was fucking difficult. I told Thad and he said he never thought me any different, I was still his Kurtie' Kurt said with a snicker.

'My dad had crucial heart attack couple years later, He nearly died'. Kurt said with a gulp.

'Kurt got bullied badly and i don't mean the typical bullies he used to get hurt badly he was openly guy, He never was scared of who he was. We stuck together' Thad spoke.

'Until you left me Thad, I had no one' Kurt turned to Thad 'I had no one and you moved away and left me to deal with that all of my own. How did you even think how i felt about it huh? You're the only person I needed' Kurt said with a cry.

'Am sorry you know what my dad was like i love you and never meant to hurt you' He turned to the rest of the warblers and spoke 'Dad found about about me and Kurt being gay, So he sent me Dalton to toughen me up, But and still gayer that a three dollar bill' Thad laughed out with the rest of the warblers.

'What happened after I left Kurt'? Thad questioned

'I think that's enough for the story's Thad, Maybe another time aye?

'Kurt i just want to know i don't know why your being so weird with me, you was never like this we tell each other everything! You're actually pissing me of! Look at you your clothes your hair even you body language and voice! Your voice aren't low it's high! Why you doing got this yourself! Your safe here, NO ONE WILL HURT YOU' Thad pleading voice filling the whole room.

'Just drop it ok' Kurt said annoyingly.

'LET ME HELP YOU KURT! TELL ME WHAT WENT ON!'

'I GOT RAPED! OK THERE I GOT RAPED YOU WANTED TO KNOW SO NOW YOU FUCKING KNOW THAD! I HAD NO ONE TO GO TO YOU WAS NOT FUCKING HERE FOR ME! THATS WHY AM THE WAY I AM SO NO ONE HURTS ME IF I ACT STRAIGHT, THEN NO ONE WILL TRY AND RAPE A FAGGOT AGAIN WILL THEY!' Kurt shouts the whole room shocked in silence. The only thing heard was Kurt gasps for breathe as he starts to panic.

'Kurt' Thad's voice cracking as he runs and grabs Kurt and pulls him for a hug, everyone's sobs echoing the room.

'All I can feel is him touching me, Telling all these things. i have seven showers a day because I can still fell his dirty hands on me.' Kurt looked around as he sprinted out the room to the nearest toilet and vomited.

He felt sick.

Used

Unwanted

He just wanted to be alone.

'Kurt are you in here beautiful? Thads cries echoing through the bath room.