Chapter 21

Fallout part 1

Loki was pacing in his cell when he heard someone approaching. "Director!" he said "Nice of you to join me"

Fury stepped in front of the god, anger apparent on his face "Loki, did you really think your plan would work?" he questioned.

"Director I know this is just a show for you soldiers" he said gesturing to the camera's " I hope Agent Barton is watching, that man is extraordinary in many ways, Director the things that man's mind holds I wish I could of played with him longer" Loki let an evil smirk dance across his face.

"He's not yours to play with" Fury spat back

"Of course! Because SHIELD has taken such good care of him" Loki laughed "you know as well as I do that Phil is the only reason that he is still here! Good luck with the fallout Director" he said as he sat down on the bench behind him.

"There will be no fallout Loki as you didn't win" Fury spat back and the god just laughed

"Didn't I?" he said

The live video feed was playing on the helicarrier's deck, Steve, Tony, Bruce, Thor and Natasha watched as Fury attempted to get some sense out of the god

"What do you think Loki did to him" Steve whispered to Natasha

Natasha winced at the memory of his stained pants "Played master with his mind, I suppose" she replied knowing that Loki, the trickster wouldn't give up that easy. She made a mental note to keep a close eye on Clint. Steve saw that Natasha was struggling with something and placed his hand over hers and squeezed, watching her face light up from his touch.

Fury had left Loki to stew in his own anger as he headed back up to the deck, seeing all the agents worry when he walked in. "Agent Barton will be fine, Phil and him are already back at Stark tower, he was cleared by our Doctors"

"If he goes all shining on my house I will kill him" Tony piped up

"Loki is known for his tricks, I believe this is simply one" Thor chimed in "We have no need for worry, the Hawk will be fine"

Fury watched the group defend there team mate, until he finally spoke up "Loki is here, I think you all just need to go get some rest, We will keep and eye on Agent Barton as a precaution. Loki will be sent back to Asgard with Thor in the morning. Now all of you go home!"

They all knew this was an order and they were to exhausted to fight it, so they all headed up to the awaiting jet. Steve grabbed Natasha's hand pulling her back from the group.

" , I uh was uh wondering if you would like to grab coffee once we are back in New York" he hesitated "But if not that's fine too"

Natasha face flushed as she smiled at how shy Steve was, she was enjoying watching him squirm." I'd love to Steven" She loved saying his full name "We should probably join the others first though" she said as she kissed his cheek and headed to meet the others.

Steve shook off his nerves and straightened up and headed back to the team, he was still in shock that red had said yes let alone kissed him.

The flight back to Stark tower was full of snoring hero's. Natasha was laid out on Steve, Tony had propped his head up on a parachute and Bruce had fallen asleep on his rolled up jacket, finally all giving in to there need to slumber.

Clint had been laying in there bed wide awake for hours. Every time he closed his eyes Loki was there, on top of him, forcing himself on Clint. He shook his head trying to push that thought out of his mind and snuggled up to Phil hoping his warmth would help.

Phil stirred as he felt Clint's warmth against him "You okay Clint?" he asked his eyes still closed, half asleep as he grabbed Clint's arm and placed it around his chest.

"I'm fine, just cant sleep" he kissed Phil's neck "Go back to sleep baby" Clint felt Phil shift.

"Okay baby…I love you" Phil said as he drifted back to sleep so easily

"I'm gunna need some fucking Ambian to get the fucker out of my head' Clint thought

The jet finally arrived, as it landed Steve woke up smiling at red sleeping on his lap. He gently woke her up "were home" he said as she stretched and sat up.

They all headed into Stark town, going separately into there rooms. Clint heard them all arrive and got out of bed, trying his best not to wake Phil, and went to find Natasha.

Clint walked up to her door and knocked "Nat?" he heard shuffling in the room and a door closing before she slowly opened up "Sorry did I interrupt something" He asked knowing she was hiding something.

She closed her bedroom door behind her "No of course not, are you okay? Its late why aren't you snuggled up to Phil?"

"Can't sleep my mind is racing" he shifted his weight feeling uneasy "Look we can talk tomorrow if I'm interrupting'.

She walked towards the kitchen "Clint I have all the time in the world for you" she smiled handing him a glass of water "spill it"

Clint took a sip of the water and readied himself to tell her a part of what happened "Okay, I cant get Loki out of my head, every time I close my eyes he's there, I can't fully flush him out. I can't tell Phil because it will just upset him. Fuck Nat am I feel like I'm going crazy!"

Natasha sat there silently taking in what her best friend was saying until she finally cleared her throat "Clint this did just happen to you, give it time" she touched his cheek "plus we are all a little crazy, I mean we stand next to superhero's everyday and we are just humans, really well trained humans ha!" she went to the cupboard and grabbed the sleeping pills she had hidden and handed them to Clint. "Take one of these, snuggle up to your man and relax, dude you deserve that much!"

Clint smiled he had never thought about how crazy they were for joining the Avengers in the first place "Your right" he said as he took a pill out of the bottle and handed it back over. "So who are you cuddling up to? Finally managed to bag Rogers?" he joked as he watched her face flush

"For a man stuck in the past he is very gentle" she responded enjoying watching Clint's face drop "Now I should probably head to bed" she forced out a yawn "It's been a long day saving your ass!"

Clint nearly chocked on his water "Going to bed! Yea right you gunna go and deflower the holiest Avenger left!" he couldn't help but laugh "Be gentle Tasha, no 50 shades bullshit!" he stood up swallowing the pill and walking with Natasha back to the bedrooms, draping an arm over her shoulder "Thanks Tasha" he said as she slipped away into her room, allowing Clint to catch a glimpse of Steve's chiseled body sprawled out in her bed.

"Anytime Clint" She smiled as she closed the door, slipping back into bed beside the now sleeping Steve. He rolled over at the movement and embraced her and let out a happy sigh, still sleeping. She kissed his hand and joined him in slumberland.

Clint snuck back into bed as the pill started to kick in, he felt his eyelids getting heavier as he finally fell into a drug helped sleep.

That night all he dreamt about was Loki and his control over Clint, the way he made him work for his release, that leather strap. The way Clint longed for the god to be inside him. He felt his mind tricking him when he heard Loki's voice say "So the Hake misses being my plaything"

When morning finally arrived in New York Phil reluctantly opened his eyes. The bed felt unusually damp, he sat up seeing Clint curled up in the fetal position still asleep, sweat was drenching his pajamas. "Clint? Babe wake up" Phil said gently so not to spook him.

Clint barrel rolled out of bed and up against the wall looking terrified "When is he Phil?" his eyes darting around the room "are you hiding him? Tell me where he is Phil!" his voice getting louder.

Phil was so confused "Who Babe? You were dreaming" he looked at the archer who was now getting to his feet.

"STOP LYING TO ME PHIL" Clint was now yelling "IS THIS SOME SORT OF SICK GAME?"

Phil was taken a back by his lover's anger, but knew he had to get him to calm down "Babe don't be silly, it was just a dream. You need to calm down" he watched as Clint started to pace the room mumbling "Babe its just you and me in here, I promise"

"He was here, I know he was here, I heard him, he was here" Clint kept mumbling. Phil took his distraction as an opportunity to practically tackle him and try and snap him out of it. Clint was fighting Phil but he had all the upper hand by applying all his weight on top of the archer.

"Jarvis call Doctor West, its urgent, Clint's had a breakdown and needs her" Phil said

"Yes sir" JARVIS responded

Steve and Natasha heard the commotion and opened the door, Clint was practically trying to claw off Phil's face when Steve stepped in.

"What is going on Phil?" Steve asked flipping Clint on his front, thus stopping him from striking out.

Phil was bleeding from the scratches to his face "I….I don't know, I woke him up from a nightmare and he wont believe me, he keeps saying I'm hiding him"

"Him?" Steve enquired "Clint I'm here to help you find him. But I need a description" he thought playing along may just help

"That Mother Fucking Bastard LOKI, he's here! I hear him! Now let me go you old FUCKER" he spat

Steve looked at Natasha who was frozen in shock at the doorway "Clint Loki is not here, he is on the helicarrier with Thor, he is going back to Asgard as a prisoner for what he did". By this time Tony and Bruce had joined Natasha in the hall.

"So birdboy had gone crazy, totally called that one" Tony said, feeling Phil's death stare on him.

"Agent Coulson, Doctor West has arrived" JARVIS announced.

"Why don't you do something useful for a change and bring the doctor in" Phil said

Dr. West arrived at the door with Tony, seeing Steve sitting on top of her patient, she took a deep breath in. "May I please have some time with Mr. Barton" she looked around at the group "I will be fine with him alone" She smiled at them as they left.

She picked Clint off the floor, he was still on edge Mr. Barton, do you know who I am, What's going on? Your in a safe place" he sat on the bed.

"Doc, I know he's here, he spoke to me. I was him to leave me alone, but he never will. He marked me as his plaything and now he wont let me or my mind go!" Clint jumped up attacking the air.

"Mr. Barton. The man no longer has control over you, Marked or not you are your own person" She said as she watched him sit back down.

"I'm only human, so easy to break, so easy to control…so easy, that's why he called me the Slut isn't it?" he was struggling with every word "Doc I just wish he had just killed me, Living with the memory is to much!" he sighed.

"Don't be silly, together we can work on you forgetting that, I'm not saying its easy but your worth more than suicide, Think of all the people you have saved as an Avenger!" she tried to calm him down.

"Doc recently I have killed more thank I have saved" She watched him crumple down and start crying "I'm not a good man doc, I keep secrets from the ones I love and I kill people.

She put her hand on his shoulder "No one is perfect, hell I'm far from it but I'm still here" she smiled as she squeezed his shoulder "As for secrets sometimes it helps to tell and outside party which is why I am here"

Clint sniffed "I shouldn't because when I say it…it becomes to real and I have to deal with it"

"Either way ending up like this, and attacking Phil isn't going to get you anywhere" She knew that would bring the realization home.

"Attacking Phil? What? Why would I?" he placed his head in his hands "Doc maybe you should just take me to the loony bin"

Natasha had the first aid kit out on the counter and was cleaning all the scratch marks on Phil's face, looking at the sadness in his eyes, she grabbed his hand "Phil he is going to be okay, you said yourself Dr. West can work wonders" she smiled "You guys will be all luvvy duvvy in no time" Steve passed them both a coffee "She's right Phil" he smiled at her.

"All done" Tasha smiled "you'll be fine in a couple of days, till then stay away from lemons" she joked as she put the first aid kit away and sat next to Steve at the breakfast bar.

"Phil are you okay?" Steve asked looking at Phil

"I guess I'm still in shock, I thought he was okay but clearly Loki still has his hooks in him" he signed "can we ever get a break"

"Hey he's got the best doctor in there, as Natasha said he's gunna be fine" Steve dropped his hand onto Natasha's lap "we all just need some time off".

After the Doctor and Clint talking about Loki and what he did she finally straightened up and said "I'm just going to let the others know your okay, but I am available 24 hours a day, please don't hesitate to call me Clint okay? What you have been through is hard to process and it helps to have a ear"

Clint just nodded as she left the room, he laid back on the bed "Why can't I just have a normal life" he rubbed his eyes "Can I have a month were I don't get kidnapped or attacked" there was a quiet knock at the door.

"Clint? Babe? Can I come in?" Phil quietly asked still unsure of his mindset.

Clint felt horrible, his own boyfriend was afraid of him. Now he knew why Bruce stayed single. "Yea its open" he sat up "I'm so fucking sorry babe" he said scanning Phil's face noticing the scratches "Loki's magic obviously still has some effect on me, maybe I should go back into quarantine" he couldn't look at Phil in the face, he felt so guilty.

"A few scratches wont hurt a top level SHIELD agent" Phil said "As far as quarantine I don't think I can deal with out you again, so I have asked for Thor's help, babe I'm stuck to you like glue and we are all going to help you" he said as he grabbed Clint's hand.

Clint kissed Phil gently making sure to miss the scratches "I'd be a mess with out you"

"Agent Coulson, Mr. Barton I am going to head out but as I've already told Clint, you can both call me at anytime and maybe we can set up a joint session" Dr. West smiled at them both as she walked out of the room.

"I'm hungry" Phil blurted out "Lets go out for breakfast" he grabbed a sweatshirt from the draw "Come on, get showered and we can go" he smiled at Clint who jumped to his feet almost as if he was obeying orders.

"You gunna join me Phil?" he said as the shower turned on.